PLEASE READ! Hey guys.. This is my first Rolivia fanfic and my second ever. English is not my mother tongue so please be patient and kind with me. Besides no one forces you to read it.. Enjoy :) Reviews will be a great motive for me to continue so please review :)

"How's your arm doing?" Olivia asked the young blonde standing next to her.

Amanda didn't answer. She kept her eyes on her partner. She had come all the way from her apartment when she learned Fin went in that house unarmed, she took a bullet for him and God she cared about him, but he didn't seem to be in any mood to talk to her. She slowly moved her eyes and stared at Olivia's chocolate ones. Those eyes... She could swear there was one special feeling she felt every time she looked at those eyes.

"Hurts but I'm gonna live" She returned to Olivia. Olivia gave her a sympathetic smile. She couldn't help but wondering if and what happened between her and Fin but she wasn't going to ask and get involved in their partnership. Besides if Amanda wanted to share it she would.

"Come on, let me drive you home. You gotta rest."

She patted her back and leaded her to the car. Amanda shuddered at Olivia's touch but kept walking. The truth was, she hadn't been in a relationship with a guy in a long time, but she didn't want to either. The past year she could only imagine herself being with Olivia. Even dreaming of things they could do together if they were a couple. But that could never happen, because Olivia's not a lesbian, right? And even if she was there was their job that could be risked by their relationship, right?

"What?" Olivia asked Amanda. Amanda widened her eyes in question.

"What do you mean?" She answered back still wondering what Olivia's what could have been for. Was she thinking out loud?

Olivia parked the car and took the keys off.

"You've been staring at me since we got in this car. Am I getting that old that you noticed?" She said as she got out of the car. She moved to Amanda's side to help her out. Once she opened her door their eyes met again. Amanda had a hard time struggling not to get lost in them.

"Oh sorry I didn't mean to… No, no of course not Liv you're still so damn beautiful and sexy." Soon enough she realized what she'd just said… "I mean…" Olivia smiled and gave her a careful hug so as not to hurt her.

"Thank you Ams. Nobody had told me that in a long time. Almost forgot that I am a woman."

Amanda half-smiled, with this baby face of hers.

"She's damn cute." Olivia thought to herself ... She didn't really like Amanda when she first came to SVU, but you can't judge a book by its cover. Although Amanda's cover was one of the best she had ever seen. She started hanging around with her after a case and God knows she didn't regret it for a single minute.

"I uh… I gotta go back to work but I'm probably coming to check on you afterwards."

"You really don't have to I'll be fine." Amanda said. It's not that she didn't want Olivia to come, hell she did! But Olivia probably had someone who'd wait to see her all day, a boyfriend maybe. And she didn't want to delay that person's chance to see her. Because she knew how hard it was, wanting to see Olivia but had to wait a few more hours.

Olivia came a little bit closer and kissed her forehead. "I know I don't have to. Go inside take some rest. I'll see you tonight."

Amanda stayed there in the cold. She only got in her apartment after Olivia disappeared in the long city roads…


She woke up from the vibration of her phone. She looked at the screen and smiled widely as she saw who the caller was.

"Rollins" She answered, pretending she didn't notice the name.

"Hey Amanda it's me. I'm on my way to your apartment. I just wanted to check if you're in the mood or is it too late…" Amanda checked her watch. It was past midnight, late for some people but never late for Olivia to come over.

"No, no it's okay Liv, I mean if you are not tired you can come over."

Olivia mumbled something that Amanda didn't clearly hear as she got off the phone. It was probably something like I'm almost there. She quickly tidied her apartment and brushed her hair.

Soon there was a knock on her door. She took a deep breath and opened it. She was stunned to see her favorite detective on the other side of the door looking so hot even after a long work day. Olivia was amazed too to see the younger blonde in her cute, light pink tank top and shorts, which she supposed were her pajamas. She felt weird. For a moment she couldn't take her eyes off her long shaved legs, her clear skin. She slowly and discreetly moved her eyes up to her body stopping at the sling that was n her arm.

"Come on in." Olivia waited no more as she stepped in the apartment. "Want me to bring you something to drink? I have red wine, vodka, beer…"

"I m gonna need to drive later on so, no thanks." She replied. Amanda brought herself a small glass of vodka and sat n her couch next to Olivia.

"How was your day?" She asked, taking a big sip of her vodka. Olivia smiled at the sound of her neck as she swallowed it.

"Tiring you know we had all this paperwork from Gloria's case and then console Fin. He felt bad for treating you like that earlier today so… yeah pretty much that's how my day went off… What about yours?"

"Slept." She said and smiled. Olivia let out a small laugh. That was it. The smallest yet the greatest think and excuse she needed.

After chatting a little more she couldn't take it. She let her glass on the table and stood up. She walked across the room and stopped in front of the French door and stared outside. This took Olivia by surprise. She followed the blonde and stood right behind her resting a hand on her shoulder.

"What is it Ams?" She asked in a soft tone. Amanda turned her face at Olivia's direction and stared directly n those eyes she loved so much. Olivia could see her blue ones were covered with tears threatening to fall. Amanda stared at the ground for a while, and then looked back at the woman who had stolen her heart, her sleep, her dreams, her everything…

"You may hate me after this but I just have to…" She finally spoke as one tear rolled down her cheek. She gave no time to Olivia as she pressed her lips against hers, waiting for her reaction. She was expecting more of a slap or a push, if anything Olivia opened her mouth allowing Amanda's tongue to have access in it. They let their tongues dance together for a while. Olivia cupped Amanda's cheek with her hand as she moved her body closer to hers. She moved her other hand and caressed all the way from her back to her ass. She stopped there caressing the soft skin that was exposed from Amanda's shorts.

Amanda had a hard time believing what was happening. She felt Olivia's heavy breath hitting her collar bone as Olivia's mouth made its way there to gently lick and suck it, carefully, never touching her hurt arm. She let out a soft moan. She managed to put herself together and decided to stop this, although Olivia had made no move to get under her clothes. She didn't know if this would end in a moment or would be continued till the end. And no matter how badly she wanted Olivia it couldn't happen at that moment.

"Liv, stop…please." She murmured between moans. Olivia moved her lips and pressed another soft kiss on Amanda's.

"I could never hate you." She answered. She then, took Amanda's hands in hers. "And I'm glad you made that move. I want this Ams. I want us…"

Amanda finally let all her tears fall. She couldn't believe what Olivia had just told her. She waited an entire year, just watching her, hiding her desires and now there she was… saying she wanted "her" and "her" to be an "us". They moved to the couch and snuggled together. She didn't speak again that night. Olivia waited for her to fall asleep and then she quietly left. Both of them wondering how things would be tomorrow…..