On the Inside
I am always the one to put on the tough face, the brave face
The reticent one, hiding my true feelings and thoughts from those around me
The resilient one who can bounce back from absolutely anything
Be it a bad grade or being spurned by a boy
I am the theatre geek, reciting entire dialogues of script
Singing Broadway songs through the halls
Always auditioning for a new show
Yearning for my turn in the spotlight
I am the book worm, my nose perpetually stuck in a book
My love of literature never quite quenched
A magnetic pull towards gay books, towards sad book
A happy ending right around the corner
I am the one everyone looks up to
Always making the right decisions
Knowing what to do in any situation
The go-to girl for any issue
But behind the brown hair and glasses, who am I really?
A heart that yearns to be loved, shying away from any source of argument
Wishing to speak my mind, to say how I truly feel
To sing out loud without the odd stares,
To dance around a room without feeling self-conscious
How I wish I could see myself through your eyes
To see the person you care for so much
The person you look upon adoringly
When I am with you I love myself unconditionally
Why can't I be that girl all along?
Like everyone I make my own mistakes
And through my mistakes I learn and grow
I am not the same today as I was yesterday
Nor will I be the same tomorrow as I am today
Eternally changing, eternally growing
Who am I really?