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Lost

Rated M: For being terribly disgusting and greusome that I don't even want to reread it for myself. It might not for you but I'm a very sensitive person.

Summary: Jack is missing and his bestfriend, Lea is looking for him. She comes to the Xiaolin warriors to help her but there's more to this search than what Lea is willing to tell them.

The Xiaolin warriors were call in from their chores to meet at the center of the temple to see Master Fung with a teenaged girl next to him. "Let me introduce them. This is Raimundo, Omi, Clay and Kimiko. My Xiaolin dragons in training. I have called you together for an urgent mission. This girl's name is Lea. Do you wish to tell them the problem Lea?" Master Fung asked her and she looked at him startled and then at the others with a scared worried look in her vibrant green eyes.

"Um...sure...You guys know who Jack Spicer is right?" Lea asked a bit unsure if she was saying the right words. Her arms were wrapped around her body as if she was about to break.

Raimundo who was the leader stepped forward. "Yes. Did something happen to Jack?" Raimundo asked softly to not scare Lea off.

"I don't know. He's missing and I need your help to find him." Lea told them and breathed in strongly as her tears fell.

"Let's have some tea." Master Fung put a comforted hand on the side of Lea's arm. Lea looked at him and saw in Master Fung's smile that she could trust him. She nodded and then she was led to the small table. Tea was prepared and Lea took a small sip.

"Thank you." Lea said and tried to get in a comfortable sitting position.

"You are welcome. Well my young monks, please help her in anyway you can." Master Fung stood up and left the monks with Lea.

"What happened Lea? It's okay if you're not comfortable. We und-"

"No. I want Jack Spicer found so I should tell what happened. It was a few months ago. I am Jack Spicer's bestfriend and I know all about his crazy plan to rule the world. Well now that we're adults, I suggested to him to be...normal. I wanted him to become a real adult and then we began arguing. He ran out of his own mansion and didn't come back. I had the whole world of detectives find him. Even the F.B.I but nothing. Zip. It's like he disappeared out of sight." Lea explained and the monks looked at one another. As far as they knew, Jack lost the monkey staff in a showdown. It was the last time they saw him since.

"Maybe if we use the crystal glasses just like how we found Omi, we could find Spicer the same way." Clay suggested.

"Yes! That is the wisest thing to do! Miss Lea, let me show you the crystal glasses." Omi ran to the vault and bought back the crystal glasses. "Here try them on." Omi told her and Lea was unsure at first or why.

"Uhm sure?" Lea wore them anyway and then her vision began to change. "Jack?"

"Yes! You see him?" Omi asked and Lea nodded.

"I know where that is." Lea told them and then took of the glasses.

"Okay then. Dojo!" Raimundo shouted and then Dojo pops out asking what was going on. They explained it to him so Dojo grew to his large size. Lea became shocked but was helped onto him between the four monks to makes sure she wouldn't fall off. Dojo flied all the way to an unknown town in China. They stopped by a hotel and asked for Jack. They were given directions and they walked all the way there though Lea began walking slower and slower until they reached the door.

"Are you ready?" Clay asked and Lea was silent.

"You don't have to do this right now. We have all the time to find Jack anywhere with the crystal glasses." Kimiko assured her and the rest agreed.

"No. I have to do this now. I thank all of you for your help but I need to do this alone. Good bye." Lea told them and the Xiaolin monks respected her decision and left. Lea waited until they flew off with their dragon and then faced the door again. First she started with a knock and then a few more times but gave up that idea and see if the door was unlock. Luckily it was.

She took slow cautious steps inside and closed the door as quietly as possible. She walked through a short hallway to the living room that was occupied by bottles of whiskey on the table, an overused cigarette tray, and she bet to herself that she would find empty pills in the bathroom's trashcan. Her eyes laid on Jack who was sleeping on the sofa peacefully. Jack was shirtless and his pants was lowered from his hips showing off ridiculous boxers of strawberries. Jack's hair looked to have been washed and messy and he had currently shaved unwanted hair in many areas. He was a beautiful mess on that sofa.

"What do you want from me Lea?" Jack asked and Lea was frozen shocked. Jack opened his eyes to show his one-of-a-kind eyes of rubies. Those rubies were shining in fury at Lea. He sat up and faced to her showing that he was truly unamused with her visit. "I know why you are here. I bet you didn't tell those Xiaolin losers the truth!" Jack shouted in spite.

