Love, Pain And The Whole Crazy Thing

Chapter 1 – Bugs and Barbies

''5.30.'' Addison groaned as she looked over at the alarm clock, shining the time at her in an almost threatening way as cries filled the quiet house. "Maybe they'll stop." Her husband, Derek Shepherd, mumbled against his pillow. ''They never do.'' She sighed sleepily, throwing off the covers. "Fine." He stretched his back before getting up from the bed, yawning. ''No it's okay I'll do it.'' She got out of the bed. "I'm already up." He started walking out of their room. ''Okay.'' A 23 year old Addison sighed and ran her hand through her hair before walking into her 2 year old twins' room. ''Shh mommy's here.'' He followed her into the room. "So is daddy." He went to one of the cribs and picked up his daughter that owned his black hair and Addison's green eyes. ''Hi baby.'' Addison picked up Justin who was looking at her intensely. ''Momma.'' Derek smiled at Addison before kissing the top of his daughters hair. "Hey sweetie."

Addison smiled at her husband and their daughter before looking down at their son, it was hard being 23, married, parents and second year medical students but moments like these made all the hard work and stress worth it. He sat on a chair and started talking to his daughter. "Aww, aren't you just so cute. Yes you are, my little cutie. Yes my little Hailey."

Their daughter giggled as she heard her name, the giggle was just the cutest one ever to him, except for his wife's. ''I'm gonna make their bottles.'' Addison kissed the top of Derek's head. ''Will you dress her?''
"Okay." He looked up to her and pecked her lips.
''Thanks honey.''
"Welcome."

Addison left the jungle themed bedroom, carefully walking down the stairs in her shorts and tank top with the babbling two year old. Back upstairs Derek got up from the chair, walking to the changing table and carefully placing his daughter on it before going to the closet and picking some clothes for her. After that he started dressing her.

Downstairs she heated two bottles, picking up one of them as she gave one to Justin.

''Momma TV!'' He yelled excitedly while Addison walked into the living room, followed by him as she turned on the TV.

Meanwhile Hailey was fully dressed and ready to go. "Lets go find mommy." Derek picked her up and placed her on the floor, walking out of the room and soon Hailey followed him. ''Hey there.'' Addison smiled as she saw them walking down the stairs a few moments later. "Momma!" Hailey's face lit up and she took few unsure running steps. ''Hey sweetheart.'' Addison laughed as she just caught her daughter a few steps away from the sofa, just before she could fall on the floor. Derek laughed, walking to the sofa and sat down next to her. ''Morning by the way.'' She pecked his lips.
"Morning honey." He gave her quick kiss.

''Hmm. How late does class start for you today?''
"At 8, I think" He shrugged and turned his attention to the TV.

Addison rolled her eyes at him. ''Well I'm going to stay at home, Justin feels fever-ish.''
"He does?" He furrowed his eyebrows together, slightly worried.
''Yeah his face was burning yesterday.''
"Okay." He replied and picked up his son from the floor and placed his hand on his forehead. "Did you take his temperature yet?"
''I did yesterday.''
"Okay, what was it then?" He removed his hand.
''101.''
"Okay." He nodded, placing Justin back onto the floor.

''So I'm just staying home to be sure, I'm too tired to concentrate on class anyway.''

"Okay sweetie." He kissed her cheek.

''You coming home in between classes?''

"Sure." He shrugged.

''Okay.'' She smiled a little.

"Yeah." He smiled back at her.

''How many classes do you have?''

''I'm not sure, have to check.''

''Mhm.'' She smiled when Hailey tugged at her shorts to be picked up. Derek laughed softly at the scene. He loved his life, it was rough but it was worth it when something like this happened.

''What ya doing there little one?'' Addison talked to her animatedly, placing her in her lap.

"Hungrrrry" Hailey pressured the R, pouting and tapping her belly at the same time.

''You want a bottle of milk?''

