Chapter 1

Bella's POV

As I sat there, in our meadow, I thought of him for the first time in years. It wasn't that I didn't love him; it was just that it was easier to put him in the back of my mind. Although my heart always has and always will be with him, I have never taken so much as a glance at another man since it happen.

You're probably thinking, "What happened?" well, let me clear this up for you.

After the incident in Volterra, Edward -wince- left again, thinking that if he left he could prevent me from ever becoming a vampire. Little did he know that Victoria was right here, in Forks, under his nose the whole time. A few months after his leaving again, I was in my room, listening for Charlie's cruiser while reading Pride and Prejudice, when my window creaked open.

Funny, I thought I just locked it…

I leaned up to close the window, when I began thinking of how Edward –wince- used to use this very window to watch me sleep, the impact of feeling the hole where my heart should have been with flames licking the edges made me wince. My world-famous grace helped me fall out of the window.

Now you are probably asking yourself, "How did she survive the fall, isn't it a second story window?" Well, with my being a "danger magnet" and all, I had enough luck to have a pair of stone-cold arms catch me, but as I looked up to see the face of my savior, my breath was knocked out of me as I looked into the blood-red eyes of Victoria. "Hello my pet," those were the last words that I heard come from her mouth as I slowly drifted out of consciousness.

I woke up in his room, befuddled at why I would be here, but then my earlier memories came back to me, hitting me like a ton of bricks, "I guess I'm Victoria's prisoner now…" I said to myself, stating my thoughts to the empty room. "How right you are, my dear," came the voice that haunted my very nightmares, though the source was nowhere to be found. "Now I have a question for you, dearie, "She spoke yet again, her voice seeming to emanate from the very room itself, "Why was it so easy to capture you? It's supposed to be a challenge, revenge; I find this much too easy." My voice broke and wavered as I responded, "They left, and left me behind; Edward" I cringed as I forced the name out, "told me that he didn't want me nor did he ever love me." I continued, for she hadn't said anything, "By killing me, you are in no way hurting him or his family, your revenge is pointless." I finished up and began to gaze out of the wall of glass at the twilight sky, though it was almost instantly blocked by her. As I looked into her face, I saw her eyes holding many emotions: shock, fury, pity and strangely sympathy. She then quickly disappeared, and reappeared beside me. "I know how you feel, in a way…." I stared at her in awe as she began telling me her whole life's story.

When she was human, with a human love, she told of how he deceived her and had left her in a zombie like state that was hardly worth living for. She told me of her suicide attempt, merely weeks after the incident, which was foiled by James when he saw her, on the ground, unconscious and quickly losing blood. The moment he layed eyes on her, he fell in love and in a quick rash decision, decided to change her, so that he could spend eternity with her. She described waking up in an unfamiliar room, with James hovering over her; and his pleasant shock when her first words to him were "I must be in heaven, look at the angel before me." Their love only increased as time flew by, she described when they were on their third honeymoon and met Laurent, a loner at the time, and the three of them decided to form a coven. From there she re-caped the baseball game that changed both of our lives and everything that happened after that to her. After a few moments of awkward silence, I finally worked up enough courage to ask her, "So what's going to happen to me now?" She pondered this for a moment and then responded "I think that I'm going to change you, and then you can have a chance at moving on, like I did." With that said she quickly leaned over, bit me, drank a little, picked me up and placed me back on the very sofa I woke up on. The fire in my veins was unbearable and a few hours later, I lost consciousness, yet I could still feel the fire all over me. Three days later, the fire ended, and so did my heartbeat. I slowly got up and made my way to the nearest full-length mirror, and with my newfound grace I didn't even stumble along the way.

As I gazed into the mirror, what I saw scared the living daylights out of me. (Pun intended) In front of me stood, well reflected really, a goddess. My face had retained its heart shape, and my eyes were still a deep, chocolate brown, my hair was waist-length and had deep red highlights, I was amazed to find that I had curves in all the right places, and had gained a few inches of height, but most of all, my skin had retained its pale shade, yet was not as light as other vampires nor did I have the purple bruise-like areas under my eyes. Strangely I did not feel any thirst, wasn't I supposed to be extremely thirsty after my transformation? But a few minutes later, I had the sudden desire to eat a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

Weird, why do I want human food? Oh well.

I ate my meal in peace and then Victoria walked into the kitchen "Strange, very strange…" she muttered, "Yeah, I know! I guess I don't need to drink blood." Her eyes grew wide with amazement. "Well, I'm gonna go hunt, I'll be back tomorrow." She said on her way out the door "Okay, I'll see you later then" and with that she disappeared. I decided that if I was going to leave Forks, I'd need a few things, so I immediately went back to Charlie's house, and climbed into my room through my window, grabbed whatever I thought wouldn't be missed, along with my Jane Austen collection book, and bolted. Running was exhilarating, and I was still amazed that I no longer tripped. I made it to the Cullen's -wince- old home, and settled my self to await Victoria's return. I changed her diet, and we wound up staying in hotels and such while hiking around the world. We traveled this way for years, until one fateful day we ran into a pack of wolves, they attacked us without warning. We had a huge battle, and Victoria died, I would rather not go into the details of how they paid for their actions, but I will say that they paid a great price. Ever since that happened I have wondered the world aimlessly, about three year ago I decided to go back to Forks, I have been staying in Charlie's abandoned home, and he died about 5 years ago. I decided that I would go to our meadow earlier today, the meadow that changed my life in so many ways all those many years ago. I got there and immediately, the hole that I had so carefully stitched together around my heart fell apart. I began crying, tears cascaded down my face as I thought of him and his family. (A/N if you haven't guessed, one of Bella's gifts is to keep all human qualities except her heartbeat also she doesn't sparkle, she can also put up shields around her mind and block her scent from other vampires, other powers will be revealed throughout the story) Suddenly, I smelled another vampire on the way, I hid though I knew who it was, but still the shock that hit me was like a brick wall when he walked into the meadow, sparkling all the while.