I didn't speak to Edward the whole way home I didn't trust my words enough to speak. He knew something was wrong as a stared out of the window the whole plane ride home, I was too nervous to sleep. We finally made it to Seattle. Edward was almost dragging me through the airport as I went to get our bags I was so tired and sad I didn't care. Then I saw them 6 vampires still as statues as we walked towards them.

It was Esme who recovered first she smiled at me compassionately. I didn't deserve her compassion not with what I was about to put my new family through with the choice to keep my little nudger. Rosalie opened her arms and I surprised myself as I hugged her and instantly began sobbing. I knew I should be stronger pull myself together but I just couldn't I continued on sobbing. I am sure my new vampire family all shared worried glances but I didn't care, I was so scared, scared for my baby, scared for the chance that I might die, and scared about the challenges I would put my new family through. Rosalie started gently rubbing my back in soft round circles but it didn't help I couldn't stop sobbing.I am not sure how long I stood there, but the next thing I knew I was being picked up by Edward and carried to his Volvo. Edward pulled me into the back seat and Carlisle drove with Rosalie sat in the passenger seat. I knew I was putting Edward in pain letting him see me like this but the truth is I couldn't help it.

I am not sure what happened next, but I woke up and found myself in Edwards room in the big bed he bought for us last year. Slowly I remembered the events of yesterday and I promised myself Edward would not see me cry again I would have to be strong I couldn't show any signs of weakness. They must have heard the change in my breathing and knew that I woke up because in that second I found myself in a room with seven vampires all of them staring at me. At that point, I wondered what the room felt like to Jasper from there faces I could tell there was a mix of worry, pain, and anger. It was Carlisle who spoke first he began with methodical questing that was easy enough for me to answer.

"When did you first show signs of pregnancy?" He asked me curiously

"The second day of our honeymoon I started getting really weird vivid nightmares." I saw Edward face a rise in alarm he quickly tried to recover his expression but I could still see the alarm across his face.

"Was that the first symptom?" Carlisle questioned.

"Yes, that was the first. The next few came together I was really hungry eating a lot more than I usually would and I was eating foods I usually wouldn't eat." I couldn't help but smile at the number of eggs I had eaten, no one else shared my smile they were all waiting for me to continue.

"I was sleeping a lot so I was always tired. The vivid dreams kept me from having a good nights sleep. I cried a lot too at weird things. I was always emotional, it wasn't until a week ago that I started throwing up. I thought that it was food poisoning-" The look on Carlisle's face told me to stop.

"Food poisoning?"

"Yes, when Edwards went to the mainland to hunt I woke up and I was hungry so I found some chicken in the fridge and cooked it" I felt silly explaining this in front of everyone but I continued. "I was so hungry I ate it out of the pan and it burnt my throat so I couldn't taste it but then I did and it tasted bad so I threw it out. It was after that when I felt sick."

Carlisle nodded as if he was contemplating something. I didn't like being the center of attention and everyone's staring was making me nervous. I really just wanted time alone with Edward so I could talk to him and explain things but the look on Rosalie's face suggested otherwise, in fact by the look on everyone's face there was no way I would be left also for a minute. I figured as long as the questions were to continue I should get out of bed and get dressed I looked down and found myself in unfamiliar pajamas. I was slightly confused when someone had put these on me and how I had not noticed but this was my least concern. I started to swing my legs around the bed when I felt that same pain in my stomach earlier. There was no time for me to run to the bathroom. Thankfully Edward had seen me throw up enough times this past week so he was able to get me a bin to throw up in fast enough. I threw up violently and it hurt. Edward patted me on the back.

"It's alright Bella it's going to be alright." He tried to comfort me.

"Bella, do you feel well enough to come into my office? I would like to talk to you alone."

"That's not happening," Rosalie said through gritted teeth.

"That's for Bella to decide," Carlisle said. I could tell by the tone of his voice that he was a little angry at Rosalie's comment.

"I am okay. Sorry about earlier." I apologized.

Then I heard several people tell me there was no need to be sorry.

Edward offered his hand and helped me up.

"I will need a few human minutes first," I told Carlisle.

He smiled. "That's fine Bella. I will meet you in my office."

I got up and left my family and went to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and saw that I was a mess my hair was tangled my skin looked terrible. I decided that the best thing to do would be to get in the shower. The shower was nice I would have liked longer but I didn't want to keep Carlisle waiting so I shut the water off. I started to get dressed as I pulled on a pair of jeans I realized that my belly has already grown a lot. I couldn't fit my jeans on. That was going to be a problem I looked through the suitcase of my other clothes and found a navy blue dress. I pulled the dress on and put my hair into a ponytail them brushed my teeth. When I walked out of the bathroom and into the hallway I heard loud harsh whispers though I couldn't make out what they were saying. When I reached Carlisle's office I tapped on the door lightly. The next second he opened the door and invited me in.

"Welcome Bella, please have a seat." He pointed to a large armchair and I sat in it.

Carlisle's face was blank and then he asked

"What are you thinking Bella?" His tone wasn't rude just curious.

"I am thinking lots of things about lots of things, but if you want to know what I am thinking about the baby then I am thinking that I love him and that I will not let anyone harm him or her." I pictured a baby boy in my head for some reason but I didn't know.

"Bella I will not touch or harm your baby without your permission," Carlisle explained.

"Thank you," I whispered I was hugely relieved.

"Bella I am going to be honest with you because I have decided that is the best way to go about things."

I waited for him to continue.

"On the way home from the airport you were very upset you finally fell asleep on the car ride home and while you were asleep I decided it would be best to sedate you."

Ahh, that explained why I didn't remember anything.

"I promise I didn't harm you or the baby."

"Don't worry Carlisle I trust you."

"Thank you, Bella. While you were unconscious I did an ultrasound to see if I could see the baby, unfortunately, I couldn't the membrane was to thick. I know nothing about this baby and it is frowning very fast. If you have chosen to keep this baby it is going to affect your health greatly. You could die Bella." He had a worried look on his face as he told me these things.

"I know and I am truly sorry for the pain I am putting everyone in but I know he is worth it," I said

"Okay if that is how you feel then I will do my best to make this as easy and comfortable as possible." He comforted me.

"Thank you, Carlisle. I am sorry about being such a pain." I apologized

"Don't worry Bella I promise your not a pain."

I felt a sharp pain in my stomach. Thankfully Carlisle was fast and he handed me a bin. I threw up violently again into the bin. Carlisle handed me a tissue and I wiped my mouth.

"Thank you. I am sorry about that." I whispered.

"There is no need to apologize Bella. When was the last time you were able to keep food down?" Carlisle asked me.

"I am not sure I think Edward would remember that better," I answered honestly.

"Okay I have spoken to him about a few things but I will talk to him later, but now I think he would like to be with you he is waiting outside."

"Thank you, Carlisle," I told him honestly as I stood up and walked to the door.