"MILK!" She said, clearly excited.

''Yes milk!'' Addison laughed, getting up from the couch.

"Milk!" She repeated again, holding tight on her mother.

''Yeah we're getting the milk.'' Addison rolled her eyes laughing as she walked towards the kitchen.

Hailey giggled at her mother, trying to roll her eyes too, failing miserably. She let out a loud laugh when she saw what her daughter was on to. ''I'm just going to take it as a positive thing that you're copying me.''

"Okay what did I miss?" Derek called from the living room.

''She tried to roll her eyes!'' Addison laughed.

"Seriously?" Derek laughed.

''Yes.'' She smiled at her daughter, handing her the bottle of milk.

"Thank you momma." She took the milk and started drinking hungrily.

''Wow you're hungry.''

She nodded and continued drinking.

''Hmm mommy's pretty little girl.'' She stroked her daughters black curls. She stopped drinking and giggled as her curls tickled her skin. Addison smiled at her cute giggle, placing a kiss on her forehead. She smiled and wrapped her arms around her mother's neck.

''Are you done with the milk?''

"Yes." She smiled and gave the bottle to Addison.

''Thank you.'' She put the milk back on the counter.

"Welcome momma." She batted her eyelashes.

Addison laughed again, Derek and she had recently began to teach them manners but while Justin didn't quite seem to get it, Hailey took it a little too literal. Hailey just simply smiled, not completely understanding why her mother was smiling.

''You sure you don't want any more milk sweetie?''

"No momma." Hailey shook her head.

''Okay.'' Addison smiled, walking back into the living room. Derek smiled as his girls stepped into the room, he was holding Justin in his lap.

''What time did you have to go again?''

"Around 7.30." He simply replied.

''Okay.'' She looked a her watch. ''It's 6.37 now.''

"So I have about an hour."

''Yeah so I'll get Justin dressed now, look after Hailey okay?''

"Okay." He placed Justin on the floor. "You go with mommy now okay?"

''Momma.'' The little boy grinned, pointing at Addison.

"Yes, mommy." Derek laughed, he had some doubts about uncle Mark teaching him some faces. He grinned even more, waddling over to Addison.

Hailey, who was still carried by her mother, started kicking. "Daddyy." She reached one hand towards Derek. Addison rolled her eyes at her daughter and put her down to the floor, somehow she had always been more closer to her father rather than her mother. Derek let a laugh escape his lips as his daughter walked towards her. When she was close enough he picked her up. She smiled widely and picked up Justin who played with her curls. ''Be right back.''

"Okay." He smiled and placed Hailey to sit on his lap, turning the TV-channel to a news-channel.

Upstairs Addison walked back into her children's bedroom, setting Justin down on the changing table. Justin smiled and patiently waited for his mother to dress him

''So what do we want to wear today Jussie?'' She smiled at him.

"Something pretty." He pouted his lips.

''Okay.'' She laughed walking over to his closet where she pulled out a green shirt and little boy jeans. ''This?''

He nodded after looking at the clothes for few moments.

''Okay.'' Addison smiled, grabbing a new diaper. Justin's face dropped, he hated diapers and changing them was just torture. She saw his change in demeanour, trying to act as if nothing was going on. ''Will you lay down for mommy please?''

He shook his head and pouted. "No."

''Sweetie please.''

"No." He repeated and shook his head again.

''Justin.'' She gave her soon her infamous glare.

Justin shook his head and looked as sad as he could, the fever might have had something to do with his actions.

''It will only take a minute and then you're already done.''

"Promise?" Justin looked up to his mother.

''Promise.''

Justin seemed to think about it for few seconds before nodding and laying down.

''Thank you.'' She pecked his cheek before leaning back up worried. ''Sweetie you're burning!'' She placed her hand on his forehead, feeling how hot it was. Justin covered his ears. "Momma that hurt." Tears started forming in his eyes. She softly stroked his black curls, concerned. ''Does your tummy hurt?''

