"This can't be, Buffy." Spike exclaimed. As great of a fighter he may be, he isn't so well at keeping his calm. He paced the floor of the Summers' house again and again as Buffy sat silently on the sofa. She fell back against the soft cusioning and sighed deeply. Watching Spike this desheveled was kind of amusing…and creepy. Spike finally stopped pacing and turned to Buffy in confusion. He repeated himself for a third time. He ran his hand through his neatly sleak platnum blonde hair and a few strands fell loose.
"Spike." Buffy spoke softly. She pulled herself from the comfy sofa and look his hands into hers. She watched as her small soft hands wrapped around her lover's. She turned her attention to his face, oh his beautiful face. Sometimes she wondered how such a beautiful face had remained unworn through so many years.
"I mean, Buffy, are you sure? Because…well because we can't—vampires—can't have children. So…" His voice was shaky. He was clearly scared. The first that Buffy had seen. Although Buffy understood his fear and concern, she was hurt by his questioning. Of course she knows the whole vampires don't have children thing. She backed away from him and folded her arms. He got the hint that she was a little upset. "I didn't mean it like that Buffy, you know that. I just meant—well—whatever ishappening it's happening for a reason. We both know well enough that these bloody things don't just happen. Not like this…but…I am here with you through anything. I know you don't love me, Buffy. Anyone can see it. I havent given you a reason to love me. Or trust me for that matter. But Buffy…I do love you. I love you without a soul…without a beating heart…I love you. Know that. Whatever happens from here it's going to be okay." He pulled her close to him in his embrace. Her face pressed against his chest and her arms trailed behind him and she rested her hands on his shoulder blades. She couldn't love him. She knew that. Baby or no baby.
"I know." Was all she could mutter. "I know." She closed her eyes and just sighed. She was so tired. Mentally and physically exhausted. Was this really happening? I mean, Spike did have a point. Vampires just cant have children. Yet again, he's the only thing—living or dead—that she had been with in quite a few months…since….Riley. What if Riley had stayed…this baby could be his. A normal, human baby. It could have a normal life. A daddy to take it to the park on a sunny day. A daddy that it could depend on. A daddy that was human and actually had a beating heart. But…it shouldn't matter. Beating heart. Human. It all shouldn't matter. A few years ago I would have been more than willing to have a whole house full of Angel's children—I mean—if it were possible. So what makes Spike so different? He loves me. He is willing to give this a chance. Am I? Am I willing to give all this a chance? Yet I really don't have a choice now.