Feral Instinct
Part 1


...I'm trying to find my own way
Sometimes I wish that I could fly away
When I think that I'm moving
Suddenly things stand still
I'm afraid 'cause I think they always will
And I'm looking for space
And to find out who I am
And I'm looking to know and understand…

Logan stared at the glowing fire in front of him as the song played on the radio. His didn't know who wrote this song but it sure matched his thoughts. How long had it been since he left Xavier's? He didn't know and he sure didn't care. The only one he actually cared about was Rogue and she was safe back there.
Five months spent trying to find out about his past. Unsuccessfully. Goodness knows how many months out here alone. He didn't feel like going back and he probably wouldn't, not for a few more months.

…All alone in the universe
Sometimes that's how it seems
I get lost in the sadness and the screams
Then I look in the center
Suddenly everything's clear
I find myself in the sunshine and my dreams…

He snorted. At least it worked out well for that guy. He was nowhere near that lucky. Sunshine and dreams? The only dreams he had, he'd like to forget. Nightmares and darkness. That was what he had.

…Join in the living day
If there's an answer
It's just that it's just that way
When you're looking for space
And to find out who you are
When you're looking to try and reach the stars
It's a sweet sweet dream
Sometimes I'm almost there
Sometimes a fly like an eagle and
Sometimes I'm deep in despair…

The song trailed off. Yeah, right. Things just didn't work that way. At least not for him. Not for a man like him. Never.
He sniffed the air. There was a whole herd of caribou close by and he was hungry. Hearing a soft bleating, he sprang out snarling from the bush he was sitting behind and sank his claws into the calf's soft flesh. The calf gave a last desperate bleat and collapsed. Logan was about to tear it apart…
…Then everything swam before his eyes. He didn't even have time to cry out when blackness took him.