Jenonca- I somehow got an idea to write a diary for castiel, so I decided to attempt it, the only problem is writing as cas would hard but I gave it a go. Please enjoy and constructive criticism is welcome as I would like to know if I have kept castiel in character.

I have decided to start with two entries to start this fanfiction off.

Disclaimer- I don't own supernatural

Entry 1

I do not understand, even as I place this pen to paper, how will this 'help'. Usually I would not even humour the idea of a human but the abomination begged me to, he used a look I were unable to refuse, ('puppy eyes' Dean told me) Dean suggested I go along with this peculiar idea, well those were not his exact words; he insisted I perform a 'chick thing' which is writing in a diary. I do not understand what a 'chick thing' is but the abomination insisted that I needed an 'outlet' whatever that is I'm not sure. Dean says it's expressing feelings. The abomination told me that's why I need a diary, to which Dean replied "he doesn't need a diary, what he needs is to punch something or someone"

The person that dean is referring to is his brother. After many more minutes of squabbling, they both decided that a diary is the best thing to help me, (in Dean's words) get that stick out of my ass. I wasn't aware I had a stick up my ass, I'm sure that would be very uncomfortable, why would one have a stick up their ass in the first place? Humans puzzle me. As I was saying it is because of the Winchesters that, I am here writing in this strange book about myself. The abomination suggested that I write about what I feel or anything on my mind, as long as it helps me feel unperturbed.

I have come to the conclusion, that the Winchester brothers are both morons at this point in time, however I will humour them and write in this Diary which I am now referring to as the 'thing'. I am only doing this for Dean.

For now I have nothing of import so I shall stop writing and continue to help stop the apocalypse.

Entry 2

The Winchesters are deeply disturbed. I am not sure why they want to partake in this ridiculous tradition as they call it. I do not see anything traditional about putting itching powder in ones trousers or gluing ones hand to a beer bottle, most especially when they assure me they have done them before. It is very insignificant and only Gabriel would approve of this unusual behaviour. Dean tells me that 'pranks' are a family thing, it's fun he says. To which the abomination replied payback is a bitch. I do not understand how payback is a bitch. I was not aware payback was a female dog.

Dean is laughing looking over my shoulder. He says my naive thinking is funny. The abomination says it's adorable, that I'm like a 5 year old child who questions its parents because it doesn't understand. I am not a child I'm over 1000 years old. Dean is still laughing; i do not understand what is so amusing. It is very frustrating when I am unable to understand these human customs. Perhaps i should consult Gabriel; he shall be able to answer my questions. Humans are very strange, Heaven wasn't confusing like this planet at least there it were simple. I do not understand why Gabriel likes earth better than heaven, perhaps he prefers complications. The abomination is the most complicated person I have met.

The abomination is insisting I do not call him this, his name is Sam. I do not care, he has demon blood in him and he betrayed his brother in favour of a demon. He does not deserve a name other than abomination or my respect, only Dean deserves my respect.

I have travelled elsewhere as the abomination is creating feelings of anger within me that are not suitable for an angel. Though i may be near human it is unbecoming of an angel to procure emotions.

Its seems i have crossed paths with another annoyance by the name of Gabriel, whom is looking over my shoulder and has pointed out, if is unbecoming of an angel to have emotions then why do i have a man crush on Dean Winchester.

I do not have a man crush on Dean, i am not certain what that is but i am sure i do not have it. Gabriel has raised an eyebrow at me asking why do i 'eye sex' Dean if i do not have a Man crush. He has informed me that a man crush is when a man admires another on more than friendship level. it can be sexual or romantic or just plain admiration. He says he knows which stage I am in; apparently abandoning heaven for Dean is seen as a romantic gesture. Gabriel is under the Impression i want Dean in a relationship way and not the brother or friendship way. I assure you Gabriel you are mistaken, Dean is my friend therefore I regard him as such. Gabriel is shaking his head in disbelief and is leaving my presence, which is a relief as I do not enjoy his particular company.

Its seems I have a lot to learn about these human customs but I am not sure if I even want to learn them as they are very complicated, but then again perhaps I should at least try to learn them, so I am able to have a conversation with Dean or the abomination, without having to leave quite suddenly when they are mocking my ignorance. I shall attempt to understand them eventually but I shall require some assistance.

Jenonca- ok so there is the first two entries done. Hopefully I will have the next chapter up soon, I'm not sure how soon but I won't forget about it. Thank you for reading and please review.