A/N: This is based off of one of my headcanons – that Switzy still loves Austria a bit, but pretends not to. I actually ship AusHun, so this fic is one-sided, except for the past. Though I mention IceLiech, I don't ship. I ship either HongIce or IceFridge, but I just needed to ship Liechtenstein with someone.
Pairings:
Past SwissAus/present one-sided SwissAus, Mentions of AusHun, IceLiech
I DON'T OWN HETALIA.
Human!AU
Warning: angsty
I sigh as I look at the pictures of Roderich and I as children. I remembered when we were friends. He was constantly picked on by many people – particularly that obnoxious albino guy named Gilbert. I stood up for Roderich, and though I would tease him a bit, I still loved him. And at the time, he still loved me.
Sadly, I thought that he took me for granted. I was sick of being his slave. I gave him so much, but got nothing in return. However, in reality, he was repaying me by remaining my friend despite my cold demeanor and extreme protectiveness over my sister. I just shoved Roderich into the dirt one day and refused to help him up. Ever since, I have been afraid of friendship, because I did not want to betray anyone like that ever again. The only one I have ever bonded with since was my little sister, Lilli, and even now she spends so much time with some Emil guy.
Perhaps I should not have abandoned Roderich. After I let him go, I felt so empty and alone, even with my sister around me. I have tried to convince myself that this empty feeling will go away, but, alas, I have been unsuccessful. Maybe I could try to win him back? No. He is already married to some crazy lady named Elizaveta.
Where Roderich once was, there is now an aching gap in my heart that will never be mended for as long as I am Vash Zwingli. I may appear to be strong, fearsome, and organized, but I am secretly broken.
And not even Lilli knows.
I shed a tear that I had been holding in for decades onto the picture in my hands. No one will understand. I will never find anyone else for me. I had my chance, I squandered it, and I must live with the consequences.