A/N: ookay, so i wrote this other story calleddd: The Pieces You Left of Me, and weell i got writer's block, so then i kept reading other stories about Clare getting invited to Eli's wedding (where he's engaged to some other girl), and i thought wow what a great idea, but I want a twist.

And so here it is. Pleaaaase review. If you read it, great! Just tell me what you think :)

I don't own Degrassi.

I just remember that first step. The first step I took towards high school. I was scared, terrified, but most importantly, sad. Sad that one day I might fall in love and it won't work out. Guess, what? That's exactly what happened. I suppose you can say I haven't had any luck with relationships. Take KC for example. I ask myself over and over again, what was it that made him like Jenna more? Was it that she was more outgoing? Was it that she dressed better than I? Is it the guitar? Because I can learn. But after a while I stopped. It was no use crying over spilled milk. He already left me for her, so why bother thinking about it. Then there was Eli, dear goodness, Eli; the guy that I actually admitted loving, and returned the love back. The profound ways of life put him here, in my life, so that I could learn something. And that is to never, ever, fall in love.

Chapter 1

I was sitting in my office, typing away yet another story I was creating.

For some reason all these ideas just kept coming to me.

Then I heard a knock on the door.

"Come in." I yelled. The door opened and it was secretary, Angie.

"Clare, the tour people just called, and they're going to fax you the tour dates and stops."

"Oh, fantastic! Thanks." And with that she closed the door, and I kept typing.

Honestly I was thrilled that my first book was popular and made New York's Best Seller list, but I wasn't excited for this tour. The tour was for me to go around all North America, and talk about my book.

I lived in New York for a reason; to get away from what possibly was a mistake that I made.

The tour spent a great deal of time in Canada, mostly because I'm from there.

I was nervous that I'd run into him.

Breaking me from my deep thoughts, I felt my phone vibrating.

It was Alli.

"Hello?"

"CLARE! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU COMING BBBACCK HERE?"

Guess they released the tour dates. Hm, I should check my fax machine and look at that.

"Calm down, I wanted to surprise you!"

"Well consider me surprised! I can NOT wait to see you! It's been forever."

"Alli, we talk like everyday!"

"Yeah, but it's not the same."

"I know."

There was a pause, it seemed like there was more to this phone call then just Alli being excited for my return.

"Clare, I know you don't like to talk about this, but you know he probably is going to figure out you'll be in town." She seemed concerned.

"I don't really know what you're talking about." I didn't like to talk about it for a reason.

"Eli will find out; and he'll probably try to talk to you. He's been trying to for the past month!"

"Alli, have you ever wondered why? Why out of the blue is it that now, after five years he'd want to talk to me. Last conversation we had, it was pretty clear things were over."

Alli didn't say anything.

"Alli?"

Nothing, no sound.

"Alli, what do you know?"

"Well, we sort of ran into each other when I went to the mall. I tried to be mad at him, I really did but. . . "

"But what, Alli?" My voice was becoming sterner.

"But the girl he was with had this amazing dress on, and I just HAD to know where she got it."

"Girl?"

"That's what he's trying to tell you Clare. He's engaged."

"Excuse me?"

"He's getting married."

"Oh, well that's nice for him."

"Clare."

"It is, good for him that he found someone, or whatever." You could tell I didn't care.

"Clare."

"What do you want me to say, that I'm so upset that he's getting married, that I can't believe that he found love, and I'm still here grieving about him not being in my life. That apparently I can never replace him, but he could."

"Clare he didn't replace you! He tried to talk to you remember, you wouldn't let him."

"You know why, Alli? Because he –" I stopped myself, there was no reason to talk about the past.

"He's going to find out. And he'll show up, don't say I didn't warn you."

"Look, I have to go do some paperwork. I'll call you the second I get in town"

I let out a big fat sigh.

It didn't make me feel better, but it did help.

Eli engaged; that thought ran a marathon in my head.

How could he get over me? I don't mean to sound conceited, or even full of myself, but what Eli and I had is something I don't think I'll ever find with anyone else.