CHAPTER 1 - Enjoy(:
"It's ok Stefan, I get it. You have no idea how much I get it. It's ok, we met and we talked and it was epic but the sun came up and reality set in. So please, don't make this harder than it has to be." Elena kissed my cheek and walked away, her candle still burning in the glass vase she held in her hand.
Dear Diary,
When people ask me if she's worth it, I ignore them because what do they know about worth; what do they know about sacrifice and love and the things we were born to do but were not meant to do in today's society? I may not take human life, or think myself to be of higher stature than the race, but I do feel as if they all believe in more than there is and less than there isn't. They hold faith in God , something which a vampire never gets the opportunity to hope for, but yet they lose that faith so easily it's hard to say they ever really held onto it. "Anything is possible," they say, but yet they are living in a world where vampires can't possibly exist, when of course we do. I write today to talk of the comet and the impact it seems to have on the mortal's of this town, Mystic Falls. Elena in particular is acting in a most peculiar manner, telling me goodbye. I can't speak for her and say she doesn't mean what she says and that tomorrow will be better, but I want to. With every ounce of my being, I want to believe in something so foolish and naive as a better tomorrow, where my heart is whole and my family is reunited. For Elena and my family both to be gone, I do not know how I would survive. I sit here and I think back to the day I made Damon turn with me, the day I ruined his existence with innocent blood he did not wish to touch. With a pang of guilt, I realize just how selfish I have been and how in many ways, Damon is the better choice. I know my brother better than anyone and I know for a fact that he is a good person. I can honestly say I'm the reason he's turned into the monster he's become, the one I can see Elena slowly falling in love with. I'm not saying I approve of where her heart is straying to and I'm not saying they couldn't make it, but he will be sorry if he tries to pull anything against her will or behind my back. Elena's the type of person I can count on to tell me when something happens, or how she feels about situations encountered. There are so many reasons I love her that I can't imagine living my life without her, which is impossible because one day she will die and I will have to move on or die trying.
Until Then,
Stefan Salvatore