"you don't mean anything to me" / regret


She was angry. Worse than angry. The emotion consumed her entire being leaving her body shaking with it. Her hands clenched into fists by her side in an attempt to contain that anger but it was futile.

Her face was as schooled as ever. It gave nothing away as she and Jean Havoc listened to the wireless in his bunk. Riza didn't let it show the storm brewing inside of her just waiting to be unleashed. She would rain down fire on his head when she saw him again.

That's what he had done to those Ishvalans. He had killed them with her father's research. Research that she trusted him with to make this country a better place. To help the people.

There was talk of her being deployed out there too. She was only a cadet and wasn't old enough. Surely they wouldn't?

She was hurt. She was angry. But worst of all she felt betrayed.

Riza knew she had no right to criticize. If she was deployed like the rumours suggested then she would no doubt be killing people just like him.

The reality of that just hadn't set in she had trusted him.

And as soon as he got what he wanted from her he left.

Again.

No more. She would not put up with his bullshit anymore.


For a week she stewed. It didn't help that the rumours were in fact true and she was deployed. Tensions were high around the camps. It didn't help that she realised in two days' time she would be killing those innocent people just like he was.

The higher ups continued to talk about how pleased they were with the Flame Alchemist. What a great job he was doing. They laughed and joked about how the war definitely would be won now!

Riza just gripped her rifle tighter. Her knuckles went white.

And now as she watched the desert burn before her upon arriving in Ishval she knew how niave she had been.

And then she saw him.

After their initial meeting he sought her out once more while she was in her tent.

He had broken down then. Her anger had wavered slightly seeing the regret in his body and hearing it in his voice.

But only slightly.

She had trusted him. And this is what he had done with that trust.

"Riza, please… Say something."

There was only one thing she wanted to say. It dominated the forefront of her mind giving no access to any other thought.

"What do you want me to say, Sir?" Her tone was frigid even to her ears.

"I'm sorry," he mumbled.

Anger.

"Take your apologies elsewhere." Roy flinched and his hand retracted from her shoulder. "You had a choice and you did this." His face twisted in pain. "For that, you don't mean anything to me anymore."

And although she regretted saying it after seeing his body crumple to the floor she still walked out of that tent. Because if she didn't she would end up on the floor right there with him.


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