"A little." He blinked his eyes.

''How about your head? Does that hurt?''

"My ear." He mumbled and few tears made their way down on his cheeks.

''How does it hurt?'' She looked at his left ear which was flaming red.

"It hurts." He sobbed.

''Sweetie...'' She wrapped her arms around his little body, hugging him. ''Can mommy take a look?''

He wrapped his arms around her neck and held on tight. ''Can mommy look at it Jussie?'' She whispered. He nodded bravely, trying to hold back the sobs. ''Okay.'' She softly kissed his cheek, wiping away his tears. It broke her heart to see her little boy in pain. Justin bit on his lip while his ear was throbbing like it never had before. Addison turned her head and took a look at her son's ear. A few sobs escaped his throat as his mother examined his ear. She softly rubbed his back. ''Okay, let's go downstairs and let daddy take a look okay?''

"Okay." Justin nodded his head again, wiping away some of his tears.

Addison carefully picked him up from the changing table, walking downstairs. She walked into the living room to see Derek cheerfully playing with their daughter. ''Honey would you look at his ear please?''

"What's wrong with it?" Derek asked, looking up to his wife.

''I think he has Otitis Media.''

"Ouch." He commented, getting up from the floor with a concerned face. "Lets take a look then."

Addison turned so he could look at their son's ear. He looked at it for several moments. "Yeah, it's Otitis Media."

''Hmm.'' Addison stroked Justin's still pyjama covered back. ''My poor baby.''

Derek placed his hand on Justin's forehead, noticing the same as Addison had noticed before. "He's burning."

''I know, there's no way I'm going to school now.''

"Yeah." Derek pecked Addison's lips, soon he felt Hailey wrapping her arms around his leg. "Why is Jussie crying?" Hailey asked in a whisper.

''He's a little bit sick.'' Addison explained, hugging her little boy.

"Why?" Hailey tilted her head to the side.

''His ear is hurting honey.''

Hailey nodded, processing the information she just received.

''You go get dressed now, I'll watch them.'' She told her husband.

"Thanks." he pecked her lips.

''Yeah.''

Derek smiled and started leaving, not succeeding. "Hailey babe, would you let go of my leg?" He chuckled. Addison laughed when the little girl giggled but didn't let go. ''Why don't you stay here with mommy and Justin for a bit until daddy is back?''

Hailey smiled, not letting of his fathers leg. Derek let out a laugh, not able to move. "We're saying please."

''Please.'' She rolled her eyes at the two year old. Hailey smiled, finally letting go and running to her mother's leg and holding on to it like he had held on to her father's.

''Oh great.'' She laughed and looked up to Derek. ''Better run now you still can.''

He smiled and pecked his wife's lips once more. "I'll be back in a few."

''Okay.'' Addison gave him a smile. ''Sweetie let go of my leg please.''

Derek left the room and Hailey let go of her leg, looking up to her mom. "You don't like it?" She batted her eyelashes.

''I can't walk when you do that.'' She chuckled.

"Oh." Hailey made a small smile and ran towards the couch.

''Hmm.'' Addison let out a small sigh and rubbed her forehead with her free hand, her other arm still carrying Justin. ''Grandma is going to come today.''

"Grandma!" Hailey yelled and tried to get on the couch.

"Grandma." Justin made a small smile, he loved his grandma.

''Yeah grandma.'' She smiled, helping Hailey up on the couch and then sat next to her. ''So how's my little boy doing now?''

"It hurts a little." Justin pouted his bottom lip, the pain had gone down a bit.

''You want a little kiss on it?''

"Yes." Justin smiled widely.

''Okay.'' She smiled and brought her lips to his hurting ear, barely touching it as she kissed it.

"Hailey too!" Hailey stood up on the couch, in desperate need of attention.

''And where does Hailey want a kiss?''

Hailey placed her finger on her lips. "There."

