AU:So yep, another JacobXBella fanfic… but there are only so many because that's the way it should have been. And I stand by that.
So this is my first fic, I would absolutely love reveiws, constructive criticism is welcome. Yes I am team Jacob, if you don't like it, you can just not read it :)
Also much love to my friends waiting to review :)

I do not own any of the characters or their stories I just like to imagine this is what happened instead

I also lay no claim to the lyrics and songs I will use.

I was in my truck on the way from school down to La Push, or as Embry would call it "the rez", thinking about the last couple of months. Which was a happy surprise in itself, I had not been able to think about anything other than the day ahead for over 6 months now.

It had been a while since I'd started hanging with Jake, and I think even Charlie was getting a little annoyed at the amount of time I was spending down at La Push, but I couldn't help it. Jake made me feel whole again, whenever we spent time together my spirits would lighten. School was a bitter sweet agony, it took away from time I could be spending with Jake being slowly put back together just like the bikes he had worked meticulously over until they were back to their former glory. I was never allowed to touch them and just had to watch while he worked, it was quite a sight to see. Sometimes when conversation would slow and cease as he concentrated particularly hard, I would imagine him working from the edges of the metaphorically gaping hole in my stomach until one day he would finally reach seam to seam, and I would be fixed. At these times he would always bring me out of my happy place with a smile and a "Hey Bella, pass me that wrench".

I still think of Edward, and try not to, and it still hurts just as much as it used to. I'm still in love with him, as much as I know he has lost interest in me, and I still hope he will come back and make it all better. For now I have Jake and afternoons doing homework at my house or at his in his make-shift garage which had quickly become like my second home. My second home, with my best friend, and own personal sun (my rapidly growing personal sun). That and my scarily accurate hallucinations of being able to hear Edwards voice whenever I did anything reckless. Jessica still hadn't forgiven me for walking up to those men at the bar down the road after making her watch a zombie movie with me. Well she hadn't, until last week. I smiled to myself remembering her face when I had brought her with me down the first beach to hang with Embry Quil and Jake. She'd spent the whole trip back gushing over how big Quil was and how his age didn't matter because of how old he looked. To my knowledge she hadn't had the courage to see him again, and was back trying to get and stay with Mike.

My brow furrowed as I thought of Mike. The day after I took the bikes to Jacob I had been so happy to finally feel a little better. At school I had actually contributed to conversation, met with gasps, from everyone except Jess and Angela. Lauren even troubled enough to scoff "Oh yay Bella's back." to Tyler whom just nodded with a smile on his face. As I sat trying to catch up with everything that had happened Mike had sought my attention.

"Bella, yoo-hoo Bella?" He started waving annoyingly in my face, so I turned to face him. Had I really not paid attention to anything around me at school? For the first time, I noticed that Mike's hair was now a very red copper, like a bad hair dye, and was long; he'd also lost his begging puppy-dog face.
"Yes Mike?" when I turned to face him he smiled wide and ran his fingers through his hair, oh great he thought he was the reason I felt better, because he was trying to be Edward.
"Well now that you're," fingers through hair,
"well you seem to be," hands through hair and imitation half-smile
"better. I was wondering, if you would like to go see a movie?" half smile, oh god did he study Edward? The thought made me wince. Seeing this Mike's smile faded and he looked like the hurt puppy once more.
"Oh yeah, Of course I'd love to," Well that saved his ego.
"R-Really?" incredulous tone, but he went and started acting like a Z-grade Edward again.
"Yeah we should totally get a whole group together and see something good." His face fell, but he still hadn't given up hope I could tell.
"Sure, sure." Was his reply. At which I had remembered how often Jake would say those words, and I had immediately gone back to waiting to get biology and gym out of the way so I could go see him.

Living in a small town like Forks, the closest movie hall being in Port Angeles, meant that it was few months before a movie everyone could agree on started showing and another week or two to coordinate around homework, work, and teenage life. We had decided on a time that was good for everyone today and I was going to ask Jake if he wanted to come with us, I couldn't stand the thought of going with out my silver lining with me. As I pulled up to the Blacks house, I heard the rev of a motor then a splutter shortly followed by the smell of oil and a plume of black smoke coming out of Jakes garage. Without thinking I parked and ran off the see if he was ok, in so doing forgetting how uncoordinated I myself was, as I came around the corner I slipped on the loose dirt of their drive and crashed hands first into the dirt clods an rubble screaming as the ground came closer. Jake must have heard me scream, for seconds later I could hear his clumsy footsteps as he ran to see if I was ok. The end result of this being that we ended up in a pile of human limbs that sounded much like the laughter superimposed over the funny bits in old slap-stick comedies.

