I remember the day of Erwin Smith's wedding. He had been madly in love with Zoe Hanji since we were all friends in cadet training. He asked Levi Heichou, one of his close friends and battle mates, to be his best man, a day that I had been around to see. I stood near the back of the room. My old friends looked so at home sitting up at a grand table, peering down at the rest of the attendants to the ceremony. I saw some of the heroes that defeated the titans in the room, names being Eren Jeager, Armin Arlert, and Mikasa Ackerman.

At the front, I heard the sharp, attention grabbing sound of a utensil banging against a glass. It came from Levi, who had obviously not bothered to wear the suit that Erwin sent to him, for he was wearing his usual uniform and that cravat that I was always telling him to take off.

"It looks ridiculous," I would say, but still he never listened.

The attention of everyone in the room was directed towards Levi. This seemed to annoy him. He tried looking at different people, but he couldn't focus on just one. He looked at me and seemed to be peering into my soul.

"Surely he can't have seen me" I thought.

"First I would like to say congratulations on your marriage, Erwin and Zoe," he began. I had become very proud of his achievements and even tried to tell him so on several occasions. "As the people that have known me since cadet training already know, love has not been easy for me. The last two attempts have evidently failed. After Neasa Mathiasen,

I never thought that I would find love again, until I got to know Petra Ral, rest her soul. May you two never have the same fate as I did, and with all due respect, Erwin, do not go dying on Zoe as my girlfriends, if you will, did on me."

This comment brought a round of laughter through the room as Erwin blushed scarlet. I began to walk towards the front table until I was directly in front of Levi. I thought of laying a comforting hand on his shoulder, but I did not want to disrupt his speech. This was a sore subject for him, and I didn't want him to burst into tears.

"Now as we are gathered here in this hall, we are reminded that it is our love and strength that will keep us going… In most cases anyways, or maybe I'm just being punished for all of the things that I did that were not in the favor of humanity."

This was again followed by laughter, though the joke was not intended. The thought of laying a hand on his shoulder crossed my mind again, but I dismissed it, not wanting to cause any trouble.

"Erwin and I got off on the wrong foot, seeing as he was the little soldier boy and I was the convicted criminal, but he eventually got over that and we became the best of enemies."

This caused yet another tremendous uproar of laughter as Levi glanced at Erwin, who was chuckling with the crowd. I rolled my eyes as he was clearly quoting me. In my younger days, I never had any true friends, just enemies, and my fellow cadets were some of the best enemies that I'd ever had.

He resumed his speech by talking about some embarrassing moments that he experienced with Erwin.

"One of my favorite moments was when he asked me to be his 'bridesmaid.' As you can probably imagine I was very confused and offended by this. However, when I caught on to what he said, or was trying to say, so I stressed that I would be the best 'bridesmaid' that I could and jokingly added that I would wear a dress if he wanted me to. Now it was his turn to be confused. He told me that he didn't want me as a 'bridesmaid' but would pay to see the mighty Captain Levi Heichou wearing a dress. This was when I told him that he asked me to be his 'bridesmaid' rather than his best man. Erwin of course denied saying this at first, but then blushed a deep scarlet, actually, it was about the same color as he is blushing now."

This last comment was amusing to me. Erwin always blushed the same color even if it was only minor embarrassment. I would know, I have made him red in the cheeks several times.

"I believe the best moment that we shared was trying to keep steady in our omnidirectional gear. We both managed to stay upright at first, but I tried to shift my weight and fell over. Erwin, who didn't fully trust me at the time, started to laugh. He soon fell over and we laughed together, unable to handle the fact that the other fallen from their perch. Soon the others started to fall from their perch, save one who took the training very serious. We soon became a makeshift family, since we were all away from our blood families. That girl who took training as if it were her life did not want to be part of our family, and chose to travel her own path."

He had a look of admiration. I felt my cheeks get hot. For some reason he kept referring to me.

"Well, I think I've embarrassed poor Erwin enough.… To Erwin and Zoe!" he finished. Everyone repeated his toast and drank from their champagne glasses.

While everyone else was dancing in the grand ball room that was reserved for this wedding, Levi snuck out into the hall. He walked over to a nearby bench and sat down. I sat next to him and took in how different he was that when we first met. Back then he was full of action and did not think about what he was doing; he just did it.

I noticed that tears started stream down his face. He leaned back and closed his eyes, letting his head hit the wall with a thud. I felt sorry that he had chosen to relive the memories that were swimming in his head. I wished that there was something that I could do.

"Neasa," he started to say, "I know that you're here. Please, hold my hand, hug me, play with my hair, do something, anything that would let me know that you still care."

I found this offensive at first, however, I knew why he wanted me to show him that I loved him still. I tried laying my hand down on his and rubbing it, but he didn't seem to feel anything. I sank into his position, trying to make some noise by banging my head into the wall. There was a soft sound as a result, but I was hardly able to hear it over the sound of the music resonating through the walls.

"Look, I know you can't take a physical form, but I wish that you could at least be visible so that we could communicate through codes or something. Neasa, please, I need you." He sobbed.

I looked at him, tears forming in my eyes as well. I turned to the plant next to me and played with its flowers. To my surprise, it made a fairly audible sound. I could tell because Levi looked over at the small shrub that I had been repositioning branches on. A petal from one of the blossoms fell into my hand. I was taken back by the fact that it didn't fall through my hands. I saw his eyes grow wide with interest.

"Neasa?" He asked, unsure if he could believe what he saw. "If it is you wave that petal up and down, if not wave it side to side."

I moved my hands up and down, watching the captain's expression the entire time. This made me happy. I could finally talk to him, though I could only answer yes or no. I watched him as he thought of more questions to ask. I knew what question he was debating in his mind: 'does she still love me?'

Just then, footsteps were heard coming down the hall.

'We'll talk later' Levi's expression said.

Author's Note

Leave a comment please and thank you. This was not my original idea, I was planning on writing this in second person (you are the main character) but then I read the rules and it said, 'nope, sorry, no second person stories.' Hope you enjoyed, there will be an update soon.