I Hate Myself for Losing You
I woke up this morning, he wasn't there. I guess I got so used to him sneaking into my house and my bed that it feels strange when he doesn't. The room was empty. The rest of my house was too. He wasn't in my bath, he wasn't going through my underwear drawer, he wasn't reading my novel and he wasn't eating my food.
I guess it's my fault, we did fight after all. But I feel so strange without him, like something's missing. I feel like there's no use in living without him with me. But, that can't be right. I figured I should apologise for everything I said to him, tell him how much I regretted it. But, what would I say?
I went to the guild. He was with her. I felt myself cringe inside. I felt so horrible to see them chatting and laughing together. I couldn't stand it. No one could save me from the pain and emptiness I felt. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't live with myself if I broke them apart and made him unhappy. I also couldn't live with them together. I decide to go home and think over what to do.
I wish he knew what I was feeling. I wish he returned my feelings. Why did I realise everything when it was too late? Why is fate so cruel to me? I hate myself for letting her win him, but the mirror told me a different story. It was my fault he chose her over me. What do I do if I'm the reason he's not here? What do I do if I can't say anything to make him come back? Why am I crying? Tears won't bring him back.
"I hate myself for loving you, Natsu Dragneel!"
I felt arms around me. It can't be. My tears momentarily stopped.
"Why didn't you say so? Weirdo." He was here, he heard it all. "I love you, too."
I smiled through my tears.
Some say love hurts, I say it never fails.
Me: Hey minna! I was listening to Kelly Clarkson's song and decided to write a short and crappy one-shot ^^
Mira: D'X
Me: Oi, oi. Mira-chan, daijoubu?
Mira: It's so sweet.
Me: T_T' Oooookaaaaay. R&R Arigatou!