"Bella what are you doing down here?" Jacob Black laughed as he detangled himself from me. With much difficulty, I suppressed my laughter enough to say,
"I could ask the same of you" I raised my eyebrow and realised how hilarious we must look, and started laughing again, god it felt good to laugh again. Giving one of his best Jacob smiles he stood up, leant down and offered his hand to help me.
"Well you see, I was going for chivalry. You know, saving the damsel in distress… buuut I forgot that I don't exactly fit the guidelines," after I took his hand and he helped me up he left one hand in mine and used the other to block letter title in the air.
"MUST have a good sense of balance." He looked at me still smiling, these days he towered over me, and was about twice as wide, it wasn't any wonder why he found it hard to move in a straight line without falling into something, he had grown so much in so little time. Chuckling he brushed himself off and looked at me.
"So what's your excuse then?" He pushed me lightly and I almost fell over again.
"Yeah me too." I said matter-of-factly while brushing myself off, dreading what my hair would look like right now.
"Oh is that so? And who was your damsel?" he mused, pulling twigs out of my hair, I blushed at the fact they were there in the first place.
"You my dear Watson, and I am subtracting two years from your current age." I smiled and walked towards the make shift garage. It took Jake a few minutes to realise what I had said, at which point he followed me.
"Hang on, why am I now two years younger?" He looked pleasantly confused; I waited until I had sat down in the rabbit to answer him.
"Because you blew something up" I smiled and poked out my tongue at him.
"Look around bells, do you see any fire balls, or even any smoke?" I laughed as Jacob dramatically flung his hands around, hitting them on the bonnet of the rabbit by accident.
"OW!" he managed to say before flinching and tripping, he was almost as co-ordinated as I was, I thought to myself while giggling.
"Bells the 'explosion'" He air quoted.
"was me finally finishing this bike." As he explained he wheeled around a magnificent shiny black motorcycle.
"Oh Jake! This is awesome! Thank you sooo much." I couldn't help but smile up at my radient personal sun, but he was putting on a foux angry face.
"Bella what the hell are you on about, as if i would let you ride my bike!" He looked like he was trying hard not to crack up. I couldn't blame him, my face would have been priceless. I swear I was lucky the wind didn't change.
"bu-but I thought-" I stammered in confusion. Jake walked around the corner and out of the door, leaving me to feel horrible. Seconds later he came back, beaming from ear to ear.
"This is your bike Bells." He pointed to the cherry red bike he had just wheeled in. I instantly fell in love with it and flung myself into Jacobs arms, in an attempt to hug him. This of corse ended in a sense of déjà vu as we crashed into the ground by the door. Smiling Jake pushed the hair out of my face, and it struck me that things like this were never awkward between us. I stood and offered my hand to help him up, to which he shook his head laughing.
"Now why would i take the hand of someone who can't even hug me without attempting murder?" He joked.
"And i thought we were doing homework today?" He looked conspirationally at me.
"Well we were, buuuuut i have an even better idea," I Winked and offered my hand again, this time he took it almost pulling me down with his efforts to get up. Bella you really should learn the laws of gravity and leverage i told myself.
"Oh yeah? And what could be better than algebra?" Jake only just managed to get the sentence out before dissolving into fits of laughter.
"Doing homework for an hour, then coming to the movies with me and some kids from school." Looking up at him, biting my lip, hoping he would agree. Looking down at me he smiled and grabbed my hand, dragging me towards the little red house.
"SO x equals yz you say?" He asked as we got to the door. I smirked and took that as a 'yes'.

As we worked through Jacobs algebra work, we talked about the movie. It was a gory action flick. Secretly the only reason I wanted to go to this one, was becuase it was the only non-romance currently showing. I didn't let Jacob in on this however, I knew he would see through it and know that I was avoiding anything I could relate to Edward. The mere thought, dug the pain up again and I cringed in the middle of helping Jake with his last assigned question. I tried to mask it, but he saw. God bless him, all he did was reach around me and hug me. Some how, that kid always knew what i needed. Then i realised, I really couldn't live without him. Even if Edward came back, and i went back to him(which I know i would), I would never be able to go long without seeing Jake.