My first Death Note fanfiction and (spoiler) kissing scene! I hope I did OK *fangirls* Lx Light yay!

Do You Want Me (Dead)? (All Time Low)

The realisation that I attracted romantically to the main suspect of the Kira investigation hit me just yesterday. My first reaction was something along the lines of How very impractical, Lawliet.

Then I realized that well, if Light was in fact Kira as I had suspected, I would probably not be able to live with that fact.

I almost did not want to reveal the truth of this dilemma, simply out of fear of the result.

I wonder why that sudden display of cowardice occurred and shake my head at myself, moving onto less serious topics.

I chew my thumb, debating carefully whether to ask Watari for a vanilla or strawberry cake.

Honey brown eyes lock onto my own dark orbs and my reverie is broken. I stare as blankly and emotionlessly as I can at the curious, youthful and much changed gaze of Light Yagami. His eyes changed during his confinement. Became more open. He seemed more like a seventeen year old.

I don't want to admit it to myself, but I do love this young man.

I have known for quite some time that I have a less than straight sexual orientation. I just never allowed it to obstruct my progress of cases. Locking myself away in an emotionless box, I would solve case after case.

I acted as L, the justice machine. But now, I think I need to act as a selfish human being.

"Ryuzaki?" Light's voice catches my attention again. His face is so close it makes me nervous. He pokes me gently and I fiddle with a couple of sugar cubes on my plate.

"Yes, Light?" I say, my tone implying boredom.

He jingles the handcuffs. Then, imitating my voice and intonation he says:

"You've been staring at me for the last two minutes."

I almost chuckle, but then grow serious, my mind made up about this troubling predicament.

"I have something to show you, Light."

He nods. Is that a hint of pink I see on his perfect skin? I push all hopeful thoughts away from my mind.

"Funnily enough, Ryuzaki, I have something to show YOU." I nod. We both fidget awkwardly for a few seconds before we say in unison

"You first."

Light laughs. "OK, I'll go."

He takes a short breath. He holds the hand with the handcuffs up and I spin on the chair to face him.

"Ryuzaki, you aren't really accustomed to human relationships, are you?" I shake my head, wondering and suspecting where this is going. Light blushes as he raises his hand and brings it up to cup my face. His hand is hot and feels nice against my cool skin.

"How's that, Ryuzaki?" he says, barely audibly.

I snap. I can't hold this emotion in any more. I do three things in three seconds:

One: I lean forward.

Two: I whisper "Call me Lawliet."

Three: I kiss Light.

He eagerly and immediately begins to lead, biting my lower lip and creating little indentations in my flesh. I bring my arms up around his neck and shiver as he runs his tongue over my lips. I let him push his tongue into my mouth and we touch tongues. I sigh contentedly as he explores the contours of my mouth, acutely aware of his hands creeping up my shirt. I press myself as close to him as possible.

Suddenly I hear a small cough, afraid to take our eyes off each other, as if one of us will abruptly disappear. Laughable and illogical, but still I cannot help blushing like a silly high school girl.

Light and I look around finally and we realise that the entire time the task force has been looking on, utterly horrified. You can almost see the sweat drop appear above Light's head.

"Well, this is awkward..."