Addison pouted her lips, placing a little kiss on her lips. After it Hailey smiled widely and sat on to the couch.

''Everybody good now?'' Addison smiled.

"Yeah." Hailey looked at the TV.

"Yep." Justin grinned, looking at the TV as well.

''Well maybe mommy could use a hug.''

Justin instantly wrapped his arms around her mother and so did Hailey.

''Aww.'' Addison smiled, cuddling them against her.

Justin smiled and looked up to his mother. "I love you momma."

''Oh I love you too, I love you both, very, very, very much.'' She cuddled them closer, pecking their cheeks several times. Hailey giggled. "I love momma too." She wrapped her arms tighter around her. ''And mommy loves you too.'' She kissed the top of her small nose. The little girl giggled. "That tickled."

''Sorry.'' Addison stroked Hailey's curls out of her face. Hailey smiled. "It's okay momma."

''Good.'' She hugged them again. ''But Hailey you're going to be alone with grandma for a little while okay?''

"Alone, with grandma?" She tilted her head.

''Yes.''

"Why?" She furrowed her eyebrows together.

''I need to take Jussie to a doctor.''

"Can't you just fix Jussie?"

''I can't sweetie.''

"Why not?" She pouted.

''Because I'm not a doctor.''

"So I'm going to be alone, with grandma." She pouted her lower lip.

''Hey I thought you were happy about grandma coming?''

"But I want momma too." She made a smile.

''I won't be gone for long.''

"You promise?" She batted her eyelashes, giving her the cutest smile she knew.

''Promise.'' Addison smiled, stroking the little girl's hair.

"Okay mom." Hailey smiled and unwrapped her arms. Addison smiled at her and kissed both their cheeks when she heard Derek coming down the stairs. Soon Derek entered the room. "Hey princess." He smiled as Hailey hopped down from the couch and started running towards him. ''Careful.'' Addison warned. Hailey giggled, throwing herself in the arms of her father. Derek caught her and lifted her up. "Momma's right, be more careful." Derek smiled and gave her a little kiss on the lips. "Okay." Hailey giggled.

''You leaving?'' She looked at her husband.

"Yeah, I have to." Derek made a sad smile.

''Yeah. I know.'' She sighed. Derek walked to the couch, placing his little girl in his lap to sit on it. Addison contently stroked her son's arm, looking at her husband and daughter. Derek gave his wife a soft kiss. "I love you."

''I love you too.'' She smiled, giving him a kiss back.

"I have to leave." He pecked her lips again.

''Yep.'' She sighed, she hated it when he left. He sighed too, standing up straight.

''Do you guys wanna wave at Daddy?''

Derek laughed as both of his kids quickly waved at him.

''One more kiss.'' Addison looked up at him. Derek smiled. "Come to the hall for a while." He whispered. ''Okay.'' She gave him a confused look, getting up from the couch. ''You guys behave for a second, I'll be right back.''

They left the room and the kids continued watching TV. As they reached the hall he kissed her. She closed her eyes, softly kissing him back. He brought his hand to her cheek. She wrapped her arms around his neck, pushing her body against his. Derek placed his arms around her waist, kissing her passionately. Addison let out a soft moan, playing with the curly ends of his hair. Derek smiled into their kiss, his hand running up and down her back. After a while she softly pulled back from the kiss, pecking his lips one last time.

He smiled. "Bye."

''Bye.'' She gave him a sad smile. He pecked her lips again, not getting enough of her.

Addison grinned and pecked him back. ''You should really go now.''

"I don't want to..." He pouted his lips before pecking her lips again.

''I don't want you to either but in that way at least one of us will become a doctor.'' Addison let out a small smile, feeling like she had just back-stabbed herself by saying that.

