Um...I like this story...Ken is so much fun!!
I used a reference from the Last Herald Mage by Mercedes Lackey in here...I'm sorry if it's confusing...
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I can remember when I first met Yohji. Well, without anyone else to interrupt us, anyway. He was a broken man. He had just lost Asuka and his world was falling apart.
We hung out at the house, and had a few drinks. I learned a lot about Yohji that night. His first true love had been Asuka. He figured that she had been the love of his life. He thought that he'd never love again. Since Asuka had passed, Yohji had fallen into a self-destructive pattern. He began drinking and smoking way more than he had in the past. He began sleeping with countless people, lots of nameless faces. Some of which, were men. Can you believe that? Yohji, with men...it was a lot to take in.
He made a pass at me. To tell you the truth, I wasn't even really aware that relationships like that existed. It scared me. I turned him down. Can you believe that? Yohji Kuduo, the great sex god, turned down by me...he was pissed of course, but it actually brought us closer together.
After that, we became best friends. I worked best with him on missions, he was the best company in the flower shop, and my free time is best spent with him. After only a few short months, I began to have feelings for him, other than friendship.
I didn't know how to explain myself to him. After all, it wasn't too long ago that I had turned him down. Who was to say that he wouldn't do the same to me?
I asked Omi what he thought. He thought I should go for it, of course. I was scared, but I decided that Yohji was well worth the trouble. Of course, I was still clueless about male/male relationships. I just knew that I had to be with him.
Two years later, I finally worked up the courage to ask him on a date, but it didn't come out right, so he didn't know it was a date. He thought that we were just going out to dinner as friends like often did. So it came as a shock for him when we had a romantic type dinner, (without the romance- it just looked the part) a table for two up on the balcony of a fancy restaurant. Probably even more shock, when I paid for both of our dinners. But I'm sure that the most shocking part of the night, was when I walked him to his room, and gave him a good night kiss.
He didn't refuse it, yet he didn't eagerly participate either. He just accepted it. Afterwards, he just stared at me for the longest time. There was much confusion in his eyes, and maybe a hint of pain. Had he longed for this moment the same as I had? He didn't give me much of a chance to try and figure it out. He kissed me, with so much passion and need, that I cried. He pulled me into his room, and showed me what it was like to love a man.
Well, being with a man is quite different from being with a woman, let me tell you. Like I said before, I didn't really know that same sex relationships happened, so of course, I had never thought about the physics of the matter. If anyone would have tried to tell me what Yohji was going to do to me that night, I would have never believed him or her. Up until that night, I would have thought of that place to be an exit only. And Yohji was not gentile. Oh I know what you're thinking, "Yohji? Not gentile? Right..." but Yohji had been waiting for quite a while, and he was very excited, to say the very least. He was in a hurry, and didn't use much lubrication. It wasn't too bad after a while, but it him me hard in the morning.
After that we started seeing each other more intimately. We spent every waking moment with each other. We even had sex during not-so-dangerous missions. After only one short month of dating, I was hooked, and in love. I breathed only for Yohji. I lived only for his touch. We were inseparable. But did Yohji feel the same for me?
On the outside, all signs pointed to yes. But what about Asuka? She was his one true love, right? He said he could never love again, right? So was he just playing with me?
Not too long ago, I read this book about magic. The man in the book had fallen in love with another man, and had done what they called 'lifebonded' to him. Now they say that lifebonding was a rare thing. But this man, Vanyle, had done it. When your lifebonded dies, you usually die soon after. When Vanyle's lifebonded died, Vanyle then bonded with his companion (it's a horse, not a lover-read Mercedes Lackey books if you want to know more-Vanyle is from the Valdemar series) so he didn't die. After years, Vanyle again, lifebonded. Lifebonds are rare enough the way it is, but this man did it twice. Although you're kind of lead to believe that his new lifebond is sort of the reincarnation of his first lifebond.
So anyway, where I'm trying to go with this, is in a way, Yohji was lifebonded to Asuka. And maybe-he didn't die, because he bonded with me so soon. But now-I certainly fell lifebonded to him, and I'm certainly not young enough to be the reincarnation of Asuka. But maybe some of her is in me...maybe Yohji can see some similarities between the two of us. Maybe he does love me-why else would he stick around with me for so long?
TBC
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So? What do ya'll think? I love writing from Ken's point of view...he's just so...fun. I hope to have the next part up really soon.
