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(BPOV)
I found peace of mind during the flight from Dallas to Rio De Janeiro. I realized that I gave my parents and friends an acceptable farewell. I knew that giving Edward his wedding was the best way to do so. In the end, during our compromise, I had been rewarded with the fact that we would try to make love on our honeymoon. To consummate our marriage traditionally. I was ready for whatever life was going to throw my way as long as I was in the arms of the man I loved.
I was still clueless as to where our honeymoon destination was. I tried to get Edward to give me a hint while we were in Dallas, but to no avail he alluded my question with the simple answer, "It's a surprise!"
I relaxed into my first class seat and decided that I would take advantage of this time in the air to get some sleep. I knew that once we arrived, where ever we were headed, that sleep would be the farthest from my mind.
As I walked through our honeymoon suite, I realized that Edward was not waiting like I thought he would have been.
To the left of the massive room, I saw the balcony door open. As I walked onto the balcony, I saw Edward standing on the ledge.
I shrieked at the sight. I begged for Edward to come down from the ledge. I knew he had the ability to jump from our penthouse suite and would still survive, but even that fact didn't take the edge off the panic that was building in my chest.
Edward turned to me with a look of sheer agony, "I can't do it Bella, I know I can't control the monster in me", he nearly roared.
"How do you know unless you at least try." I bluntly stated. This is not a conversation that I am going to have tonight. He may be the indestructible vampire but I was the human and his threat on the ledge was nothing compared to what I could do.
While Edward battled his demons within, I took matters into my own hands. I had considered, as a last resort, that if self satisfaction was all I would receive on my honeymoon, then that was what I was going to do. With or without Edward's participation.
I sat on the chaise lounge across from where Edward was perched and began to explore my body. I slid my hands into my robe and began caressing my nipple with my right hand as I lowered my left hand to my core. I found the bundle of nerves and began to massage them. I allowed the robe to fall open as I spread my legs for Edward to watch. I managed to keep my eyes closed so I wouldn't become self conscious as I pleasured myself. As I reached my climax and steadied my breathing, I took a chance and opened my eyes.
I wasn't expecting to find Edward inches away from me. His eyes glazed over and pitch black. I knew that I had over stepped the careful boundaries that Edward had established. For the first time fear overwhelmed me.
Quickly he snatched me up and flew into our room. I landed on the king size bed with ease and found Edward at the foot of the bed staring at me. I was in such a state of shock that I hadn't moved an inch. I realized that my hand was firmly grasping my core. In a flash he climbed onto the bed and took my hand from my center and placed it in his mouth, lapping up the juices.
Suddenly he was across the room snarling, positioning himself into a crouch and in a flash he sprang across the room onto me, teeth exposed and venom oozing. The last thing I recall was saying "Please, I Love You. Don't do this". Soon darkness overcome and I was being consumed by what could only be described as pure hell while flames licked my body.
"Bella, Bella wake up! Love, we have arrived." Edward snapped me out of my dream.
"Where are we?" My clouded brain registered that we were no longer on the plane. I had managed to sleep through the last stretch of our journey and was awoken on a boat.
I slowly took in my surroundings and was in awe of what I saw. White sand glistened in the moon light. Palms swayed in the humid breeze. The house in the distance was glowing from within. As if Edward had set up while I slept.
Edward told me that this was "Isle Esme" and I was blown away by the fact that Carlisle would buy his wife her very own island.
Once inside, I informed Edward that I needed a human moment to clean up. He excused himself and walked out onto the beach adjacent to our room. I was excited to look around the house but that would have to wait. For now, I had one goal and that was to receive the one thing I demanded during our compromise. I was tired of waiting and tonight I would receive my reward.
(EPOV)
Once Bella stepped into the water, my dead heart almost started. I never in all my existence thought that I could ever be this nervous. I was clueless as to how to please her. She was fragile and human. I would have to keep myself in check so not to break her. I was a vampire who believed that my strength was my one advantage in the world. And now I would give anything that I didn't possess such a trait.
As she stood next to me in the water, I began to have my doubts again. I was always worrying, had I not been immortal, my bronze hair would have been gray long ago. I was depending on Alice to see what might happen. She assured me that she saw nothing alarming and to not worry. I knew I put to much on Alice when it came to Bella. She loved her as much as I did, yet she was the one who was most determined to see Bella one of us. I had promised Bella that if she agreed to marry me then I would be the one to turn her. Yet I doubted that I would be able to stop once bloodlust took over.
If I hurt Bella during our heat of passion I would never forgive myself. She was too trusting of me. Perhaps if she would be more concerned for her own safety, she would agree to wait till the transformation was complete. Instead, Bella being Bella was driven by her human hormones.
As I carried my bride over to the bed, all worry seemed to be evading me. At that moment, seeing her lying there waiting for me to take her and consummate our marriage, desire took over. A consuming fire erupted within me as I trailed kisses over Bella's perfect form. Each and every time a moan escaped her lips, that fire within me flamed up again.
Bella was writhing under my touches and the fluids escaping her core was enough to make my own need for her touch take over. Bloodlust was bouncing on the edges of my self control. Once that sweet aroma hit me and I had tasted the sweet nectar her body was creating, I thought I was in heaven. The scent of her blood was nothing compared to this. I was certain that my bloodlust was well under control at this point. Her blood wasn't what I craved at the moment.
The bliss of our passionate embrace was short lived as the monster within me emerged. Breaking down the barrier of my self control. During my climax, I began to fight with myself. I was my own worst enemy at this very moment. My fear that Bella would become my prey gave me the strength to fight harder. I managed to swallow the venom and regain some control. I fought relentlessly and quickly grabbed a hold of the first thing I could sink my teeth into.
As we both descended from the most blissful release, so did my bloodlust. The monster was manageable and I became stronger than he. Bella was oblivious to the danger she faced only moments ago as she fell into a deep sleep while I hummed in her ear.
My greatest fear now was the damage I had done to her body. I wouldn't be able to fully inspect the damage till she woke. I could however see the blotches of blue and purple forming on her arm. I loathed myself for allowing such a thing to happen. As I cried my tearless weep, I swore that this would be the first and last time till she became a vampire herself.
(BPOV)
I was consumed by sheer pleasure under Edward's touch and knew at this moment, that I would allow him to take me however he pleased from here on out. I had dreamth of this for sometime now. Nothing I had imagined prepared me for what I my body was experiencing . This was sheer ecstasy. I wasn't sure if the beads rolling down my face was sweat or tears of joy.
I began to wonder what Edward's worry was, he seemed to be in complete control of his bloodlust. I knew that the pleasure was masking the pain of Edward's strength, but nothing was going to deprive me of this. Bruises would heal and I trusted that Edward wouldn't allow the monster within him to harm me. We had been through too much for him to loose control now. Or so I thought.
As I reached the most exquisite pleasure I had ever known, I sensed a change in Edward. He began to growl more than moan. His breathing hitched and his eyes rolled back into his head. He quickly shot his head down onto the bed and I heard a ripping sound next to my ear. I quickly dismissed the change as Edward's climax followed right behind mine.
As I relaxed and my breathing slowed, I began thinking about staying human a little whole longer. I would love nothing more than to share this kind of passion with Edward again and again while human.
I would attend Dartmouth with Edward this fall and the thought of how enlightened he would be finalized my decision. I wasn't ready to give into immortality just yet because I would rather crave Edward's touch instead of blood at the moment.
Too soon, I began to shiver in Edward's embrace. He pulled the cover over my exhausted and chilled body as he hummed my lullaby. Soon I found myself lulling off into a deep and peaceful sleep in the arms of the man I would love for eternity.
