A quick one shot on Jay's feelings during Time Stands Still. I'm thinking about doing one on Jay's feelings of Back in Black. Thanks Elske for reviewing. I might do a story for Ellie and Spinner. I might do stories like this for JT's death as well. I don't own Degrassi or it's characters or Rooftops by Melissa McClelland.

I'm supposed to be the heartless bad boy. I'm supposed to be the guy that's up to no good.I'm supposed to be the guy people feared. No matter what anyone or every fucking one says I didn't mean to get Jimmy shot. So we were never best friends but I didn't think that faggot Murray was that fucking psycho. If I thought for one second that he would do that I wouldn't have poured all that shit on him. Fuck. The moment we walked through the door Alex was yelling.

"Damn it Jay!" Alex screamed at me. We were at my house. "It's our fault Jimmy got shot!"

"No, it's not! Rick was a fucking psycho!" I told her.

"It is! We knew he was psycho and we pushed him!" Alex said.

"Lexxi," I whispered. I just didn't know what to say. Believe it or not I kind of felt bad. Not much but a little bit.

"Jay that could have been you." she barely whispered and it was a miracle I heard her.

"Lexxi..." Now I really didn't know what to say. She...did she...care? I went over to hug her.

"Don't touch me!" she said. "We could have killed somebody. You don't even care!"

"Hey I didn't say 'hey Rick go get a gun and shoot people'." I defended myself.

"You might as well have shot Jimmy!" Alex said.

"You set it up!" I yelled.

"I never said Jimmy did it!" she yelled back. I threw my hat across the room. I opened the liquer cabinet and grabbed vodka.

"So drinking is the answer!?" Alex yelled.

"Guess so." I said pouring myself a glass. Then the phone started to ring. Alex came over and grabbed a glass too. My machine picked up.

"Man...Jay...(sob)(sob) Jimmy...he's not looking good(sob)(sob)(sob)I think he's...Jay"It was Spinner. I grabbed the phone and saw that Alex was desperately trying to hide the fact that she was crying.

"Spin?" I said.

"Jay!" he said crying.

"What?" I asked.

"I'm at the hospital, man. They said IF he lives that...that-" Spin just started breaking down and crying.

"Mason!" I yelled trying not to cry myself. I hadn't cried in years and I wasn't gonna start now for some guy I barely knew.

"He's never gonna walk again, man. That's if he even lives! We might have-"

"Don't even say that! Rick did this! We didn't do anything!" I insisted cutting him off.

"Jay we did!" he said in a weak whimper.

"Listen to me Spin! You need to man up and shut up. No one needs to know. All their gonna do is blame us-"

"They should blame us we deserve it!" Spin yelled. "Shut up they'll hear you!" I hissed.

"I just wanna take this all back!" He whimpered.

"We can't now. Just come over later if you can." I said.

"Sure." Spinner said before crying even harder and then hanging up.

I turned to Alex and then poured us another round of drinks.

"What's the news?" Alex asked much calmer.

"Jimmy's never gonna walk again. If he lives." I said pouring my third shot.

"Jay..." she said. I just poured myself another glass. Then there was a pounding on the door. I got up to see who it was and of course it was Spinner. I opened the door and let him in. We got ourselves bigger glasses and we all filled it to the brim with alcohol. We sat on the couch and tried to relax.

"You can crash here tonight." I told them both. They decided to stay. Then Alex turned the radio on and Rooftops by Melissa McClelland came on.