As you know, I do not own any of those characters, nor Degrassi -)

I added some to chapter 1&2 because I thought they were lacking in contents a bit. I should put a new chapter up this week-end. Please read and review, I love feedback including constructive criticism ...

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Chapter 1 : come back

Emma could not stop crying. She knew that she was as responsible as Jay about what happened. She knew that she had shoulders to cry on : her mum and Snake had been great, even Manny helped her through the first days back at school…Though the only one who could make her feel better was too far. Sean…she whispered…She did not want to think about Sean. He was in love with Ellie and she was a nice girl. There was nothing she could do, nothing she wanted to do…

She slowly stood up and looked at herself in the mirror "everybody makes mistakes Emma Nelson, everybody does, even you…" She had been so used of being "perfect" that this realization was a bit hard for her. She did not want to disappoint people; she always thought that she was strong. She believed in many things such as fighting for the environment, she almost always stood up for herself but she did not know that deep inside she was like everybody else fragile and that she too could be broken…She had an hard time letting go of the idea that she could not always be in control. Maybe that is why she was blaming herself for what had happened with Rick, it was easier than to admit that she could not have changed alone the dramatic events that took place at Degrassi…

Her cell phone made that familiar "message" sound, she was afraid it might be Jay. He used to do that sometimes to let her know he was at the ravines, "back in those days"…but it was Manny letting her know that they had to meet for a school project sometime during the week. Emma finally turned off the light and closed her eyes. "Tomorrow is another day and who knows, it might even be a good one!"

Sean was having dinner with his parents. They were not so bad, he told himself. They have been very supportive since he came back. He felt better now. He had time to fix stuffs and think a lot. He still was confused about certain things, such as why did he have that pain in his stomach when he looked at Emma in the car? Or, why hasn't he called Ellie? He wanted to, he just was afraid about what he might say or not say.

"You are very quiet tonight, son" said his dad looking worried

- I know I'm sorry. It's just that I wonder if I should go on hiding or if I should try to go back. I mean you have been great to me but I left so many things behind me, it's like I ran away…It seems to be my only answer when things get tough.

- No matter what you decide son, this time you know you can always count on us …Sean, your ma and I, we…we're very proud of you"

Sean looked at them and smiled. He knew what he had to do…

Emma got up on time for once. She took a long hot shower. Then, she carefully picked clothes to wear, pair of washed jeans, cute red tank top: casual but still sexy. She was on a low key since the entire school found out what she was up to in the ravine. She did not need to remind them of her presence by being too noticeable. The song playing on the radio "Nothing compares to you" by Sinead O' Connor reminded her of Sean,

"It's been so lonely without you here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong?
I could put my arms around every boy I see
But they'd only remind me of you
I went to the doctor and guess what he told me
Guess what he told me
He said, 'girl you better try to have fun
No matter what you do'
But he's a fool...
'Cause nothing compares...
Nothing compares to you."

For some odd reason, she still had butterflies thinking about him which made her feel guilty and incredibly silly. "Ok Nelson, Sean is in Wasaga Beach probably calling Ellie every single day of the week, you did not get any news, so move on already and just deal with surviving another day at school".

The phone rang, quite early for anybody to be calling

"- I got it Mom"

"- Yes ?

- Hey Em it's Manny

- Are you ok? It's quite early you know

- Yeah I was just wondering if you wanted me to go pick you up. You know…I mean it's not that you need backup but I thought, the past couples of weeks have been…

- Hey Manny, thanks. I'll be waiting for you"

They arrived at school laughing, Manny was doing the perfect imitation of Paige at school; Emma could not believe that Manny was still there for her after everything she put her through

"I'm so sorry Mann, I really am

- Emma Nelson what did we say about you apologizing? I told you a million times, it's ok!"

Emma was feeling much better; she left Manny to go to the bathroom. Of course, girls were still whispering as soon as she entered a room and of course they would sometimes laugh or call her names…She would just look at them straight in the eyes and keep her head up, no more hiding or crying whenever that would happen.

She went to her locker and while she was getting books out, she felt a hand on her shoulder.

"Em…" she held her breath, closed her eyes, she thought she might be dreaming. This voice, she would recognize it everywhere.