I Wish I Knew Sooner
I knew the decision that lay ahead of me was going to be the hardest one of my life. I had to choose between my true love, Edward, and my other half, Jacob. I knew my decision and that I would deeply hurt the other.
I walked up to the house and rang the bell. As soon as I had done this I knew it was pointless. Alice would have seen me coming and would have told Edward.
He opened the door and to my surprise he was looking grim. He took my hand and led me up stairs to his bedroom.
"Bella, I know your decision," he began "and before you say anything else, I want to say a few things. First I'm not going to stop you. I'm not going to do anything. And second of all, well, if you're happy, I guess I am too."
"Edward I'm so sorry." I burst into tears. "I love you Edward, I don't want to leave you, but it's the only way I can be sure I'm not putting Charlie or Renée in danger." I looked away from but I was sure I saw a tear in his eyes.
"Bella, maybe it's best if you go. Leave while Alice is temporally gone. It's going to hurt her too you know." He said breaking the silence with his sharp words.
"How did you know my decision?" I blurted out. It caught him off guard.
"Alice saw you disappear. As soon as she told me, I knew what it meant. I knew I was going to loose you forever."
Once again, the tears started pouring out.
"I'm so sorry. I never wanted to hurt you. Or Alice for that matter. I should have never been with you. It's just made everything worse." He put his arms around me one last time. He knew it too, and I could tell by the way he supported me.
I sat there and waited for the tears to stop. Once I was done, I removed myself from his grip and left silently. I realized the sooner I left, the sooner the pain would go away.
