... heeey ... So for all of you who are going to be like "EwWW Seblaine .. Icky" or whatever this is a story for my friend (who shall remain nameless) and it also gave me a chance to write more Blangst while I was stuck on my other story.

So yeah... don't hurt me. It's just a gift... from the amount of writing i've already done for it a long gift that will take a while.

But anyway, review and let me know how to improve or even give me some ideas for the story :)

"Kurt. He needs you. He loves you Kurt."

"I can't do this. Don't you get it? He's not the same. He'll never be the same again."

"He is the same. This just hasn't always been showing. If you really loved him you wouldn't leave."

...

"How am I supposed to explain that you don't want to help him? He probably won't even understand that you're gone. You do get that don't you? Then one day he's going to wake up and realise you are gone and what will he do then? No one's gonna know how he's gonna react."

"It's not that I don't want to help... it's just that... I can't. I can't look him in the eye and tell him that everything is going to be okay when I know and you know that it might not be. He is seriously ill, and we don't know what going to happen. What do I do if he turns around and attacks me. If he says he doesn't love me?"

"... What if he doesn't love you?! He's got a psychotic brain illness, do you really think that that's the most important thing here? He could try and kill himself, and you're worried about him saying that he doesn't love you!?"

"I can't help him Sebastian. You can. I know you love him just as much as I do, but I'm not as strong as you. You'd be better for him."

"You realise if you leave now that you can't come back. Coming back could make it all worse for him."

They were both quiet, neither one of them spoke. The bustle of the hospital filling in the silence for them. Both thinking back to the day when all of this started.

~0~

Never in a million years did Kurt Hummel think that him, his boyfriend and Sebastian Smythe would all be sat in the living room of the Hummel house acting like friends... but here they were.

Ever since Regional's, they had been getting closer and now here they were hanging out.

Blaine and his self were cuddling on one end of the sofa, and Sebastian was sat at the other. Kurt felt bad though. He knew that Sebastian was in love with the shorter boy - even if he couldn't admit it - and cuddling in front of him probably wasn't a good idea, but Blaine - sweet, oblivious Blaine - had no idea that Sebastian felt that way about him. So, he let the shorter boy cuddle him. Anyway, who knew how much time they'd have left? In a few months, Kurt could be in New York, and they'd only be able to Skype each other and go without cuddles for months at a time... so what was the harm in it?

~0~

After the end of what Kurt thought must have been the third movie they had watched that day, he decided to go and get some more drinks for everyone before putting the next movie on.

When he walked back into the room after retrieving the drinks, Blaine was sat rigid at the opposite end of the couch from Sebastian. Nothing could have happened, he would have heard if anything had. So, he thought that he would give his boyfriend some space, and sat on the floor opposite the two boys.

He saw Sebastian give him a knowing look and figured that the other boy was just as confused as he was.

"So... Sebastian, how are things with the Warblers? We haven't seen them since Regional's." He started.

Sebastian gave a small smile, "They're good... not much to do after you guys beat us. Well done by the way."

Kurt let out a small smile, and the two carried on their conversation. Occasionally they sent the other boy worried glances.

~0~

Kurt sensed there was something seriously wrong when Blaine started to violently shake. Both him and Sebastian looked at each other and gave worried and confused looks.

Slowly, Kurt stood up and walked around the table, and sat down next to the shaking boy.

"Blaine..." He put a hand on the other boys shoulder.

Blaine shot up into a standing position, and threw one of the glasses on the table at the wall.

Sebastian had stood up at this point as well.

Kurt - even though he was shaken - tried again to get through to the shorter boy he loved again, "Blaine, honey, you need to calm down."

"Shut up!" Blaine shouted. He grabbed Kurt's jacket by the lapel with one hand, and then pulled the other hand back into a fist.

Kurt had never seen Blaine so angry. When he looked into the other boys eyes, all he saw was extreme rage that he hadn't seen in the other boy before. Kurt had never ever been scared of Blaine before, but right now he was absolutely terrified.

He watched as Blaine blinked, watching as the rage was covered by confusion.

"K...Kurt?" He looked around the room, and then took in the stance he had and how he was holding his boyfriend. "Oh... Oh my God. I - What... Oh my God!"

The shorter boy let go of Kurt and curled his arms around himself. He back up as far as possible until he hit the wall, soft whispers of "I'm sorry" leaving his lips every few seconds while he slid down the wall.

When he reached the floor, he pulled his knees up to his chest, buried his head in his knees, and started to rock back and forth. All the while, he was still keeping his mantra of "I'm sorry" going...

So... there it is. The first chapter. I thought that maybe i would redeem myself from writing Seblaine by giving it a Starkid title but yeah.. bye