Dead Forever After
It has been two days after the use of the Cluviel Dor to save Sam and I still have not heard anything from Eric. I'm taking this as a hint that he isn't going to reach out to me, so.. I have to figure this out..
I've been thinking and rethinking everything that happened and all I come up with is why not? Sam has always been there to protect me not to mention employ me. He's always been a part of my life and his life is valuable not only to me but to everyone in Bon Temps. I can't argue with the fact that things could be easier for us if I had used it in a different way, but who wants easy? Right?
I've got to get out of this house.
It was well over 3:30 p.m. when I finally arrived at Jason's house and I didn't even know how I ended up here. He's the last one to give any advice but I haven't spent 'not in a horrible situation' time with him in a while.
"Hey Sook" said Jason, while finishing his workout.
"Hey Jase" I replied with a sigh of release.
"Why so down sis? He said as he came towards me and gave me a hug. "He hasn't called me so I'm guessing he doesn't want the explanation" I said as some unbidden tears escaped.
"Let it out, Eric? He asked confused.
" Yeah I know you don't agree and all with me dating a vampire and all but can I not listen to that today." With all the melancholy I could muster up I let out my inner dialogues. "I used the Cluviel Dor to save Sam because I can't picture the world without him. He clearly needs dating advice, but don't we all?" I laughed it off.
My cell rang so I checked the screen. "It's Pam." I said in a mix of surprise and excitement.
"Hi Sookie. Eric asks if you will be home tonight?" She asked a little rushed.
"Yes I will. Why?" I asked.
"Good he'll be by later. Goodbye." She said as she hung up. She didn't wait for a response or anything. Rather odd. Well no, just another great talk with Pam. She doesn't like being treated as a secretary, and I don't blame her.
" I guess that means you gotta go, huh?" said Jason.
"Nope. Just means I need to enjoy my visit with you since it looks like my night is going to get sour by the hour." As soon as it was out of my mouth the laughs emerged from Jason. "Only you sis. Come on want something to drink?" he asked. "Yeah whatever is strongest is fine" I replied.
As soon as I turned off the engine I saw him. Glorious Eric.
Sitting on the porch. The blood rushed to my head. I don't know if it was the drinks or him, but boy was I feeling woozy.
"Hi." I said first to gauge his reaction.
"Alcohol? Sookie you shouldn't drive if you drink." He said.
"What? As if you care?" I replied with angst. I didn't even hide the anger and resentment in my voice. I guess it was the alcohol but I was suddenly brave.
"Don't say that. Better yet, you can't say that to me." He replied instantly. Instantly I knew he was not going to play nice.
"Ok, get it out." I gestured with my hands for him to spill his guts.
"All I came to say is that, I wish you no ill thoughts and that I hope Sam makes you happy. You deserve to be happy and if it's with him then so be it. Have a great life Sookie!" he said in a soft almost breaking voice.