A/N- I hope you like it. Psych isn't mine.
Juliet's eyes were glued to the stick she held in her hands. The plus sign seemed to be staring at her. Mocking her. How could something so small, change everything?
Juliet berated herself for being careless enough to let this happen. She forgot her pill one day, and this happened. She could feel the tears well up in her eyes, but she wouldn't let them fall. She needed to make a call and then get ready for work. Juliet dropped the pregnancy test in the waste basket, along with her old life.
Later that day...
Shawn strutted into the police station, heading directly towards Juliet's desk. He was disappointed when he saw she wasn't there. He spun around to see Lassiter sitting at his desk, glaring at him. "Hey Lassie. Where's Jules? I mean, as much as I love to see to see your bright and shining face in the morning, I would much prefer to see her."
Lassiter wanted Spencer as far away from him as possible, so he decided to humor him. "She's in the room with the cold case files. I don't know what she's doing in there, but she has been acting really weird today. She keeps going off on everyone, so I figured it was easier to just leave her alone today."
Shawn perked up. He had never seen Juliet in a really bad mood, so he was curious as to what had caused it. "Thanks Lassie!" he yelled as he ran through the police station. He had never been in the cold case file room before, but he knew where it was. The door was tightly shut. He slowly pushed it open, so he wouldn't startle Juliet. He couldn't see anything because the room was pitch black. He thought Lassiter had been lying to him, until he saw a small lump leaning against the wall.
"Jules?" he asked as he flipped on the light. He gasped when he saw her look up at him with tear-stained cheeks. "Jules, why are you crying? What happened?"
"Nothing, Shawn. Just please go away." Her voice was thick with tears. She wanted to tell to him, but she was so embarrassed that she couldn't bring herself to say it.
Shawn could see right through her facade. He knew she didn't really want him to leave. "I'm not going to leave until I know you are okay. You don't have to tell me what is wrong, but it would make you feel better. And just so you know, my shoulder is always here for you to cry on." Shawn gave her a small smile, and sat next to her. He wanted to pull her into his arms and tell her everything would be okay, but he restrained himself. He didn't know what had happened, but he knew that he would do or say whatever he needed to to cheer her up.
Juliet looked at him and could tell he was sincere. She wanted to tell him so badly because she knew he wouldn't judge her, but she didn't know how to say it. She wanted to prolong this conversation as long as possible. She knew it would crush him, but it was inevitable. "I'm pregnant." Her voice was barely above a whisper, but Shawn felt as if the words were being shouted over and over at him.
Shawn's mind was everywhere. He had so many questions but he didn't know where to start. "When did you find out?"
Juliet swallowed back just enough tears to answer his question. "This morning. I was two weeks late, so I bought a pregnancy test."
Shawn couldn't believe what he was hearing. "Are you sure?"
"Pretty sure. I haven't gone to the doctor yet, but I used all four sticks that came in the box, and they all came back positive."
Shawn sucked in a breath, and asked the question he didn't know he wanted the answer to. "Who's the father?" Shawn didn't know Juliet even had a boyfriend, and now it turns out she's pregnant. Shawn didn't want to believe it.
"He is an old friend from college. His name is Ryan. I ran into him while I was getting coffee a couple months back. We went on a date and hit it off, so we have been dating since." Juliet knew what he was going to ask next, but she really hoped she was wrong.
"Have you told him yet?" Shawn hated the fact that Juliet was carrying someone else's child, but he didn't know why. He had never even wanted kids, and Juliet was just his friend. He didn't have a right to be upset over any of this, but he was.
Juliet sucked in a breath at the question. She knew he was going to ask it, but she didn't want to answer it. She knew Shawn would get mad, and she had been trying to forget about this particular conversation all morning. "I called him as soon as I found out. I knew he was leaving for a month to go to Europe, so I knew I wouldn't have many more chances to tell him for a while. He was really upset. He actually accused me of trying to get pregnant to get money from him." Juliet tried to sniff back the tears that were threatening to break through. "I still can't believe he would think that little of me," Juliet mumbled. She couldn't hold them in any longer, so a fresh set of tears started flowing. Shawn hesitantly put his arm around her shoulders and pulled her closer to him. "Needless to say, he dumped me over the phone." Juliet sniffed. She felt Shawn's body tense.
That enraged Shawn. He gritted his teeth and tightened the grip he had on Juliet's shoulder. "What a bastard! He dumped you! He gets you pregnant, and then he dumps you." Shawn couldn't remember ever being that mad at anyone before. He didn't know how anyone could break up with their girlfriend because they got pregnant; especially if their girlfriend was Jules. She was the most amazing woman he had ever met, and he couldn't think of anything she did to deserve being treated like that. "I really can't believe he had the nerve to think you would ever do something as sleazy as using a baby to get money. I hate that guy! I don't even know him, and I hate him! How could he do that to you? If I knew where he lived, I would, I would...I don't know what I would do to him, but it wouldn't be fun." Juliet layed her head on his shoulder, which caused Shawn to lean into her further. "You deserve better, Jules," Shawn whispered into her hair.
"Thanks, Shawn. Now I know what a jerk he is, but it's a little late to do anything about it," Juliet sighed. She wiped the last remaining tears from her eyes. She knew she had to stop feeling sorry for herself because she couldn't change anything. Sitting this close to Shawn made Juliet feel somewhat better. He calmed her nerves, and she felt as long as Shawn stayed right there with her, nothing bad would ever happen.
Thay sat together in silence until a single question shattered the little bubble that Juliet had placed around her and Shawn. "Are you going to keep it?"
That simple question scared Juliet. She already answered it as soon as she got the results of the pregnancy test, but she thought everyone else would think she was crazy. The weight if everything that came with her answer freaked her out worse than anything else. "I'm going to keep it, