These Day's
It´s cold. District 12 seemed to only grow colder these days. Some people are coming back. Some live is rebuilding here and some are trying to get the ashes out of the streets. I feel the Snow and Wind against my chin and hear the death on the field. It´s might be just my imagination but some days I can still feel it. The death one's from My nightmares.
I Hear Finnic scream. Feel Rue's gaze on me. And the cold stare of the Guy I had to kill, to protect her. At some Day's I go hunting. When I come back I think - know it´s not
There but Still think about to go home, to go to you and Mom and prepare Dinner. And then I feel this pain in my Chest and remember. Mom is not here. I still talk to her on Phone but I know she´s still grieving.
And then there´s Peeta. He Catches me on those Days. When he see me coming back his gentle touch is the only thing that keeps me from falling apart.
Prim ... Im pregnant. I wanted to tell you first ... I know you´re not here but I had to tell you. I don´t know how to handle it.
It´s not Joy but Fear that freezes me. Peeta is in a bad way. He is absent and when I call him he looks so much in pain.
He still heals from the Capitol. I think he get´s better but these Day´s it´s so hard to catch him. That's our deal. We catch each other.
I know he will be happy when I tell him later. He begged me so long. A family. It freezes my blood with fear at night. To lose it again.
To see everyone I love die. And then I think about you. Oh Prim. It´s so hard to let you go.
I hear steps behind me. Feel a hand on my Shoulder. He ask´s me to come home. I nod. I will tell him there.