"I know what I did was horrible but-"

"But nothing! I told you to stay away! That I don't want to deal with anyone with the past anymore! And look what you did!" Jack took a whiskey bottle and nearly hit Lea but instead crashed into shards at the wall. Lea knew he did it in purpose. This wasn't the usual laid back idiotic Jack. No. None of that Jack is left in this body.

"Stop this Jack and come back to us!" Lea tried to reason but Jack wasn't up for reason. Not at all!

"Us? What us? You know how crappy my life is!" Jack crashed another whiskey bottle to the wall. "My mother never understood me!" Jack threw another one. "My dad disowned me when I was only a child!" Jack threw another. "They only loved my little sister because she looked normal! Even you! You were my fucking best friend but you turned on me the moment I lost all my money!" Jack threw three to the ground. "You know you are nothing but a whore!"

Lea was backing away to the wall to reach the door. "You're already leaving now?" Jack chuckled. "The only person who had ever loved me was granny. She was the only person who ever loved me even if I was different! Even if I was poor, she was by my side all through it! I'm tired of trying to please other people now that she's dead! Doesn't that mean anything to you?"

Jack walked toward Lea who was crying tears feeling her heart beat rapidly. "You don't even understand how it's like to love right? Or even feel pain? Nothing! Ever since she died and left me everything she ever owned. All her money. Everything to the last useless item she knew she had because it made her feel rich that she could buy it. Suddenly everyone starts treating me nice but I know their game and you're playing it too." Jack was dangerously close. His forearm was lying on the wall and his face was inches away from Lea's face. Lea tried to respond or say something but she was too afraid.

"A cat caught your tongue? You better help yourself because I have one last question and you better answer it right. Who had ever truly cared for me except my granny?" Jack asked and Lea was having a hard time breathing but she could tell that something worse will happen if she didn't answer.

"What about tt-the...Xiaolin warriors or...the...the Heylins?" Lea hoped she had the right answer but the omnious chuckles told her no.

"Them? Hah! They don't even give a crap about me." Jack sneered. "The Heylins are evil and think nothing but themselves! Even if the Xiaolins showed they cared, it's all just charity work! Hah ha! I realized something after losing the only person who cared!" Jack took out a bottle of whiskey from the TV's table drawer. He opens it and looks at it with a smile. His smile moves to Lea.

"I see that look in your eyes Lea. You actually think I'm so insane because I drink these. Well you're wrong." Jack dropped the bottle and let it break into many sharp pieces in front of his naked feet. He steps on those broken glass letting the pieces sink into his skin leaving a bloody trail behind him as he walked back to Lea. "I just let my friends come here and do away with these things to screw me senseless. This pain can't be healed so I found anything to distract me but only sex did the trick. Heh heh! Did you know I was gay? Noooo! Only granny cared!" Jack went from sadistic to angry but then he chuckled out of the anger.

"It's strange how much I break for granny but...I know she'll be proud when I complete what she wanted. She told me so on a DVD disc." Jack leaned close to Lea's ear. "You should hear it because I can't hold it in any longer." Jack took out a remote control and turned on the TV. Jack Spicer's granny was speaking.

"Hello Jack, my darling. You know I always showed you love, warmth and gave you everything you desired. I supported you through everything because I know you have great potential. I know I'm going to die soon but I still have alot I didn't accomplish such as kill all those worthless people. I will tell you all their names. You would need a pencil and pen because there is quite alot of them. Here you go..." Lea heard each name including Jack's whole family. It sounded like they were going by alphabet of the first name and Lea hoped when it reached the L's that her name wouldn't be said. "Lea Cinders."

Lea felt the sharp edge of a broken whiskey bottle enter right into her stomach. She tried to gasp for air but instead blood was spilling out of her mouth. "You shouldn't have come here. I ran away because I couldn't decided either to go clean or try to look clean while holding a bloody knife behind my back. It looks like I can't escape this. You were my bestfriend Lea but granny met so much more. She made me feel worth something." Jack carried the body and walked to the slide window-door to step out the balcony and drop the body onto the hole of other dead bodies including his family. This would be easy to get away with because his granny own this town and everyone in it knew what would happen but looked the other way.

The End.

A/N: O_O Um...I...didn't think I would write this. I just wanted Jack to express feelings of anger but this happened...I feel like I just scared or grossed myself out.