Authors Note: This is my first Merlin fanfic so sorry if it isn't great... also half the characters will be from my own imagination but the story will still follow what generally happens in the series and legends :) hope you enjoy it... I'll add more soon

What does it mean to be brave? Must you stand up for what you believe in? Jump without looking? Or must you sacrifice the thing you treasure the most?

But if bravery is to sacrifice your most treasured possession, then what would you sacrifice to be brave? Your freedom? Your heart? Your soul? Your other half?

But then if you sacrifice your other half to become brave, would not your heart go with it and therefore your soul too? And if you sacrifice your heart along with your soul and your other half; is not your freedom then too, gone? Your mind would be weakened with such a loss that the power of manipulation would barely be needed to control you.

But if to become brave really meant that you must sacrifice your heart, soul and freedom with your other half to the power of manipulation, would you still do it? Would it not be easier to sit with your mind intact, surrounded by those you love even if you must suffer through dictations? But then is that not the same thing as being manipulated? And if is the same thing as being manipulated, then cowardice cannot be too different from bravery, right?

But what is right, and what is wrong?

My name is Chrystal and I am a young druid girl living within the streets of Camelot but I sense my fate is about to change. I do not yet understand my powers, none of my people ever did and they never will for all my friends and family are dead. Except one. But whether my visions will come to pass I do not know. Whether I shall see him again will be up to him. Only he can control the stormy seas on which he rides. I don't remember much about him and I doubt he remembers me at all, but I do know one thing: his name - Mordred.