Girls

God, this feels so fucking good. I feel like I haven't got a care in the world. I feel like I'm free. It feels as if everything's perfect. It feels like nothing can bring me down. I fucking love this feeling.

I love this feeling because it stops me feeling so empty. It stops me feeling like the world is against me. It stops me feeling so... depressed. I feel as if I'm finally happy. I know that I'm not. I know that I'm just high, but it's so good not having to worry,

I know I'm not setting a good example to the kids who look up to me. I know that it's illegal. I can't help it; I'm addicted. I'm not addicted to the drugs themselves, I'm addicted to the way they make me feel.

When I'm on them I don't feel that irrepressible hole.