Day 1: Monday September 5th 2005: Olivia
Early start today, got called in by the Captain at some God forsaken hour. Pretty crappy really. El picked me up, in a bad – ass mood. His daughter's birthday and he missed it. Kathy was not pleased. Anyway we got to work and Cragen told us the case. I've seen some pretty horrendous things in my life but, I swear…my god this is the worst. We got to the hospital to pick the girl up and talk to her. Doctor showed us to her and told us of the results of tests. Elliot was disgusted – could tell from his face. A young looking girl. I thought she was no more than 4, but she was 9 years old, abused. No-one knows who – yet. Granted we've seen cases like this many times…but the girl looked so withdrawn, pallid skin, greasy hair, never says a word. Someone tried to make her look'pretty' and 'girly' but it was a pathetic attempt. Her hair was matted and her clothes torn and dirty and she smeeled of urine. I was with her all day and she said NOTHING! Not a word. I didn't expect her to be the life and soul but I've always had a way…I can't explain how this girl made me feel …..I've never felt so sad in my life…….
We'll have to speak to Huang. Took a statement of her family. Obviously a poor family who appear to love her and unconditionally but I've learnt to never dismiss anyone. But surely the family couldn't have done it…? Not to their beautiful child… Tomorrow we're following up leads, the girls last movements…
It affected Elliot too. Him having kids and all….Who can make a 9 year old girl be so terrified? Hell knows but by god if it's the last thing I do I swear I'll get the bastards. The team, Munch, Fin, Alex, Cragen, Elliot and I. WE'LL get the bastards.
Elliot
Got the call off Cragen at 5am. Kathy was not pleased. Maureen's birthday, she'll no doubt kill me. I picked Liv up. She seemed equally pissed off. Got to the hospital. Spoke to the doctor in charge of the little girl. Jesus Christ I nearly died when I heard what happened to her. Multiply abused by more than one person, physically and sexually. It wasn't just that , that shocked me but actually seeing her disturbed me. I felt sickened to the core and looking at Olivia I knew she felt the same. Her matted greasy hair, skeletal frame sickly skin. She flinched when we spoke to her. I noticed that. Those are things that stay with you. Olivia tried to talk to the girl. She didn't look up or utter an audible breath. I've seen Olivia gain the trust of the most terrified children but not her. Not Melissa Waters.
We spoke to the family. They were as shocked as we were…… The first people we investigate are close family friends but no-one could fake that. No father could break his daughter to a shell…
God - I never realise the full extent of my love to my family until I see worlds torn apart, lives destroyed, families ripped to shreds. I love them with EVERYTHING I have, every ounce of being. My reason for being. They are a part of me. I love them.
We'll see where tomorrow takes us.