Hi everyone I'm Briana and this is my first twilight fan fiction! I love Rosalie and Emmett they are definitely my favorite so this is a story where Rosalie is the new girl at forks who needs to be saved. Will one special Vampire be the one to save her or are her issues too much to handle.
I do not own twilight or any of the twilight characters
Rosalie hale entry 1 October 6 2015
Forks, the place I definitely don't want to be at right now. It's not that I hate it here it's just the fact that I actually don't want to be anywhere, but that's not an option I guess. I'm Rosalie Hale and I'm starting this stupid journal because my therapist told me to. I'm supposed to write how I feel but I have no idea how this is going to help, but If it will shut her up I guess I'll start to write. I just turned 17 about 6 months a ago. I have long blonde hair and violet eyes. I'm about 5'8 and I supposedly have the perfect body . People say I'm one of the hottest girls at school but I don't feel like that anymore not after what happened.
I can't even sleep anymore.I am pulled from my slumber every night .I wake up screaming for help just wishing that what happened was all a dream, or that someone was there to save me that night. Even during the day I can be completely fine and then it as if my mood is interrupted and I continue to be haunted by what happened.
My mom must have decided my problems are too much because she is sending me to live with my father in Forks.I couldn't blame her I know my problems are going to last forever and i know no one can help me. I mean look at what i'm doing now. This writing about my feeling isn't going to help.
I feel worthless all the time and that is never going to change.I could never be loved by anyone. Who would love someone like me anyway.
So now I'm here, in forks in a taxi on my way to my dad's house. He knows what happened to me and came down to Florida for a week or two but never asks me to talk about it. I definitely love him for that, but when he sees me he just tears up and makes sure to say that he loves me. I just can't understand who can love someone who is worthless and broken? That's what I am a broken worthless beaten girl who has no place in this world!
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RPOV
I shut my journal as the taxi stopped in front of my father's house. His police cruiser was parked in the driveway. My dad was Christopher Hale the police chief in Forks . When he found out I was coming he was happy but I could see sadness in his eyes. I love him so much but this wasn't going to work out. I hate that he is upset all the time because I know it is my fault. How can someone love a daughter who always makes them cry.
I grabbed my bags from the seat next to me and paid the god it was a woman. As the taxi pulled away I made my way to the front door. I knocked and my father opened the door with a smile from ear to ear and hugged me tightly. My whole body tensed and I pulled away quickly. My eyes flashed with fear and I could feel the sobs trying to escape me. My father just stared at me with regret in his eyes.
" Rosalie I'm so sorry " he said " I didn't"
I cut him off " it's ok dad" I said quickly.I walked right by him but not before seeing tears spilling from his eyes.I went straight to my room or at least to the room I assumed to be mine. The room was painted pink and had a tan carpet. My bed was a queen and had a bedspread from pink. I had a walk in closet and a 42" flat screen hung over my two black dressers. I have never been to my dad's house before now. My mom and dad have been separated for 7 years now and this is the first time I have ever been to his new home cause he would always just come visit me.
I sat on my new bed and closed my eyes tightly trying to get rid of the thoughts in my head. I couldn't stop the tears from falling from my eyes even if I tried; so I silently sat there letting the sobs rack through me.
" Rose" my dad said with watery eyes" I love you so much" he walked over to my bed and hesitated before rubbing my back. I tensed up again but my body visually calmed as my dad continued to rub my back but deep down the memories were still haunting my brain. Suddenly I got nauseous and I jumped from my bed seeking something to empty the contents of my stomach into. At first glance a saw a small trash can and dove to it. My dad lifted my hair allowing me to empty my stomach. " It's okay rose! everything will be ok! It's okay" he said soothingly as he rubbed my back once again his touch left me reliving my nightmare. My sobs increased as I began to dry stomach was empty but the nausousness wouldnt leave me.
Once I was done I walked back to my bed and layed back down tired as ever. My dad was about to leave. I hated that I couldn't stand to be around my father. He was always my hero and now he can't even touch me without me tensing. So I stopped him….
" Dad please stay with me" I pleaded tears threatening to spill again
" Of course sweety" he responded with happiness in his eyes. I could tell he had been crying because he had the same puffy eyes that I did. He sat besides me and began to rub my back. My initial reaction was to flinch but after a few minutes my body relaxed. We stayed like this until I fell asleep. This was going to be a long year I thought as I drifted into my slumber.
I woke up screaming as my whole body was shaking. My dad burst into the room and slowly approached me "Rose it's ok" he moved closer but I backed further away from him. I saw the hurt in his eyes and I felt terrible. It's not his fault I am damaged.
I was in the farthest Corner of my bed and I was trying so hard to stop myself from crying but All I could see was him the monster. I hate him so much. I feel like he is always just staring at me like I was his prey but I was broke from my thoughts when my dad began to hum a lullaby from when I was little.
"Flower, gleam and glow
Let your power shine
Make the clock reverse
Bring back what once was mine
Heal what has been hurt
Change the Fate's' design
Save what has been lost
Bring back what once was mine
What once was mine"
I finally came to my senses and saw my dad sitting on the Corner of my bed. I wanted him to know I loved him so I lunged into him hugging him for comfort as he rubbed my back
" Rosalie I don't think you should start school today" he said with a shaky voice " I'll take the day out of work! Please just stay home".
" I'll be fine dad I promise" I pleaded I couldn't stay in the house it would be to easy to think about what happened. Although, being alone was exactly what I wanted to do. It's just that my mind wouldn't allow me that privilege.
" Rose" he said staring at me with pleading eyes
"I'm going dad" I said with a huff. I got off the bed and began to get ready. I put on make up really needing it to help cover up the puffiness and redness under my eyes from crying so much. I put on dark jeans, my knee high black leather boots, a white blouse with a black cardigan,and a tan knit scarf. I looked in the mirror and sighed I was disgusted...
I shut my light and walked outside to get in my dad's cop car. He drove me to school and we both remained silent for what felt like the entire ride. I looked out the window and saw the small town of forks. It wasn't anything special and the weather was crappy. When we pulled up to the school I could see people staring. They were probably thinking why is this girl riding in a cop car. I sighed and I got out without a second thought and looked at the entrance to forks. I began to feel more and more nauseous as I was planning on entering into the building.
" It's now or never" I whispered to myself trying be motivated. Then I walked into the school making sure to stay out of reach of everyone staring at me. I could feel my anxiety getting worse and worse so I sped walked to the main office.
" Hi I'm new my name is Rosalie Hale" I said trying be as happy as possible..
" Hi Ms. Hale I'm Catherine let me get you your schedule dear". While she got all my stuff together I looked out the window into the woods . The trees had no leaves but they were so pretty. I wish I was a tree . I laughed at myself I couldn't believe that I wished I was a tree. The thing about trees are they are untouchable, no one could hurt a tree, no one could Belittle a tree. A tree could never feel worthless.
I was pulled from my thoughts when Catherine handed me a schedule. She wished me good luck and sent me to my first class chemistry.
I slowly walked to the class and introduced myself to my teacher. Mrs. Lauren told me to take any seat so I sat all the way in the back away from everyone and looked out the window at the trees.
"I wish I could be a tree" I whispered.
So that is chapter 1 and chapter two should be up tomorrow
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