Hello Everybody! This is a songfic, my first one, so don't get a hard on me, please :) I really wanted to write something and just got my Florence+the Machine album and this song remind me of Rose so I came up with this. Anyway, hope you like it.
I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING, SADLY NOT EVEN DIMITRI BECAUSE THE AMAZING RICHELLE MEAD DOES. LUCKY WOMAN :SIGH:
HURRICANE DRUNK
No walls,
Can keep me protected
It was 3 months since Dimitri left me for Tasha. 3 months since my heart was ripped out of it's place to be thrown to the garbage. 3 months of pure Hell.
No sleep,
Nothing inbetween me and the rain
I haven't sleep. I haven't eat. I keep training like a maniac. I'm wandering right through existence.
And you can't save me now,
And now he's back. I can see he wants to say or do something. I can see it, even with the damn 'guardian mask' on his face. Just another bloody Zen lesson.
I'm in the grip of a hurricane
I'm gonna blow myself away.
I got tired of my life, my friends and this whole fucking mess.
I'm going out,
I'm gonna drink myself to death
Tonight… Tonight is the time to lose it. To let everything go. Shot after shot, my mind slowly becomes blurry.
And in the crowd
I see you with someone else,
Of course, he's with Tasha. They are standing close to each other, arms almost brushing.
I brace myself,
Cause I know it's going to hurt,
But I like to think at least things can't get any worse.
And it hurts. It hurts more than Hell's hot flames could hurt, or the icy wind of winter. But I face them and after the first shock I know it can't get any worse.
No home,
I don't want shelter,
They say this hell hole is our home. Well, not mine. I don't need it anymore. I don't need anything anymore.
No calm,
Nothing to keep me from the storm,
I'm restless ever since that day my soul was ripped apart to pieces. I feel like this black hole in my chest will eat me up alive from inside out.
And you can't hold me down,
'Cause I belong to the hurricane,
It's gonna blow us all away.
Nothing and nobody can hold me back anymore. Nor Lisa, nor Dimitri, nor any of these people who want to get a hold on me.
I hope that you see me,
Cause I'm staring at you,
I'm staring at Dimitri, studying his beautiful features, the warm brown eyes, the silky hair, the body I know so well, the man who used to claimed he loved me. Lover, liar, killer, all in one.
But when you look over,
You look right through,
The 'guardian mask' is on his face, showing no emotion at all. His eyes are empty, vacant, looking right through me.
Then you lean and kiss her on the head,
He leans closer to Tasha. I can't see perfectly but close enough to kiss her.
And I never felt so alive, and so.. dead.
I want to hit somebody, not even hit but kill. The adrenalin pumping through my body in hurry and I'm ready to face a whole army of Strigoi and it's because I'm dead. This one little movement killed the last part of me.
REVIEW, PLEASE (even if it's bad). Maybe I will make more if somebody like it. Did Dimitri really kissed Tasha? EEEW :S Maybe he could sing about it? Or more from Rose? Tell me and I'll try to do it. Thank You for reading.