"You're gonna make a great doctor." He brushed her cheek. ''Yeah.'' She plastered a smile on her face, knowing that since they had children, she didn't had it in her to become a doctor anymore. He raised his eyebrows. "I really gotta run now but we're gonna talk later, okay?" He pecked her lips. ''Okay.'' She looked at him as he opened the front door. "Love ya" He called over his shoulder as he closed the door. ''You too.'' She whispered, leaning against the wall.

Soon Hailey appeared into the hall, followed by her brother.

''Hey.'' She gave them a small smile. ''What are you doing?''

"Did daddy go?" Hailey tilted her head to the side.

''Yeah.''

Hailey nodded and reached her hands towards Addison.

''What is it sweetie?'' She took her small hands in hers.

"Jussie is hungry." She pointed at her brother.

"Yeah." Justin smiled.

''What do you want to eat?''

He shrugged.

''Well?'' She raised her eyebrow.

"Something sweet." He grinned.

''No.''

"Pleeeeease." He pouted his lips, looking up to Addison.

''It's 7.30 in the morning, no.''

"Please..." He continued.

''Nooooo.''

He pouted before walking back to the living room.

Addison rolled her eyes and followed him back with Hailey. ''Do you want a sandwich?''

"Yes." Justin smiled a little.

"Me too." Hailey smiled widely, clearly excited.

''Hmm okay, cheese?''

"Lots of cheese!" Hailey started jumping up and down.

''Oooookay.'' Addison laughed, walking into the kitchen.

Hailey followed her with Justin right behind her.

''You cheese too?''

"Yeah." Justin smiled.

''Kay.'' Addison opened the fridge. Hailey went behind her mother and looked into the fridge. She laughed and moved to the side, running her hand through her daughter's hair.

Hailey smiled and pointed at the cheese. "There!"

''Thanks honey.'' Addison grabbed the cheese and a milk carton.

She smiled proudly. "See I was useful." She turned to brag at his brother who just stuck out his tongue.

''Hey, stop that.'' She turned to the counter, getting two bottles and 4 leaves of bread.

Hailey stuck out her tongue and Justin ran to his mother. "Momma, Hailey won't stop..."

''Hailey.'' Addison gave her daughter a stern look. Hailey looked down to the floor while Justin gave her a wide smile.

''No teasing okay.'' She continued to make their sandwiches as the doorbell rang.

"Grandma!" Hailey smiled and started running towards the door.

''Only open the door if it is grandma!'' Addison yelled after them as Justin followed his twin. The twins continued running and finally reached the door.

''It's grandma!'' Justin yelled back.

''Then you can open the door.''

Hailey smiled and reached for the doorknob.

''Grandma!'' Justin squealed.

"Grandma!" Hailey threw herself against her leg, apparently she had a thing for legs.

"Hey sweeties." Theresa Shepherd smiled at the warm welcome. Justin grinned up at his grandmother and held out his arms to be picked up. Theresa smiled and picked up her grandson, giving him a soft kiss on his forehead. "Sweetie, you're burning."

''My ear hurts.'' He pouted.

"Did your mommy check on it?" She tried to make Hailey let go of her leg. Hailey giggled and held up her hands too. Theresa smiled at her, she couldn't say no to her and picked her up as well. With twin on each side of her, she stepped in to the house.

''Mom?'' Addison yelled from the kitchen.

"Yeah?" She walked further into the house, towards the source of the sound.

''Hey.'' Addison smiled at her.

"Hey." She walked over to Addison, still carrying the twins.

''Hey give grandma a break.'' She laughed.

"Addison it's okay." Theresa laughed and dropped a kiss on Addison's cheek. She smiled at her mother-in-law. ''I was just making the kids a sandwich, do you want one too?''

"If you don't mind..." She smiled at her.

''Of course not. What would you like on it?''

"Cheese is okay." Theresa smiled politely.

''All cheese.'' Addison laughed, fixing another sandwich. ''Coffee or tea?''

"We have a thing for cheese don't we?" She laughed and placed the kids on the floor. "And coffee, please."

''You do.'' She turned on the coffee maker.

