Disclaimer: I do not own the Harry Potter universe nor do i make any profit from this fic.

Author's note: I don't know why, but this just came to me and wouldn't go away.

The pain is too much to bear. Why did you do this to me? Why did you take me and teach me that love was out there. That someone like me could feel this emotion and not have it based on what I am but who I am. Why did you make my feel you inside my heart and my body only to just rip the feeling from me?

How could you kiss me, hold me and love me like you did only to tell me it was a mistake and leave me out here in the cold. My heart, what was left of it has died with those words that you said to me. You knew how hard it was for me to admit my feelings to you, how very much afraid I was of getting hurt as my life seem it fit to deem me.

I never got close to anyone else the way I got close to you. I closed in on myself for a reason but you took me and held me and showed me that life doesn't stop because you want it to. You showed me that taking risks don't always end up in pain and sorrow.

But you also taught me that no matter what, people don't change…

"Fuck you Potter!"

"In you dreams Malfoy."

We used to fight all the time back at Hogwarts, quarrelling about petty school rivalries and whose blood was most pure. As stupid as it sounds, those were the only times I'd feel truly alive back then.

Always with you. Only with you near me, weather we are kissing under the stars or fighting over who left the water running in the tub.

I never thought I'd see the day you break my heart…

"I love you."

You kissed me; lips barely felt in the magic of the moment, your hand caressing my check and looking into my eyes, "I love you too."

But you were lying!

You never loved me. If you loved me, my heart would not be breaking from the pain you inflicted with the harsh words you uttered earlier.

My sobs are hasrsh and broken in the silence of the room. Memories of blissful nights spent in this very same chamber haunting me, driving me to the edge of sanity and back.

How can I go on? How can I forget…

My breath hitching as you find that place in me that lets me see stars. I look up and realize that you are staring at us; watching as you disappear inside me over and over again.

I blush and become more aroused than I ever thought possible.

So beautiful…so perfect…so mine…so…

I can't do this!

Reaching over toward the nightstand, I pick up the heavy vial there that I had hardly ever used since we were together. I can't go on like this. I can't forget you, can't pretend that everything is fine when I see you at Ministry functions and such. I can't watch you go from guy to guy beginning a new life; happy and in control while mine is over.

I can't and I won't.

My wand is clutched tightly in my hand. Taking a deep breath I raised it and point it at the drapes around the bed.

//Incendio//

The drapes become ablaze in fire, spreading across the hangings. Uncorking the bottle of dreamless sleep, I drank it all in one gulp. Lying down with my wand still clutched in my hand I take a shuddering breath, coughing from the smoke and closing my eyes as I feel the potion take effect. The last thing I'm conscious of is the very last thing you said to me.

"Please! I don't understand. Wh-what did I do?... I'm sorry…Why…" I'm sobbing.

"What don't you understand? I don't want you! Why the fuck won't you listen?"

THE END