I Lied
She didn't know how long she'd been sitting there, at Molly's, taking a sip of her beer now and then. She was staring at the wall in front of her, lost in her thoughts. It had been a really hard day. One year ago her best friend would have dragged her to every club she knew until she couldn't even remember the date. Back then it had always worked for her. Sometimes she wished she could go back to that time. To the time where there weren't problems and drama everywhere. To the time where she didn't feel guilty for her best friends death.
A strong hand on her shoulder startled her. She turned, seeing the familiar face of Kelly Severide. He looked concerned and it confused her. She smiled at him slightly, but they both knew it was a false smile. "How are you really?" he asked her, sitting down on the seat next to her and she huffed out a laugh. "Honestly?" she sighed and took another sip. "I really don't know. It's just weird. I couldn't stop thinking about Shay these last few days and how she would have made fun of the tension between Squad and Truck and how I …" she broke up, composing herself. "I can't help but wonder how things would be different if I had been the one standing in her place."
She worried her bottom lip between her teeth, not trusting herself to look him in the eye. She heard him chuckle and saw him shake his head out of the corner of her eye. "How often do I have to tell you that no one blames you for Shay's death? I don't blame you. We're risking everything for this job. We all know that something can happen with every call. You gotta stop feeling guilty, Gabby!" She nodded, trying to believe what he was saying. "I uh, I lied. Earlier, I mean, when you asked me if I'd been worried. I was worried, very worried, but there was this tiny second where I thought it might be better if I …" she didn't need to finish her sentence. His eyes grew wide. "You know that Casey probably would have gone crazy if you hadn't made it." "Maby. I really don't know what to think anymore. Speaking of, did you hear something? Did he call you?" Kelly smiled sadly. "No" he sighed. "But come on. I'm buying you another drink." He stood up. Throwing an arm over her shoulder, kissing her on the head softly before pulling her with him.
~CF~
Okay, hi,
this is my first Chicago Fire fic so please forgive me if it's out of character. I don't ship them as a couple but I think they have too few scenes together. I really like the friendship they have and they should have more scenes. Especially since Shay is gone.
I hope you like what I have thrown together here, even though it's really short.