Hello outsiders lovers (: This is my first fic. Thank you for reading.

Ok so in this fic it is set before the Curtis parents die. Although they die in a couple chapters anyway. Ehehe so yeah…

I don't own anything.

"Woah kid slow down," Two-bit laughed as I ate my food rapidly. I slowed a bit. I couldn't help it Mom had made some of the best pasta I've ever had. It was amazing, my taste buds almost melting. "It ain't gunna run away on ya." Is felt my face heat up as everyone giggled with laughter.

"Not my fault Mom makes such good food." My mother smiled at me from across the table. It was Friday so we were having our usual family and gang dinner. Everyone came over, Mom made a huge dinner. Sure the others would come over other nights and would eat, but those night were never for absolute sure. Not like Fridays we all knew everyone would come over.

"Keep at it buddy you'll end up a whale," My father's voice had its normal tease to it. I rolled my eyes trying to keep my laugh.

"Yeah I've noticed somewhat of a belly going on there Pone," Soda laughed poking my abdomen. I swatted his hand away. Everyone laughed, I didn't. Was he right? Was I gaining weight? Come to think of it my jean were feeling a bit tighter than normal. I was eating more too.

"Oh please so he still has a bit of baby fat, " My mom joined in. At this I completely stopped eating. Everyone was laughing.

"You know Mrs. you can only call it baby fat for so long," Two-bit grinned at me. Was it true? I wondered for a moment. Was I chubby? Or fat even? I shivered at such a thought. No I couldn't, their just joking around like always.

Regardless I stood up faking a yawn "I'm going to bed, night everyone."

Mom stood up as I was walking to the kitchen. Kissing my head," sleep well sweat heart." She then turns to everyone, "Yall should get to bed too, don't forget we have to go shopping tomorrow." Oh right, Dad had just gotten his bonus. Normally when he gets his bonus that take us all out and get us one new pair of pants and shirt. The reason we took everyone was easy. Johnny's parents didn't give a hang about him so they didn't get him any clothes, basically the same with Steve and his dad. Dallas didn't have parents to buy him clothes, and they didn't want Two-bit to feel left out.

I out my plate in the sink and walked into my room. I went unzipping my jeans and pushing them down my hips. I threw myself on the bed curling up under the covers. I began thinking.

I thought about what was said at dinner. Was everyone right? Was I gaining weight? Or was this weight always here? No I'm over thinking this. Their just playing around like they do every Friday at dinner. Thought that doesn't explain how my jeans are getting tighter.

You're just growing, I told myself. Yeah that's it I'm just growing. Everyone goes through this, yeah everyone.

After this was sorted out I began to think about the newest book I had been reading. I began to predict what would happen next. Although the chances of any of this happening is slim, it's still nice to think about.

I continued thinking about this till I fell asleep.

"Ponyboy, wake up darling." Someone was shaking me. I shook them off burring my face in the pillow. Maybe if I pretend I didn't hear them they will leave me alone. I felt more shaking "Get up Pony, you have to get ready." I heard my mother say sternly.

I sigh rolling over so I was looking up at her. She smiled down at me, "Morning baby."

"Morning ma," I said stretching, and yawning a bit.

"Get up and go take a shower, breakfast is almost dome." I nodded sitting up. My mom smiled and began walking out the door. "Don't lay back down."

I threw a grin at her, everyone knew that if I was woken up there was a high chance that I would fall back .asleep. However not today, I was looking forward to some new clothes. My other clothes were getting a bit old and holey.

I got off the bed walking to the closet and searched around for something to wear. I pulled out a red tee-shirt, and jeans. I grabbed my bathroom towel, and headed to the bathroom. I turned on the water, stripping my clothes, I got in.

I shivered a bit noticing the water was cold. I knew someone was in here before me and used all the hot water. Most likely it was Soda, Darry took a shower last night, and Mom and Dad had their own bathroom in their room.

Due to the cold I speed up my showering system. When I was done I grabbed my towel and dried off. Next, I threw on my shirt. Then, my boxers, finally my jeans. I didn't miss the fact that I had to put a bit more effort into buttoning them.

I frowned looking in the mirror. I took in my appearance, my normally flat abdomen was starting to build a small bump under my shirt. My jeans weren't as lose as they normally were around my thighs. Maybe the others were right. I did gain a few pounds.

I didn't worry though, I have a high metabolism. I'll just start cutting down on the junk food, exercise more. Nodding to myself I brushed my teeth and greased up my hair.

I walked out of the restroom and into the kitchen. When I got in the kitchen I saw everyone was already eating.

"Morning Pony," Soda said cheerfully as I sat next to him and Johnny.

"Morning." I said back. I started to eat my food slowly. I knew if I ate it all it would only make my weight issue worse. So I settled for a forth before I stood up throwing away the rest. At this point everyone was finishing getting ready, throwing shoes on and getting jackets. I got my shoes on and my jacket.

When I was done I plopped on the couch next to Johnny. I smiled at him. "Hiya Johnnycakes how ya been."

