A/N: This is my new FanFic for the Angels Trilogy. This is my own personal follow up for Until Angels Close My Eyes. I do not own Leah, Ethan, or any other characters unless otherwise mentioned. Please comment and tell me how I'm doing, this is my first story. Also, everything that is in little stars {*} is what was meant to be put in italics. If anybody knows how I can put italics on here, please let me know =) Thanks.
*"You will always be in my heart, Leah. Until angels close my eyes"*
Ethan's voice echoed inside Leah's mind as she slept.
*"I love you, Leah Lewis-Hall"*
Leah awoke in tears, as all of her memories of Ethan drifted back to her through her sleeping mind.
"Ethan," she whispered, "Why did you leave me. Why, when our love was so strong, could you just abandon me when I need you so much?"
Ethan left her despite their love, because he had to return home. He was Amish. He Is Amish. It was against his ways for him to be with Leah. She wasn't Amish. He was to marry an Amish girl.
Her heart was breaking even more, as she heard her mother, Roberta, call "Leah, wake up or you'll be late for school!"
"I'm awake mom" Leah shouted back as she wiped the tears from her eyes.
When Leah brought her books down and her mother saw her, she studied Leah's face.
"Leah... we need to talk."
"Why Mom, everything is fine."
"Leah, I know nothing is fine. You've been crying in your sleep ever since..." Leah cut her mother off.
"Ever since my world caved in around me."
"Leah..."
"Mom, drop it. Ethan isn't coming back. Neil isn't coming back..." Roberta shuddered when Leah mentioned Neil. He was her widower. Her soul mate. She had loved him with all her heart and had died, while they were so happy.
"I'll be okay," Leah started again. "Just... give me time. Let me cry. I have nothing else to do but cry. They aren't coming back. But Mom, can I stay home from school? I just... I don't feel like going today."
"Of course you can honey, I have to go in to work, but I'm sure you can take care of yourself here..."
"Yeah mom, I'll be fine."
"Go back to bed Leah. You need to sleep. Please, I just want you to be okay."
"Okay Mom."
Leah walked back up to her room, and stared at the ceiling. How could she sleep? The images of her and Ethan were rushing back to her, clearer than ever before. He had left her months ago, yet his abandonment was hurting her more now than when he left. She began to cry again.
"Why Ethan. Why did you leave me? Why... why can't we be together. Why. Why. Why..."
Leah had continued to ask her distant love questions until she drifted off to sleep again.
*"Until angels close my eyes... I love you Leah... Leah... Ethan... Leah... Ethan..."*
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Leah awoke hours later, with the image of Ethan burned into her mind. her mother was home, and calling for her.
"Leah! You have mail!"
"Okay Mom I'll be right down."
When Leah saw the letter from Charity, she nearly dropped to her knees and thanked God for contact from someone so close to Ethan. She tore open the envelope and began to read.
*Leah,
I am sorry I do not write you more often, but as you know, we are very busy around here. I miss you very much, and Ethan does too. He has asked me to send you a letter along with mine. Do not worry, I did not read it. I want you to know that he loves you, if not more now than he did before he had left you. But Leah, he is Amish. I do not know if he will change his ways for you, but his love may be strong enough to do so. You are my best friend Leah, please write me also.
Your friend,
Charity*
Leah had to read her words twice. "He has asked me to send you a letter along with mine." Ethan had not written her a letter at all since they split apart. She could not unfold his letter fast enough.
*My dearest Leah,
I am more sorry than I have ever been that I have not written you, but I cannot bear it any longer. No, I take it back. I am even more sorry that I had to leave you. I hope that you have not moved on. I hope that you still love me. I am being selfish. I wish that it could not have been this way, but I am Amish. My ways have always been Amish. But being so far from you is hurting me so badly. My love for you is growing stronger, and my longing for you is nearly unbearable. I do not know if my love for you is strong enough for me to change my ways.*
Leah paused. How could he not know? He left her. He tore her heart in two pieces and he isn't even sure if he had done the right thing. She continued to read
*I want to see you again, but I do not know when I can. But I promise you Leah, I will see you again. You know that I do not lie. I love you Leah Lewis-Hall. I will love you forever. I hope you will love me too.