Theresa laughed. "Need any help?"

''No thank you, I'm good.''

"Okay. Can I give the sandwiches to the kids?" She asked.

''Of course.'' Addison placed the sandwiches on two plastic plates and filled their bottles with milk before handing them over to Theresa. "Thank you Addie." She smiled and led the kids towards the table. Addison sighed and ran her fingers through her hair, waiting for the coffee to be done.

Soon Theresa returned to the room. "I told them to behave." She nodded towards the dining room.

''Okay.'' Addison smiled a small smile, pouring coffee into two mugs. Theresa raised her eyebrows. "What is it?"

''Nothing, what should be wrong?''

"No offence but you don't look so happy."

''Yeah well...just a little tired, that's all.''

"Yeah, 2-year-old twins at the age of 23. No wonder you're tired."

''Yeah.'' She smiled a fake smile, handing Theresa one of the two mugs.''

"Thank you Addison and you know that you can tell me anything, right?"

''Yeah, yeah. I know.'' Addison tried to shrug it off, leaning against the counter as she took a sip of her coffee.

Theresa took a sip of her coffee. "So you're okay?" She confirmed. ''Mhm.'' She looked down at her coffee. "Good." Theresa made a small smile, knowing that her daughter-in-law was lying. ''Yeah.'' Addison nodded. Theresa took another sip of her coffee and sigh of relief. "This is the best coffee in long time." She complimented with a smile. ''Really?'' Addison laughed, moving to the chair opposite to Theresa after taking a quick peek into the living room to see her children playing. "Oh yeah, I haven't had coffee in a while" Theresa laughed. "Are they behaving?" She asked.

''They are.''

"Good." She smiled.

''Yeah, they're good kids.''

"I've noticed that, apparently they come to you on this one. Derek was wild." Theresa laughed. ''Hmm.'' She smiled back at her. Theresa flashed her a smile, sipping her coffee quietly.

''So...How are things at home?''

"The normal, nothing new." She shrugged and sighed.

''That bad?''

"Seriously, I just need sex!" She slapped her mouth as soon as she realised what she just blurted out. Addison stared at her mother-in-law for a few seconds before taking a sip of her coffee again. ''Yeah that makes two of us.''

"You too?" She raised her eyebrows.

''Mhm.'' Addison groaned.

"Wow." She said obviously in shock.

''What?'' She looked up at Theresa.

"You're young and all." She shrugged.

''Yeah well, just don't have it anymore.''

"That sucks." Theresa shrugged. "Well at least you can remember the last time you had s-e-x."

''Ooooh no I don't.''

"Ouch." Theresa made a small smile. "Just talk to him."

''Well it's kind of a touchy subject and I wouldn't want to have sex with my wife either if she looks anything like me.''

"I'm sure it's not that." Theresa smiled.

''Hmm.'' She sighed and rested her head on her hand.

"I'm serious Addison." Theresa looked at her.

''What?''

"You look great, don't you doubt that." She smiled.

''I'm in my pyjama's all day when at home, make-up less and smelling like whatever my children ate that day, I do not look great.''

Theresa shrugged. "Well take a look at me I'm in my 50's, even my husband won't touch me anymore."

"Do you know why?''

"Nope." She took a sip of her coffee. "And that's because we don't talk anymore."

''And why don't you?''

"I have no idea." She sighed.

''Well then I'm going to give your advise back and tell you that you need to talk to him.''

"Only if you talk to Derek."

''Right and what do you expect me to tell him?''

"Just tell him what you need." Theresa shrugged. "Or seduce him."

''I am not going to seduce him.'' Addison rolled her eyes.

"Addison, just talk to him okay?"

''What? What am I supposed to say?''

"Tell him that you need S-E-X."

''That's ridiculous.''

"Yeah it is." Theresa smiled and laid her head on the table. "I'm old." She sighed.

''Hey at least your husband didn't stop wanting sex with you when you were 23.''