He shrugged "Pretty good I guess, my old man hasn't hit me too much lately."

I smiled tightly, I have and always hate the way Johnny's folks treat him. He deserves so much better than them. I guess it's a good thing their being nicer nowadays.

"Alright guys lets go," Dad called heading out the door. We all went outside. Jamming ourselves in the family car. There wasn't enough room So Darry said a few of us could go in his truck that he had saved up his money for. It was beat up and old but a car was a car, he said. Mom said there was no reason for us to waste gas when Johnny and I were small enough to sit on Darry and Dally's laps.

We did so with the inclusion of a nice shade of red to our faces. During the drive Darry started to shift me, "Geez Pony, you're like killing my legs." I frowned, was I too heavy for Darry? I shifted myself slowly sliding on the side between Dar and the door.

We finally got to the clothing store. We all got out of the car, walking to the store. It was one of those all kinds of stores. Guys, girls, men, woman, babies, ya know? Dad and Darry headed to the men. Steve, Soda, Two-bit, and Dally went to the older teens. Johnny, mom, and I headed to the sort of pre-teen area. Despite the fact we were 15 and 13 we were the smallest.

Mom took through all the clothes picking out the ones that she thought would make us look "Cute." Finally after thirty minutes of walking around we went to the dressing rooms. Johnny went in the stall next to me, Mom in the little chair waiting area.

I pulled off my shirt and pulled on the other one. I unbuttoned my pants and pulled them off. I got the new ones and pulled them on. I struggled with the button for a few seconds. I straitened everything out before opening the door. Johnny was already out so my mom could check it out make sure everything fit right. Unlike the others she wanted to be sure we fit out clothes correctly, calming we were too young to decide for ourselves.

Really I think she just wanted to make sure we looked "cute" enough. She was looking Over Johnny as I walked to join them. "Ok Johnny that looks great." She smiled turning to look at me. Her smile wavered a bit "Honey that look a bit tight, let me run and go get a bigger size." I frowned looking. The slight bump I noticed from earlier was sticking out a bit. My jeans fit perfectly on my thighs I felt my face heat up.

Jonny looked at me giving me a small smile. Just as Mom came back with a bigger size Shirt and Jeans, "Here try this on." I took the clothes. "Johnny you can go get your normal clothes on now." Johnny nodded as we walked back to the fitting rooms.

So the bigger sized clothes did fit and we checked out and got back in the car. I was still upset about the clothes. I'll just eat less, and exercise a lot more. Yeah like today I'll skip lunch and I won't eat all my dinner. Yeah that's good I think I'll even go out for a run when we get home.

We pulled into Dairy queen "You guys ready for lunch?" I looked at the car clock 1:30. Oh I didn't realize we spent so much time shopping. Everyone got out the car. I reluctantly followed everyone inside. I won't break, even if I've been at this for like ten minutes.

"What do you want guys?" Everyone said what they wanted. When it was my turn my parents looked at me.

"Nothing."

Mom frowned at this, "You sure?"

"Yup," I said. "Not hungry." I'm chubby anyway I don't always have to eat.

"Come on kiddo you have to want something." Everyone was looking at me, waiting for me to snap and ask for food. No I won't do that, I have to be strong. Yet I know they'll just keep staring at me if I don't say something.

I sigh "Water."

My dad's normally cheerful grin turned to a frown. "Really?

I nodded with a blunt face "Yes."

They looked at each other, "Ok honey if you want anything just tell us."

I nodded as we walked to a booth and they walked to the counter to order. Soda asked me if I was ok. I nodded, staring at the salt shakers. It was a lie. I'm a good liar, so good it sometimes scares me. Sodapop says I get it from reading so much.

I said I was ok but inside I felt low and worthless. The word from everyone was buzzing around in my head. It made my head began to pound. I would change that I couldn't go on if those thought would go on. I think it would actually kill me if it did.

Oh glory listen to me I sound like a girl, but that's not what I mean. I'm not doing this so the person will like me back, I'm doing this so the other don't continue to see me as the blob of the group. I'll be thinner and better looking.

Mom and Dad came back handing out food. I got an uneasy smile from Dad as he gave my water. Mom glanced at me a little worried. I shrugged and began sipping my water.

There only looking at you that way cause you never turn down food, ya know cause you're chubby. That voice in the back of my mind didn't make me feel too hot. It's the truth, you should know I'm your friend and I would never lie to you. Cause friends don't lie to each other do they?

No.

Right, my name is Ana and trust me one day I'll be the only one you can trust. I wonder what Ana meant by she said promise you'll always do what I want, it will help you.

Well if it would help then I would do it. I mean you don't turn down someone who wants to help you. Besides Ana seems trust worthy. Ok Ana I trust you.

She didn't say anything for a moment, then she purred great.

Ok I'm not too sure about this, so you tell me what you think. I fear I made Pony to girly, and I totally don't want to do that.

Please review, if I should delete this or go on.