Disclaimer: D. Gray Man and its characters belong to Katsura Hoshino-sensei.
Repression
I can only look as you cry for him
Your beautifully carved face is stained with tears
I can only hold your hand as you ask for help;
Not even a kiss from me could comfort you that well.
I'm your knight, he's your prince
I'm nothing but refuge from your fears
Losing objectivity, I'm chasing after what I feel
Rather than portraying the aloof, cold person that I should be
I know I can never be special to your eyes
I am only one of the stars that adrift from up above
While he is the whole sky that holds your heart
Realizing things like that truly tears me apart.
I have to hide from the world,
What I am; what I'm made of..
But I feel so vulnerable when I'm with you
It's seems as if I can't suppress what I've been concealing all the time.
This love is impossible; he's too precious to you.
He's always in your dreams; I'm just a part of your miserable reality.
But for the person I should love, for the person who showed me the light..
I'll do what I can.
In the end, I know I'll return to the ashes I've once become
But there's one thing that I've always wanted for you to hear:
I'd rather have a small part in your life..
..than to be huge part in history without you by my side.
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