Arms wrapped around my waist and my back sunk into the warmth surrounding me, the scent of her taking me somewhere else; taking me to a place of peace and calm where there's only the two of us. No blood, no throne, no fighting, no battles, just us.
I still see her everywhere; feel her everywhere, just like right now. I know I need to let her go but I can't, I won't. There's still time to keep her here, with me.
Her soft lips touch my cheeks and turn around in her arms. My hands resting on her shoulders and my lips meet hers midway. "I love you." I whisper and her smile tells me she does too. That's what I like the most about us, words are not needed to express how we feel. One look and we know what the other one is feeling, what the other one is holding.
She cradles us from foot to foot as some soft instrumental plays in the background. The night seems perfect with her and I wouldn't want to have it any other way.
She pushes me away, twirls me and pulls me into her again. Her lips meet mine in a soft brush, moving down to my jaw to neck and back up to my lips.
"I miss you." Her words break my heart, reminding me this isn't her; this is just me and my mind. Tears well up again like every night when I'm alone with myself.
"You don't have to be so far." I whisper, my voice breaking. My arms wrap around her as I hold her close to me, the beating heart under my ear calming me down, reminding me she is here…. For now.
Her fingers run through my hair in a soothing manner, silent tears escaping my eyes. I feel her press her lips on top of my head and breath in the scent like she always did.
Her arms wrap around me, holding me tight, her warmth is all I care about. I look up when I feel something went on my head. Tears are sliding down her face, her lips meet mine. "I don't want to be." She whispers and meets our lips.
"Then stay… Don't leave." I say wiping away her tears. This woman is a warrior, a legend and still she is letting her walls crack in front of me, I just wish I could keep her with me, around me, feel her like this in flesh and bone, listen to her heartbeat every night.
Her lips meet mine in a deep kiss, but what's worse this time I know she is going, I know she isn't coming back, no matter what I want, what I wish, she is going to be gone.
And just like that she is gone when my eyes open. My hands fall down to my sides and I fall to my knees and then to the ground; curling up in a ball I cry myself to sleep.
still heartbroken and breaking everytime I see Lexa.