Hello everyone. I'm new to this writing gig so any advice is greatly appreciated. This is my first story. It's been rolling in my head for days. I wanted to put a different spin on Buffy and her character. I am going to put some episodes from the shows in here and sometimes go off on my own hopefully not damaging the characters. In this fic I want Buffy to be her own person and not have everyone's wants and opinions effect the person she is. I want to keep the characters as close as I can but want to change the storyline. This will be a Buffy/Angel fic because I'm obsessed. I hope you enjoy!

Disclaimer: I do not own Buffy and Angel characters I just want to borrow them and give them a chance to have a different outcome. I just want to use my imagination like all the others and stop the ideas of a million stories from running in my head. I just want to extract them! Thank You

Can't Let Go

Chapter One: Let's Start Over

She really hated hospitals but it had been a while since she has been here. It seems like the girl lying in the bed is the only one who listens to her these days. Ah maybe it's because she really doesn't have much of a choice Buffy. She can be who she wants to be, say what she wants to say without the judgment and harassment from her friends, Giles and her mom. There was that one person who always understood her inside and out left her to have a so called normal life. Now she just wants her life back but nothing will ever be the same. Can anything get any worse?

"Sorry I haven't been by in a while. I promise I'm not avoiding you just trying to put things into perspective and was deciding what classes I want to take. I'm still not sure what subject I want my major in but I'm sure I'll figure it out don't I always once I get the feel for it. My focus areas are simple but I can't choose between two subjects: Literature and World History. I am taking Psychology with Willow can you see the excitement on my face! Come on you're suppose to laugh and tell me I'm impossible." Buffy sighs and pulls the chair closer to the bed so she can put her hand in the woman that's lying there.

"I promise I'm not following Will around she was so excited about the class and the professor and her going on about how cool it would be to have the class together I decided to keep the pretense. Besides it will probably be fun who knows. I just want to do my own thing now not what everyone wants me to do or expect me to do you know. Buffy sighs again and puts her forehead on the bed.

Buffy lifts her head after a few minutes and looks at the woman and squeezes her hand and says "Come on Faith don't ya think you've got enough rest. I never figured you to be the lazy one. I just want you to get better. I'll come by as much as I can and irritate you to waking up just to tell me to shut up." Buffy was about to get up when she felt the hand she was holding squeeze her hand.

Buffy's eyes went wide and shot up to look at Faith hoping her brown eyes would be starring at her but they were still closed. She waited a few minutes more just to be sure but nothing happened. As she tried to pry her hand from the woman in the bed she felt another squeeze.

Buffy yanked her hand from Faith's grip and ran out of the room screaming "Nurse! Nurse!"

"Is there a problem Ms.?" A tall woman with red short hair and round pleasant face with a name tag that reading Mandy said behind the counter.

"My friend in room 106 just started moving. Do you think she might be waking up?" An exasperated Buffy says.

"Lets go and check her vitals to make sure everything is alright. I'll have the doctor paged." Mandy says.

Buffy follows the nurse back to Faith's room and sat back in the chair while Mandy did her job.

When Mandy is finished she turns around toward Buffy and says, "Her condition hasn't changed since the last time she had her vitals done and that was an hour ago. I'm sorry I can't give you better news." As she turns to leave the doctor walks in and takes Faith's chart from her.

"Hello Ms., my name is Dr. John Sans. Can you tell me what happened?"

"I was talking to my friend and was about to get up and I felt her squeeze my hand. I thought maybe she was starting to wake up so I starred at her for a few minutes. I know that some comatose patients have muscle spasms but when I started to pull away again she squeezed my hand again. Do you think that maybe she is responding to me? That there is a possibility that she can hear me."

"There is always that possibility Ms…."

"Buffy"

"Buffy, we are still not sure if they can hear but we always encourage people to keep there presence and conversation. She hasn't any visitors except an earlier this summer and I remember see you walking around so there is always that possibility. We will keep an eye on her more frequently. I'll add some reflex exams periodically also to see how she responds to that treatment."

"She doesn't have any family here can I leave my name and number for someone to call me if something happens."

"Of course you are welcome to fill out the forms at the nurse's station before you leave."

"Thank you so much Dr. Sans." Buffy reaches out her hand to shake his.

"Your Wel…..Oh you have quiet the grip." Buffy realizes she is squeezing to hard and pulls away.

Dr. Sans looks at her and shakes his hand to make sure nothing is damaged. He chuckles, "It's alright and you are welcome I'll leave you alone to finish your visit with your friend."

Buffy just nods her head and turns to Faith "I'm going to go home get ready for patrol. I promised Willow she could come with me. I'll be back tomorrow after classes. Maybe I can annoy you enough with my homework you'll actually open your eyes." Buffy smiles a little. She leans over to kiss Faith's forehead then turns to leave heading to the nurse's station to fill out the emergency contact information.