Warnings: Sexual content & language.
Word Count: 2,082
This chapter's songs: All Time Low by Jon Bellion| Inspired by: There is a Light That Never Goes Out by: The Smiths| Style by: Taylor Swift|
Chapter 1: Wonderwall
"I call your name, you look right through me." I dance around my room jumping on top of my bed to sing as loud as I can. You're the reason I'm alone and masturbate!" Jumping down, I dance to my mirror applying a thin layer of lipstick to my lips. My fingers wander down onto the surface of my new dress and I stare at myself in admiration. This is the first time I've actually dressed up to look pretty in a while, and I'm dancing alone in my room where no one can even see me. Loser.
"Penelope Grace! You turn that obscene music off right now!" My mum screams from down the hallway. Smirking at her virgin ears, I lower my music just in time to hear the last ring on my phone. I walk over to my bed and realize I have 5 missed calls from Archie. "Holy shit!"
"Come on, come on, pick up!" I nervously mumble to myself. He usually never calls this many times, maybe texts, but never calls. What if he's in trouble? My heart sinks and a lump rises to my throat. There's finally a muffled noise from his end and he slowly speaks my second favorite three worded sentence. "I need you."
"And where do you think you're going girly?" My mum folds her arms and moves to block the stairs. "I'm going to hang out with Cheryl at her place." Lie. She slowly moves out of my way as I fly down the stairs. "Don't stay out late, make sure to tell Cheryl's mother thank you for hosting!" I realize for a second that I'm leaving my mum alone for dinner again. Jesus I was going to eat with her, I was. But Archie needs me, she will be okay.
It takes me no more than 5 minutes to get to his place. As I turn the corner for his house I already see his red hair from down the block. He's wearing his tight white short sleeve t-shirt with his hair slicked back. My stomach starts turning like it always does, and suddenly I don't need the car heater anymore.
Archie flings open the door and rolls down the window. I keep the car running, ready for him to say the word. He's silent in my passenger seat staring out the window when suddenly his hand drifts to mine. He keeps his eyes looking at the starry night, and I know where he wants to go.
It takes about 15 minutes to get to our spot. I turn off my car and sit there silently waiting for him to say anything. He's been silent the whole time and I haven't seen him this emotionless in a long time. Sometimes people just need to separate from the world and have time to think. I unbuckle my seat belt with my free hand and reach over gently placing my hand onto his cheek and kiss his lips quickly.
Popping the truck I grab my warm wool blanket and two pillows. You're too prepared for hanging out with him dude. The patch of grass we usually lay on is almost dead from all the rolling around. A small smirk crawls up on my face as I lay down waiting for him. Archie remains in the car still. Jesus, do I give him more time? I bend my arms behind my head and look up to the sky.
"You look beautiful tonight." He lies down next to me and moves his arms behind his head, same as me. My eyes travel along his arms and I admire his lean but toned body. "I dressed up just for you, hoping you'd call." I laugh and turn my body into his, moving my hand up to rest on his chest. "What's going on arch?" He stays silent for a while and lowers his right hand down to pull my face up to his. His lips taste sweet and passionate. I feel his finger intertwine in my hair, pulling me on top of him.
Everything is so simple with us. Our bodies move into each other like a magnet does metal. I straighten my body up still straddling him. His eyes are filled with desire; I feel his hands moving along my body wanting to touch every part of me. He sits up grasping my back to hold me up and he starts kissing my neck. Automatically, I lean my head back in pleasure; I run my fingers through his perfect hair and lightly pull.
With one swift movement I'm under him as he pins my arms over my head. Lowering his head he softly bites my lip. "Archie." I moan onto his lips. His hand drifts down to the bottom of my dress and I shiver at his cold hand on my thigh. Archie watches me the whole time as his fingers wander up to my panties. My mouth parts in bliss when I hear kids laughing in the distance.
We both shoot up in panic. I squint my eyes and see flash lights in the distance; it's just kids messing around. They don't know we're here, in unison we sign in relief. I fling my head to look at him and we both laugh. He stares at me for a long moment and takes my hand. I know he wants to say something to me, I find myself physically leaning into him wanting him to say the words I want to hear. "You excited about school tomorrow?" Not exactly what I wanted to hear. I sit back fixing my hair "Sure."
I stand up picking up the pillows and turn to my car; I don't want him to think I'm upset. "I'm glad I have you Poppy. I mean, I've always had you, but you know things are different now..." Turning back to him I see him brush his hair to the side sporting his signature smile. "I'm glad I have you too." I say shyly. More than you know.
"Do you want to get some dinner? I'll buy." He wants to buy you dinner… Shut up! We bought each other dinner when we were just friends. Nothing is different.
