Disclaimer: I don't own teen titans, I wish I did though.

All those promises, all those sweet memories, they are all lies.

The truth is beyond her wildness imaginations. Her best friends have betrayed her, leaving her alone, in the vortex of plain truth.

The truth tells her that she doesn't deserve to be loved.

Raven woke up from her bed. She licked her colourless lips and brushed through her violet hair with her hand. The date with Robin last night was great. The dinner was fabulous, and Robin looked drop dead. He did not spike his hair in the usual way, but in a much casual way. Instead of his mask, he wore sunglasses. Extremely tempting, like the forbidden fruit, thought Raven. Smiling, she put on her robe and went out of her room.

"Hey Rae, good morning." Robin smiled at her and said.

"Good morning, Robin," said Raven with a tiny smile. She went into the kitchen, making herself a cup of herbal tea.

"Raven! Wanna try some of my tofu omelette? They are de-licious!" urged Beast Boy, holding a dish of white coloured horror slime.

"I respect you that you don't eat meat; please respect that I don't eat fake meat," she rolled her eyes,trying not to lose control.

"But Raven..."

"I said no!" barked Raven. In order to calm down, she took a sip from her cup of tea. "I am going to meditate, alone."

Raven took the whole jar of herbal tea and walked to the roof. She meditated, calmly. No bad visions, no dim future.

But, this time, she has mistaken.

A terrible mistake that will ruin her life, and left her in pieces. The mistake that will change her life forever.

After 3 long hours of meditation, Raven went out with the other titans to the Pizza Place. Except for the usual argument of ordering a vegetarian pizza or a meat one, everyone seemed pretty quiet, until Beast Boy cracked up the old joke about ducks. Everyone in the restaurant glared at him, Raven covered her mouth and smiled.

An after-lunch visit to a book shop should be pleasant, thought Raven. She left the rest of the Titans and went into a book shop nearby. It was a small book shop. Books are piled up inside, and the smell of crispy, old paper welcomed Raven. She glanced through a few pile of books. The shop keeper smiled at her and said. "Dear, could I help you?" She was a massive woman with brown skin and a healthy face.

"Well I was wondering would there be any books of my liking?" Raven said, putting an incredibly thick book away.

"'Course dear, let's see...." the shop keeper lady glanced and pulled a book out of a dusty old pile of books. " See if you like this book, dear."

Raven looked at the book cover. It was a classic leather book cover, with some golden letters. The topic was 'Valerkyrie'.

Well, I will trust the lady, thought Raven. "Excuse me, how much is this book?" asked Raven, pulling a fifty-dollar note out of her purse.

"A ten-dollar note shall be enough, dear," said the shop keeper. Raven gave her a ten-dollar note. The shop keeper took the money and wrapped the book. She gave Raven the book and also a name card. " Come back if you got lost, dear."

"Thank you," Raven said, walking out of the book shop. She turned around and looked. The book shop is named "Light".

Robin sighed, after finishing his second can of soda. He enjoyed having Raven as his partner in fighting evil, his soul companion. Her negative side surprisingly soothes his dark, secret past. But did he enjoy having her as his love? She was a gorgeous beauty of darkness. Her violet hair, her gloomy eyes, her colourless lips and pale skin are what every Goth dreamed of. Beside her negative personality, she has a smile, a mysterious smile. She was beauty in his eyes, Robin loves her. But he is confused. She knew everything about him; he knew nothing about her. Ever since their first date, all they talk about is always about the other Titans. Raven never said a word about herself.

"Hey Robin, I am back," said Raven, who sat on the couch next to Robin.

"Hey Rae, what did you have there?" Robin put his arm on her shoulder.

"A book obviously, the shop owner chose this for me."

"Interesting, I thought you never ask others to help you make any decisions," said Robin, surprised.

"Well this time it is an exception. She... looks like my old nursemaid in Azara, Gayla. Especially her smile. Guess I have no idea why either." Raven shrugged. " maybe I am not feeling normal today."

"Rae, everything is gonna be fine. I promise." Robin kissed her forehead. Raven's face suddenly turned pinkish.

"Robin, you are acting childish today." Raven said, smiling.

Robin chuckled, holding Raven in his arms and kissed her.

"Sheesh, get a room you two!" exclaimed Beast Boy. "I am gonna need a eye wash bottle if you guys continue here."

"Friend Beast Boy, what do you mean by 'get a room'?" asked Starfire, looking confused.

"Um...never mind."