"It was at the age of 26." She mumbled against the table. "Two years after we had Nancy."

''You mean you didn't...'' Addison gasped.

"What?" Theresa raised his eyebrows, confused look on her face.

''You mean you hadn't have sex since then?'' She whispered.

"Oh we have, like once a month. He started working a lot at that time."

''Hmm well better sex once a month than no sex at all.'' Addison sighed. ''I think that over the last two and a half years we didn't do it more than 10 times.''

"Ouch." Theresa made a sad smile. "I would go crazy."

''Oh you would. I mean half of the time I think he's going to some secret mistress of his instead of school.''

"You think he's cheating on you?" Theresa raised her head and looked up to Addison.

''I don't know.'' She shrugged, looking down at her mug.

"He can't be, that's not like him." Theresa shook her head, it wasn't possible.

''Well than give me another explanation.''

"Erhm... he's having rough time at school." Theresa shrugged.

''Well so am I and he's not even missing half of the classes.''

"Have you complained at him of being tired?"

''I have two children under the age of three, of course I complain I'm tired.''

"That could be one reason." Theresa gave Addison a smile. "He might think you're too tired for sex."

''All the time?'' She gave her mother-in-law a 'come on' look.

"Seriously I don't think he's cheating on you." Theresa shrugged, laying her head back onto the table.

''Yeah well...'' She stirred the spoon through her already cold coffee.

Theresa finished her coffee with one sip. "You asked me previously what you should talk about. There's one subject."

''Which is?'' Addison raised her eyebrow.

"Oh just forget it." Theresa mumbled against the table.

''No, tell me.''

"Tell him about how you feel, talk things straight."

''I don't know mom it's just...sometimes I feel like we made a big mistake. I mean don't get me wrong, I love Hailey and Justin and I wouldn't want to loose them for anything in the world and beyond but sometimes I just feel that we're in the wrong time at the wrong age.''

Theresa listened to her daughter-in-law with a serious look on her face. "Addie, everybody who got two kids at the age of 23 has thought of that at least thousand times, I know I have." She sighed.

''Yeah but it's just...I love being a mom and all but I just feel like I shouldn't be one.''

"Yeah, I felt like that too but seeing how all my kids grew up. It made me feel like I created something good." Theresa made a small smile. "And then it all felt like it was worth of all those sleepless nights that I spent crying. It gets better in time, Addie."

''It'll be too late by then.''

Theresa shook her head. "It wont."

''Yes it will, I'm in the best med school you can enter and yet most of the days I don't even go to class and I won't be able to do it over when the kids are older but neither do I want to drop them off at a day-care.'' She felt tears welling up in her eyes. All this time she had kept her pain, frustration and fear inside. "Aww Addison." Theresa got up and went to the other side of the table, sitting down on the chair next to her and pulling her in for a tight hug. She moved into the hug, letting her tears fall. ''I just don't know what to do anymore.'' She sobbed. "Let it all out." She whispered, running her hand over Addison's back to comfort her. Addison clasped her hand in front of her mouth, trying to keep her sobs back as much as possible. She hand kept running on her back as she pulled her closer, she still could remember the times when she had these breakdowns.

After a few minutes Addison shakily pulled back, a few sobs leaving her throat.

"Feeling any better?" Theresa asked, wiping away Addison's tears.

''Yeah.'' She nodded. ''Sorry.''

"It's okay." She made a small smile.

''Momma?'' Justin walked into the kitchen cautiously.

"Hey Juss." Theresa made a smile, unwrapping her arms around Addison.

''What is it sweetheart?'' Addison quickly wiped away her tears again.

''My ear hurts really much.'' His bottom lip trembled.

Hailey appeared into the room, running over to her grandma. Theresa picked her up to sit in her lap. "What's wrong with him?"

