One Way Ticket to Misery

Sometimes I hate my life, no doubt about it.

It's full of misery and full of shit.

I can't stand all of this anymore,

And when people talk to me, all I can do is but ignore.

They talk and talk but it's useless.

Just like they say I am.

But everything they say goes in one ear then out.

I wish I can punch the wall, scream and shout.

Hoping they would just stop.

Because I finally had enough.

I've tried my best to change.

Just like they said to do.

But when I've tried, people accuse me of doing wrong.

You know what that's it!

I've kept this anger and hate too long.

I'm gonna let it out and say what I wasn't to say.

And if I have no other choice then run away.

I hate how they tell me what to do.

They don't know exactly what I'm going through.

And they don't know how it feels to be in my shoes.

All they care about is that I become who they want me to be.

But no one can change me but Me, Me, Me!

I hate how people shove my mistakes to my face.

They make me feel like the worst person, feeling out of place.

They don't understand the pain I have, the hurt and broken heart.

And to think of it, I don't know why I'm here and why I'm like this,

Even from the start.

People call me stupid, call me worthless, useless and call me cheap.

So I start to believe them,

And start to cry every night before I sleep.

Hoping they would just leave me alone.

So that I can decide for my own.

Cuz' I'm old enough to make choices for myself,

And I'm ready to take the consequences.

It's not like it's their life, its mines.

So they should just stay out of it.

Because I can make my life however I want it.

I've been hurting on the outside, dying inside.

Like there's no way out but suicide.

But that won't do any good, it won't solve a thing.

It will just lead to greater problems.

But will end this pain in one little sting.

So I began to think and so many things go through my head,

Like it's about to blow.

And the more I think the more I get hurt.

So I just need to let myself go.

I feel like giving up, throwing it all away.

Because there's no reason to keep going,

Cuz' my life is already broken, pitch dark and gray.

That I'm mad at the world and everyone else.

Thinking isn't life suppose to beautiful,

When it's really full of pain?

That sometimes people lose their minds and go insane.

Cuz' of the many things that happen and the stupid things we do.

That we shouldn't have done and now regret.

But that's what I chose, that's what I deserve,

Now that's what I get.

Because life isn't always played fair.

And I guess that's how it is.

Though I never thought my life would be like this.

Because I've taken too many chances and too many risks,

Not to see what I was getting into,

Until I did at the end.

Wishing I could go back so I could have listened to them.

But now it's too late.

Because I was already in the train to misery.

Cuz' there's no other way you see.

This was the only left for me.