I used a reference from the Last Herald Mage by Mercedes Lackey in here...I'm sorry if it's confusing...
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I can remember when I first met Yohji. Well, without anyone else to interrupt us, anyway. He was a broken man. He had just lost Asuka and his world was falling apart.
We hung out at the house, and had a few drinks. I learned a lot about Yohji that night. His first true love had been Asuka. He figured that she had been the love of his life. He thought that he'd never love again. Since Asuka had passed, Yohji had fallen into a self-destructive pattern. He began drinking and smoking way more than he had in the past. He began sleeping with countless people, lots of nameless faces. Some of which, were men. Can you believe that? Yohji, with men...it was a lot to take in.
He made a pass at me. To tell you the truth, I wasn't even really aware that relationships like that existed. It scared me. I turned him down. Can you believe that? Yohji Kuduo, the great sex god, turned down by me...he was pissed of course, but it actually brought us closer together.
After that, we became best friends. I worked best with him on missions, he was the best company in the flower shop, and my free time is best spent with him. After only a few short months, I began to have feelings for him, other than friendship.
I didn't know how to explain myself to him. After all, it wasn't too long ago that I had turned him down. Who was to say that he wouldn't do the same to me?
I asked Omi what he thought. He thought I should go for it, of course. I was scared, but I decided that Yohji was well worth the trouble. Of course, I was still clueless about male/male relationships. I just knew that I had to be with him.
Two years later, I finally worked up the courage to ask him on a date, but it didn't come out right, so he didn't know it was a date. He thought that we were just going out to dinner as friends like often did. So it came as a shock for him when we had a romantic type dinner, (without the romance- it just looked the part) a table for two up on the balcony of a fancy restaurant. Probably even more shock, when I paid for both of our dinners. But I'm sure that the most shocking part of the night, was when I walked him to his room, and gave him a good night kiss.
He didn't refuse it, yet he didn't eagerly participate either. He just accepted it. Afterwards, he just stared at me for the longest time. There was much confusion in his eyes, and maybe a hint of pain. Had he longed for this moment the same as I had? He didn't give me much of a chance to try and figure it out. He kissed me, with so much passion and need, that I cried. He pulled me into his room, and showed me what it was like to love a man.
Well, being with a man is quite different from being with a woman, let me tell you. Like I said before, I didn't really know that same sex relationships happened, so of course, I had never thought about the physics of the matter. If anyone would have tried to tell me what Yohji was going to do to me that night, I would have never believed him or her. Up until that night, I would have thought of that place to be an exit only. And Yohji was not gentile. Oh I know what you're thinking, "Yohji? Not gentile? Right..." but Yohji had been waiting for quite a while, and he was very excited, to say the very least. He was in a hurry, and didn't use much lubrication. It wasn't too bad after a while, but it him me hard in the morning.
After that we started seeing each other more intimately. We spent every waking moment with each other. We even had sex during not-so-dangerous missions. After only one short month of dating, I was hooked, and in love. I breathed only for Yohji. I lived only for his touch. We were inseparable. But did Yohji feel the same for me?
On the outside, all signs pointed to yes. But what about Asuka? She was his one true love, right? He said he could never love again, right? So was he just playing with me?
Not too long ago, I read this book about magic. The man in the book had fallen in love with another man, and had done what they called 'lifebonded' to him. Now they say that lifebonding was a rare thing. But this man, Vanyle, had done it. When your lifebonded dies, you usually die soon after. When Vanyle's lifebonded died, Vanyle then bonded with his companion (it's a horse, not a lover-read Mercedes Lackey books if you want to know more-Vanyle is from the Valdemar series) so he didn't die. After years, Vanyle again, lifebonded. Lifebonds are rare enough the way it is, but this man did it twice. Although you're kind of lead to believe that his new lifebond is sort of the reincarnation of his first lifebond.
So anyway, where I'm trying to go with this, is in a way, Yohji was lifebonded to Asuka. And maybe-he didn't die, because he bonded with me so soon. But now-I certainly fell lifebonded to him, and I'm certainly not young enough to be the reincarnation of Asuka. But maybe some of her is in me...maybe Yohji can see some similarities between the two of us. Maybe he does love me-why else would he stick around with me for so long?
TBC
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So? What do ya'll think? I love writing from Ken's point of view...he's just so...fun. I hope to have the next part up really soon.