First Stanza
By White Dragon_10
Van
Fanel had been sitting on top of the Palas Castle tower for more than an hour
ago. Night had fallen, and the wind was still. Van could hear his heart pounding
in his chest. Only one thing occupied his thoughts right now—Hitomi Kanzaki.
Wherever
you are tonight girl,
It was
months since she had left Gaea. She and him had been through a lot together… as
friends. Van had learned to love her over those times they had. But then, she
was blind to his emotions, and had run to Allen Schezar for love. Only pain had
brought her to realize, and somehow it was too late. Van choked back a tear
that forced out of his eye. He stared at the Mystic Moon… and wondered-- how
could he let her go?
I'll
see you in my dreams
He knew
he had to go on. Fanelia is on its way to back to its former splendor. He had
to push back the thoughts aside his mind. Think of something else… but how
could he, since everything reminded him of her? Van broke down at the thought.
"Hitomi…" His voice spoke quietly in the dark.
Wherever
I go tomorrow,
His hand
found its way to his heart—to where the pendant Hitomi gave him hung. Clutching
the stone, he closed his eyes, tears running freely right now. It was his first
time to cry since he was five years old. His heart had an ache that kept coming
back, no matter how many times he'd rub it away… It just went to stay. His
emotions were spinning, bringing forth a rare power that surges only in his
most tempest affection. His wings. His beautiful, ivory wings. Beautiful and
majestic as it was cursed and dreaded. Van's tears kept at him, stinging his
eyes. He no longer wanted to stand the pain anymore.
You'll
be here next to me.
Van
stared longingly at the Mystic Moon that seemed so near yet so far away from
him. He wanted her so bad; it bore a hole in his heart. If she only knew how it
pained him to let her go back. But then, destiny has to have its way, no matter
how cruel it may be. Van sat resolutely, his wings shedding feathers, white and
soft as they were. Van caught a feather floating down into his palm, and it
reminded him of the way Hitomi held the feather in her hand. So the prophecy
said. His wings were signs of sacrifice. Shown only to the person he would love
for the rest of his life. So like his mother. Remembrance of Hitomi made him
remember his past…
Shadows
were falling… the Mystic Moon hid behind the clouds. Silence was a like a gift
offered to the gods. It was ethereal, heavenly and sublime... like love. Van
watched on in silence. It was a long time before Van had the urge to go back.
"Van-
sama?" A gentle voice wafted to his ears. Van looked around to find Merle
standing behind him. Her face was worried, concerned and loving. She sat beside
Van and leaned on his shoulder.
"You
miss Hitomi, don't you?" she asked. Van turned to look at his childhood
playmate, his best friend. He nodded. "Yes, sometimes—you know how I am." Merle
nuzzled into his chest, smiling. "I miss her, too. She was patient with me…
and—and even though I didn't like her at first, I—I know she'll make you happy.
She'll come back—don't you think so? I know I do."
And
though we are a world apart,
I
hope she will, Van thought. Merle's presence had uplifted the pain from his
heart, and instilled something new. Van now knew that even if Hitomi is one
world apart from him, the hope of seeing her again would always remain in his
heart.
I
know you'll never be that far.
Van
watched the catgirl scamper away. Clutching his pendant tight in his hands, Van
looked at her and softly whispered—
"Thanks,
Merle."
Owari
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Authoress' Note:
Awww… no. Angst is not one of my
strongest writing genres. I know the ending is lame… but if Van goes to Earth
it would be quite stereotyped, ne? I haven't been writing about Merle for a
long time now… so I figured it would be a great chance. I'm still deciding
about what to put in the chorus. I never had the patience to finish the whole
song in one chapter, like my 'Need to be Next to You' song fic. Until now I
haven't finished the song, with only the bridge left. I know it will take long
until I finally finish all the song fics… I need some ideas to continue. Angst
controls most of everything I write, (but like I said it's not my forte) I
wonder why, though. Maybe because it's what I feel most of the time. Kinda
depressing, ne? But then again, who am
I to meddle with the intricacies of human emotion? (What did I just say?) Oh,
well…
Ja ne, minna- san! Til next
time!
P.S. Thanks to Yoko Kanno for
composing 'A Far Cry' and 'Hitomi Theme'. They helped a lot in writing the
story.
P.P.S. What does the Jap word
'ningen' mean? ^_^V;;
