HEY there guys :D Ok so here is another story like many more that are to come in the future :P
I know I should be working on my "the story of you and me" and trust me I am! *makes puppy face* Just that I couldn't help myself, and until or unless I got this off my mind, there would have been no progress in TSOYAM XD lol that's a funny abbreviation.
Anyways, this chap is short, but this is just the intro/prologue or idk what to call it! xD
So yeah...
DISCLAIMER: Did you see an anime series with the name "Uchiha-smutty-cest"? No? Yeah that's because Naruto doesn't belong to me and neither its characters. :P Shame, isn't it? ( u_u) xD
Anyways! ENJOY! oh and this is yaoi love :P
Chapter 1
The Kübler-Ross model explains that there are five stages of grief.
Denial. Anger. Bargaining. Depression. Acceptance...
There was no meaning left. Even if he tried so desperately hard to find it, he couldn't find a meaning to his life.
It was useless now; his life, his very existence, everything.
Even the simple things which had made sense before, didn't anymore.
Why does the morning come?
Why are nights so long and painful?
Why does the fate have to be so cruel?
...Why does this pain never go away?
Or more, did he even want this pain to go away...?
The questions were driving him insane. But, the answer hurt even more excrutiatingly so. The answer to those questions wasn't all that difficult, in fact it was qiute simple.
Yes, the answer was indeed very simple...
He had lost that one person he loved and chehrished the most.
He had lost his... Everything.
The door opened and there at the door stood the person he had promised to make eternal vows with; a slender woman with long brown hair, no older than twenty of age.
"The dinner is ready. You really should eat something.. I even prepared your favorite food so..."
You could tell from her voice that she was trying to be cheerful but the slumped back of her lover caused her to trail off.
There was no response from him. He just kept playing with the silver band on his ring finger. The band that was a proof that he indeed had chosen this woman to spend his life with. But that didn't matter to him anymore. Nothing did.
The woman left after a few minutes of waiting, sadness clear on her face. She had been hoping that maybe he might respond today. Hoping that something might be different today.
But it wasn't.
Everything had been the same ever since that day...
It felt like as if time had stopped itself. Nothing moved forward. Nothing changed...
When the door closed behind him, he stopped playing with the silver band.
He looked at the band on his finger, remembering the day he had worn it for the very first time. How that time had felt... perfect.
He laughed sarcastically. Yeah right. Perfect.
He had been so blind and foolish.
So... Ignorant.
He took off the silver band placing it on the bedside table. He stared at it for a second before he pulled out the drawer and retrieved the gun from it. He placed that on the table too, beside the ring.
He stared at both items; both choices. He had a decision to make. A decision not so hard for him. He knew clearer than ever which choice to make... Which side to choose...
He picked up the gun, smiling to himself as he traced his hand over it.
Yes, this was his decision.
A decision he was too ignorant and blind to make before...
He wanted to be with that person whom he had loved more than his own life. But he hadn't ever realized the true extent of that love until it was already too late...
He brought the gun up and pointed it under his lower jaw and closed his eyes.
A last tear flowed...
A last smile graced his feature...
...BANG!
In time, in time they tell me, I'll not feel so bad. I don't want time to heal me. There's a reason I'm like this.
I want time to set me ugly and knotted with loss of you, marking me. I won't smooth you away.
I can't say goodbye."
― China Miéville, The Scar
TBC...
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Ja Ne! xD