I stare at your face.
That tan,beautiful face of yours.
Your eyes.
The most gorgeous shade of brown.
Yours hair.
Big and dark.
I listen to the music and take in the sound of your perfect voice.
I sit on a chair alone in the dark.
In front of my computer.
My eyes water as thoughts of how much i love you rush through my head.
"My love is a different love."
I tell some people.
"Because...he has no clue that i live."
"He has no clue that he has stolen the heart of a young girl."
"That he's all that i think about."
"Everytime i hear a love song of an unrequited love..."
"I break."
"Because he does not know who i am."
"I have pain.."
"So much pain."
"Because..."
"My love will never be known."
"He's too far..."
"Far from reach...far from home."
"I'm forced to show everybody that he's just a teenaged obsession."
"When...it's not."
"I love him."
"But...what the hell."
My eyes water as i think...
"There are millions of girls...that love him."
"Every night i pray that i can be that lucky girl.
"The one he kisses."
"The one he holds."
"The one he smiles to."
"The one he shares everything to."
"The one he says...'i love you' to."
"I know that god is not listening to me."
"But i will still hold on to my hope..."
"But i won't hope that much..."
"Because it's...impossible."
"I don't care if he's practically six years older than me."
"I love him more than life its self."
"If only...others would understand..."
"But they don't..."
I slowly get up from my chair and head to my bed.
I look around me and see pictures that i was forced to put up.
Pictures of him.
To hide.
Hide the fact that the reason that i listen to them...
Is because he saved my life.
And I love him.
Love him...more than earth..life...maybe even god.
I turn on my ipod and listen to the voice singing the lyrics.
"I am by your side.Just for a little while."
"Turn around.I am here.If you want it's me..."
Tears pour down my cheeks.
I sob into my pillow.
"God...i know you're not listening.."
"But please let me be the one he says i love you to."
"Just please..."
My eyes close as the song comes to and end.
"I am by your side.Just for a little while.We'll make it if we try."
"...just..please.."
"Let me be with..."
"...Bill...Kaulitz..."
I love Bill Kaulitz.