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'Will You Help Me Find Myself ? '

Chapter One: Only the Beginning

Dinner would be served in ten minutes. Nothing could have been further from what she really didn't need at that moment in time. Her stomach was aching from the knots that it had twisted itself in. The whole situation she was in was completely taking over her every thought and action. Studies had always interested her ad she had always found them easy to deal with, more fun then work. The role of Head Girl had been something that she had strive for since entering the school. But for the past week nothing had been the way it used to. Since returning for her final year Hermione had found herself in an endless black hole of doubt and emptiness. Everyone around her had everything they had ever wanted. Even Neville had found himself getting good mark on his end of year exams. Harry was happy in his new relationship with Ginny and Ron was actually taking it well since he discovered a new love for Lavender, not just the flower. But the one thing that they all had in their lives that Hermione didn't have was someone to share it with. She had friend and they meant the world to her. But no on was exclusively hers. No one was their to simply hold her when she felt lost. No one carried her books to class or popped notes in her text book just to tell her that they cared. Classes simply blended into each other. Nothing made her want to jump for joy or stick her hand in the air to answer that one question that only she would know the answer to. Now sat her with the rest of her house Hermione looked at the food in front of her. For weeks she had just eaten enough not to rouse suspicion about her mental state.

A hand waved in her face. It was only then that she looked up. Ron was looking at her as though she had just fallen off her chair. Now Sat in the Gryffindor common room Hermione had hardly noticed Ron talking to her

'What?'

' You were well out of it then. I was talking to you for about five minutes and you just zoned out. Is everything okay? Is it Malfoy again? What's he done this time?'

Being the Head Girl Hermione was required to share accommodation with none other then Draco Malfoy. The one person on this planet that she would even spit on if he was ever set on fire. The feeling though was mutual which made them living in such close proximity a real challenge.

'Nothing. He hasn't done anything. It's just I have a lot on my mind that's all. I have this feeling that something really bad is coming. I don't know what but I can just tell.'

She wasn't lying she could feel this awful dread inside herself that something was going to happen and she didn't like it one bit. It The treat of Voldemort still lingered although nothing serious had happened in a few months. There had been no attempts on Harry's live or any other indication of the forces of evil getting closer. None of the school would be ready for something to come along now and ruin the peace and calm that had settled over Hogwarts.

'Your probably just looking for something bad. You do always plan ahead, maybe you just want to be ready for anything. It doesn't mean that anything bad is going to happen. Just relax and cheer up .You know that we are safe. Come on enjoy the food . Harry and I are going to have a game of Wizards chess after dinner if you want to watch? Ginny and Lavender are coming too!'

'No thanks wrong I might just go to the library and start on my potions essay for Snape. But thanks all the same. Maybe next time.'

Potions would be a great distraction for her. The essay she had been set was not particularly hard but a good concentration was always needed when doing school work however easy. Yet the nagging feeling that something was wrong still played on her mind. There was something coming but now Hermione could not tell if it was a bad or a god thing.

A/N First fic on this website do have some on others. Wasn't into Harry Potter till I read some of the fics on here so I thought I might aswell write one. Please review and tell me what you think. I promise it will get better as I get going.