Love Forever,
Ethan*
Leah didn't even realize that she was crying when she folded up his letter. She held it in her hands, not wanting to let go. He was coming back to her.
"He doesn't lie. He never has. I will see my Ethan again. I will be his Leah again."
*"You will always be in my heart, Leah. Until angels close my eyes"*
Ethan's voice echoed inside Leah's mind as she slept.
*"I love you, Leah Lewis-Hall"*
Leah awoke in tears, as all of her memories of Ethan drifted back to her through her sleeping mind.
"Ethan," she whispered, "Why did you leave me. Why, when our love was so strong, could you just abandon me when I need you so much?"
Ethan left her despite their love, because he had to return home. He was Amish. He Is Amish. It was against his ways for him to be with Leah. She wasn't Amish. He was to marry an Amish girl.
Her heart was breaking even more, as she heard her mother, Roberta, call "Leah, wake up or you'll be late for school!"
"I'm awake mom" Leah shouted back as she wiped the tears from her eyes.
When Leah brought her books down and her mother saw her, she studied Leah's face.
"Leah... we need to talk."
"Why Mom, everything is fine."
"Leah, I know nothing is fine. You've been crying in your sleep ever since..." Leah cut her mother off.
"Ever since my world caved in around me."
"Leah..."
"Mom, drop it. Ethan isn't coming back. Neil isn't coming back..." Roberta shuddered when Leah mentioned Neil. He was her widower. Her soul mate. She had loved him with all her heart and had died, while they were so happy.
"I'll be okay," Leah started again. "Just... give me time. Let me cry. I have nothing else to do but cry. They aren't coming back. But Mom, can I stay home from school? I just... I don't feel like going today."
"Of course you can honey, I have to go in to work, but I'm sure you can take care of yourself here..."
"Yeah mom, I'll be fine."
"Go back to bed Leah. You need to sleep. Please, I just want you to be okay."
"Okay Mom."
Leah walked back up to her room, and stared at the ceiling. How could she sleep? The images of her and Ethan were rushing back to her, clearer than ever before. He had left her months ago, yet his abandonment was hurting her more now than when he left. She began to cry again.
"Why Ethan. Why did you leave me? Why... why can't we be together. Why. Why. Why..."
Leah had continued to ask her distant love questions until she drifted off to sleep again.
*"Until angels close my eyes... I love you Leah... Leah... Ethan... Leah... Ethan..."*
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Leah awoke hours later, with the image of Ethan burned into her mind. her mother was home, and calling for her.
"Leah! You have mail!"
"Okay Mom I'll be right down."
When Leah saw the letter from Charity, she nearly dropped to her knees and thanked God for contact from someone so close to Ethan. She tore open the envelope and began to read.
*Leah,
I am sorry I do not write you more often, but as you know, we are very busy around here. I miss you very much, and Ethan does too. He has asked me to send you a letter along with mine. Do not worry, I did not read it. I want you to know that he loves you, if not more now than he did before he had left you. But Leah, he is Amish. I do not know if he will change his ways for you, but his love may be strong enough to do so. You are my best friend Leah, please write me also.
Your friend,
Charity*
Leah had to read her words twice. "He has asked me to send you a letter along with mine." Ethan had not written her a letter at all since they split apart. She could not unfold his letter fast enough.
*My dearest Leah,
I am more sorry than I have ever been that I have not written you, but I cannot bear it any longer. No, I take it back. I am even more sorry that I had to leave you. I hope that you have not moved on. I hope that you still love me. I am being selfish. I wish that it could not have been this way, but I am Amish. My ways have always been Amish. But being so far from you is hurting me so badly. My love for you is growing stronger, and my longing for you is nearly unbearable. I do not know if my love for you is strong enough for me to change my ways.*
Leah paused. How could he not know? He left her. He tore her heart in two pieces and he isn't even sure if he had done the right thing. She continued to read
*I want to see you again, but I do not know when I can. But I promise you Leah, I will see you again. You know that I do not lie. I love you Leah Lewis-Hall. I will love you forever. I hope you will love me too.
Love Forever,
Ethan*
Leah didn't even realize that she was crying when she folded up his letter. She held it in her hands, not wanting to let go. He was coming back to her.
"He doesn't lie. He never has. I will see my Ethan again. I will be his Leah again."