I WONT EVER FORGET, the pained, devastated look on her face as she watched the life of her mother fade away. What kind of torture could that be? Finally knowing the love of a mother right before it disappears forever? And knowing that this body of mine will bring upon another wave of sadness for her?
YET DESPITE ALL, I've watched her for so long I can never bring myself to lose hope of that future, that one day we would be able to be happy forever. From the very start I've never had imagined that she would be this important of an existence, nor the cruel fate they had in store for her. Yet it was the same fate that brought us together.
I LOVE HER, the forbidden words that I know will bring pain to her, yet this feeling I can never bring myself to give up. Will it be possible? For me to continue living by her side year after year. I never want to witness that sadness on her face when she losses a love one ever again.
WHERE WILL FATE BRING US? For her, who decided to protect whose she loved despite everything that was against her? And for me who is willing to do anything to protect her smile? Will the day come when all of us can be together again? A day when her, me and everyone we care about smile from the bottom of our hearts.
I DON'T KNOW, since I'm still a brat who can't do anything left alone. I've wished to be grown up so I can take her hand and run away, but I know I'm still too unreliable. I can only make empty promises I'm not sure if I will be able to keep. Yet ironically it is precisely because we are kids that we keep dreaming.
SO I WILL BECOME STRONGER. Strong enough to protect all I love despite any circumstances. Strong enough so that she won't have to sacrifice anything anymore. Strong enough so I can exist in a future where we will be together forever.