"Sure, yeah that sounds nice." We both get into my car and I start warming it up.
"Hey stop by my place, I need a cold shower." He says laughing.
My laugh quickly turns into lust. Archie sees this in my eyes and reaches over resting his hand gently around my neck to kiss me one last time. The amount of passion we have in one kiss would quite a room. Too bad he'll never take things further with you. I pull away quickly with the thought. Archie looks back at me in confusion, but before he can say anything I turn on the radio and start driving to Pop's.
This town is so damn small; we get to the diner in no time. I always feel Archie and I's time together is never enough. Things started happening between us at the beginning of summer. We were just friends before that. Nothing sexual, I never even thought of it. Last year we both grew up so much, mentally and physically. It just sort of happened, at my end of the year house party. Ever since then he's all I can think about. I don't know if it's the virgin curse or what, I mean, we both lost it to each other right? He has to feel something for me…
We walk into Pop's seeing the whole place is crowded with students getting one last fun night before school tomorrow. I watch Archie's eye scan the room till he finds Jughead. We both stopped talking to him this past month. I feel horrible about the fight him and Arch got into, but I of course was pulled into the middle and was left to choose. I miss him terribly but I can't muster the balls to apologize. Partly because that would mean telling him about Arch and I, he'd probably spread it around town in his blog.
"Hey Archie! My boy!" Reggie walks over and grabs Archie into a headlock. "Dude come sit with us!" Both pairs of eyes look to me in question. I shrug acting like I don't care, and within in a second they're both in the booth laughing and shoving each other like the jocks they are. I can't stop myself from rolling me eyes, hiding my hurt.
"It hurts when someone abandons you doesn't it?" I don't have to turn around to know who it is. I guess I deserved that one. Jughead shoulder checks me on his way out of the diner. "Wait!" I plead. He continues to walk away ignoring me. I have to jog a few feet before I get close to him. "Jughead! Look I'm sorry!" He turns to me for a second then averts his eyes back into the diner. "Looks like your secret boyfriend has eyes for someone else." I whip my head back to the diner too fast, hurting my neck. There's a black haired girl standing in front of his smiling face. My hand automatically curls up as my anger starts to rise. The kind of anger that makes you ball your eyes out.
"How'd you know?" I say still looking away from him in the diner. "Well you just confirmed it, but I knew because I knew you Penelope." His words hit me in the chest knocking the wind out of me. Knew me? "And you don't know me now?" Finally being able to face him, I turn to see him looking down at his shoes. "The Penelope I knew wouldn't have hurt me like you did, so knew is appropriate." Jughead starts to turn to leave and I don't stop him.
My hand moves up and down along my bare arms. I feel so alone. Archie isn't going to ever love me like I need him too. I'll never be able to repair my friendship with Jughead. Jesus stop feeling bad for yourself! You're awesome fuck everyone else.
I've always had underlining anger problems. Sadness turns into anger, and then turns to dangerous motivation. Speeding down the empty side streets I blast music in my car. I slam every door I encounter till I get to my room. My face roughly looks like the joker with how much I've been silently crying. A warm shower is just what I need. Leaning my head onto the tile, I think about how I want this year to be. I can't keep doing this shit to myself. I love Archie so much, I can't think straight when he's next to me. I don't need any enemies or drama this year. I miss Jughead too much to let this go on. My life is what I make it and right now I'm stepping in bullshit.
I wrap myself in my towel and step out of the shower. Shuffling to my dresser, I get my comfiest pajamas that little ducks all over them; they look like they belong to a 3 year old. Brushing out my hair I hit the lights and dive into bed. I need to be positive. No drama, repair relationships, and deal with Archie. Tomorrow is going to be a normal day. My head whirls with the up and down emotions of today. Yup, starting my period soon. Now brain shut off and sleep.
"Penelope you awake?"
My eyes open to see a blurred red image. A sleepish smile makes it way up on my face and I feel his body weight right next to me on my bed.
"It's so late why are you here?" I say rubbing my eyes.
"You left Pop's and I wanted to be with you before we go to prison tomorrow." With his finger he traces my cheek bone.
"Well I'm too tired for anything so I'll see you at school." Maybe I'm coming off as cold, but I decide to not care and turn over.
"Well I'm staying in your bed tonight little ducky." He laughs and I quickly turn over to see him taking off his shirt and crawling into the covers. I feel his hands hold me and I've never felt so more at home. Don't let this ruin your plans to confront him, go to bed ready for action tomorrow. His lips find my neck and he softly whispers in my ear. "There's no one I would rather be with right now."