''He has Otitis Media, I'm going to the doctor with him in an hour.'' She picked up her son and looked at his ear which had only gotten worse. ''Sorry I totally forgot to ask you. Could you watch Hailey until I'm back?''

"Aww, poor baby." Theresa made a sad smile and took a look at his ear as well. "And yeah, sure I can."

''Thanks mom.'' Addison gave her a grateful smile.

"My pleasure." Theresa smiled at Addison.

''So I'm going to take him upstairs to get him dressed.'' Addison stood up. ''And Hailey you still have to brush your teeth.''

"I'll make sure that my little bug does so." Theresa said giving Addison a wide smile

''Thanks.'' She smiled back, grabbing Justin's tiny hand as they walked out of the kitchen together. Theresa smiled at her granddaughter, dropping a little kiss on her hair. "How's my little bug?"

''Good!'' She grinned up at her. ''You nanna?''

"I'm good, thank you for asking." She smiled at her cute little grin.

''Welcome!''

Theresa got up, carrying Hailey and walking to the bread Addison had made for her but they had both forgot about. She took a bite of the bread.

''When will daddy come home?''

"Daddy has school and he'll come home as soon as he can, sweetie."

''I want him to come home.'' She pouted, crossing her arms.

"I know you do but daddy has to study." Hailey's grandmother smiled.

''Why?'' She kept on pouting.

"So he can be a doctor." She took another bite of her bread.

''Oh.'' She crunched up her nose, looking at the ceiling in thought.

"Yeah." Theresa smiled and walked to the fridge, opening the door. "Sweetie, would you take that orange juice for nanna?"

''Yes.'' She nodded happily, carefully taking the carton box with two hands.

"Good." Theresa smiled broadly at her, she felt so proud at the moment. She took her coffee-mug and washed it quickly.

''Can we play games when mommy is gone?''

"What games do you want to play?" She smiled, pouring some orange-juice for herself.

''Uhm...'' She titled her head to the side, looking at the glass. ''Maybe board games oh and mommy and daddy bought me a new Barbie last week!''

"Tell me." Theresa grinned.

''Because I was such a good girl last week when you came!'' She said proudly.

"Yes you were a very good girl." She laughed and took a bite of her bread.

''Yes.'' Her smile grew even more. ''And Jussie got more Lego!''

"Good." Theresa smiled. "Would you hold my bread please?"

''Okay.''

She gave her the bread and took the juice in her free hand, walking towards the table.

''Want it back now?''

"Yes please." Theresa laughed, placing the juice on the table.

''So where is grandpa?'' She gave her grandma the sandwich back and crawled onto the chair next to her.

"Grandpa is..." She thought about it for a moment. "...working, I think."

''You think?'' She looked confused.

"I don't know if he left for work yet, it's only 8.30." She glanced for her watch, making up a quick lie.

''Oh.'' She nodded.

"Mhm." Theresa smiled, in the inside she was having doubts about her husband's current location.

A few seconds later Addison walked back into the kitchen. ''And I see someone still hasn't brushed her teeth.''

"C'mon, she's holding me company." Theresa laughed, finishing her bread.

''Okay but I gotta go now, please make sure she brushes her teeth okay?''

"Okay." Theresa flashed her a quick smile.

''Thanks.'' Addison grabbed Justin's coat from the chair, pulling it on while he fought his mother, not wanting to wear it.

"No problem." She smiled at the sight, Derek had been just like Justin. After the struggle he had his coat on and Addison kissed the top of her daughter's hair. ''Mommy will be right back.''

Justin smiled at his sister and grandma.

"Bye little guy." His grandma gave him a little kiss on the forehead.

''Bye Nanna!'' He waved.

"Get well." Theresa smiled.

"Bye Jussie!" Hailey waved.

''Bye!'' He grinned at his sister as his mother walked them out of the kitchen.

Theresa smiled and finished her juice as the front door closed. "Want to show me the Barbie now?" She asked.

''Yes!'' She giggled, already running towards the living room.