Just a little somber story I've had planned for awhile.

I hope you enjoy reading this. There will be a part 2 so if you end up liking this then I suggest following the story until part 2 is up.

Many thanks -Casper

"I hate this, Natasha."

Her voice is so soft, so...broken. "Hate what exactly?"

"Everything. I'm human."

My lover is falling apart and I don't know what to do. "Most of us are."

"No, I'm just human."

I hear anger, despair, and sadness. I have to make her okay again. "Maria."

"Please, just leave me alone."

I leave. Before our new mission I will talk to her again. Maybe she just needs time alone.

"I'm sorry!"

I didn't get to talk to her. It started sooner than expected. It's HIS fault. "Barton! Shut up or you'll end up dead!"

"I'm so sorry, Natasha. Please."

THEY let her down. How dare THEY let me down. "You're not. No one is."

"Natasha, we didn't know about... It's- Everything will be alright."

Lairs. Betrayal. Enemies. "Rogers, I don't want to hear it. I quit, whatever this is, I can't anymore."

"We still need you on our team, Natasha. Quitting won't bring her back even if we all want it too."

Killers. Murders. "She was the only one, Stark."

She's gone and left without me. I'd give anything and all. "I hate this. I hate that you can't hear me, that you can't see me, you can't hold me... I miss your terrible singing in the shower, I miss stealing a kiss when you're working late, I- It tasted like scotch half the time, you know,... I-I just want you back home with me."

"It's not healthy to come here everyday, Natasha."

Betrayer. He cannot be here. She's not here. She won't ever be. Leave. "I do not come here everyday, Stark. Besides, what are you doing here?"

"Every month I come here. We might not have been friends but she was an amazing person who kept all of us and everything else a little sane."

I do not need sympathy nor nostalgia. Go. Now. "Yeah."

"Sleeping here won't help. I found myself looking for you after awhile. I, we, all are not doing the best and we miss you being apart of the family."

They do not kill. He's lying just so they can use everything that I am again. No empathy. "Family?"

"I don't, you see, I don't really do much anymore. I help when I can but there's no more Iron Man. So, when everyone started to slip away Steve and I didn't want that. Funny enough we finally agreed on something like that. Some of us only know the 'team' as family so why break apart when it's simpler to stay together."

I hate them. I hate him. "You changed a lot."

"I'm more scared that you haven't. It's been years and you still... Come home alright? The twins, Steve, sometimes , and I we all live in the same place. You come find us when you want back home."

Am I really going to forget her? She is-, was, my everything. She looked at my past and gave me her love in the future. They left. I won't ever leave her.

My body is shaking. I can feel two spots of warmth and I can hear a muffled voice. Clearer as it becomes it's her. Unforgettable with soft spoken words filled with love. I must have died.

"Natasha? Wake up."

Wake up? That must-.

"Wha-?"

It hurts to jolt up awake. My eyes feel sore as I can feel tears running down my cheeks. I was crying in my sleep the whole time and she had to wake up to it. She's alive.

"Hey there, beautiful. You where having a bad dream and kind of beat the crap out of me when I tried waking you the first two times."

I can't help but cry more. She's alive. She's here breathing taking my hands in hers. She's existing here with me.

"Sorry- I-. You have no idea how happy I am to see you."

She's warm as she hugs me. My chest feels, my whole being just feels, warm and alive. I can hear her heart beat. I can hear her beautiful voice so close to me.

"Don't cry. It's alright everything is okay. I don't like it when I see someone so deserving of happiness cry over a nightmare. I'm here, I'm alive, I'm warm, I'm breathing."

I've missed her.

"I love you, Maria."

I won't let anything harm her.

"I love you too, Natasha."