"Maybe we should really get a room, Rae," teased Robin, winking at Raven.

"You are being bad Robin," then she whispered into his ear. Her voice is like music.

"But...I like it."

Robin looked at Raven. There was a ray of happiness inside those usually gloomy blue vortexes. Raven smiled at him. A both mysterious and seductive smile.

"We are going," said Robin suddenly, lifting Raven up.

"Where are we going?"

"To get ourselves a room," said Robin. He flashed her an evil grin.

Raven woke up and sat on Robin's bed. For the first time of her life, she felt fulfilled. She belongs to Robin, and he belongs to her. She believed that no matter how far they are form each other, no one could tear them apart. She looked at Robin. His Black hair laid on the pillow, his tanned chest was half covered by the black blanket. He snored lightly. Raven smiled and pulled the book from her pile of clothes. The story was extremely familiar. A Jackass father, unlucky girl......

"Hey you're awake," said Robin, rising from his sleeping position. "Feeling alright?"

"Never been better," replied Raven, closing the book. She kissed him on the cheek and glanced at the clock. "Hmm... 4:30 in the morning. I think I better go back to my room, Richie."

"Aw...why?" Robin pulled her close to him. "Don't go."

"I don't want our Tamaranian friend interrogate us later, with her bone crushing hugs."

"Fine, go now." Robin said, letting go of Raven.

Raven stood up, she put on her leotard and robe. "I love you Richard," said Raven, kissing Robin's lips.

"Me too, Rae."

Two months has passed since Robin and Raven's first time. Their relationship never cools down. Raven thought this would last forever and ever. Nothing could tear them apart, for Robin is the love of her life. He was her past, present and future. He was her world. He was her everything.

She smiled while she meditated, enjoying the mind soothing sea breeze and the warm sunlight. She levitated into the closed her eyes. Her heart and mind are calm. She saw a peaceful lake and blue sky. Everything was too peaceful to knew that the vision would mean calmness in the future. She stopped meditating.

She let herself on the ground and sipped her herbal tea. Robin must be watching the television. Maybe I should surprise him, she thought. She walked silently down the staircase. She walked silently through the corridors. When she got to the living room, She saw something that she has never expected to happen. The most horrific scene in her life was right in front of her.

Starfire is on top of Robin, kissing the lips of her boyfriend, French kissing to be more precise. Each kiss seemed to suck life out of Raven's soul,ripping her mind apart. Each time their lips touched, Raven felt that she was struck by a high voltage electric current, roasting her skin, burning her flesh and crushing her bones.

Her lover, her boyfriend lifted Starfire up and went into his room, while they are still step Robin take, was trampling the love of him and Raven's. He was stepping on the sweet memories and promises of their love.

Raven saw them disappearing into Robin's room. She walked silently, back into her room. She closed the door quietly." Azarath Metrion..." she tried to calm herself by meditating. But she lost control of her emotions. Tears burst out of her eyes. She saw it. The truth, plain old truth. Her world collapsed, as if a meteor has just struck her world and her world is now a living hell on Earth, one million times worser than the time Trigon attcked them.

Becuase she was alone. All alone by herself.

She knew that Cyborg and Beast Boy went to the obstacle training course. She was the only eye witness. She collapsed onto the floor, sobbing without a sound. As she heard the rumbling noises and Starfire's cries, calling Robin's name, her tears rolled down her motionless, pale face. Her heart is numb. Each cry Starfire made is like a stab to Raven's heart. At that moment, she would rather die than to think about the things happening in the next room.

So the Tamaranian Princess wasn't that innocent huh? And Boy Wonder enjoys Cross Planet sex? I should have see that coming, Raven, you are the fool, the idiot, You were overwhelmed by your feelings, Raven. It had you blind folded, she thought. How could Robin cheat on her? How could Starfire take him away from her? How could her best friends, her family, her everything...betray her?Did he even...love her? Her tears burst again.

She cried for hours, she cried until she could cry no raised her head. Her eyes glanced at her room. The book, 'Valerkyrie' was lying on her bed. She picked up the book. The name card of the shop keeper lady fell onto the floor. She took a look at it and she grabbed her book of Azar, and the other important left her Titans caller behind, along with her other memories. " Raven Roth as a Titan is history." she whispered. " Goodbye." And she flew into the sky.

The half demon goddess of darkness was no longer a Teen Titan.

Not anymore.

Author:

Well the next chapter will be ten years after Raven left the Teen Titans. Please review.

V.S.V

Disclaimer: I don't own teen titans.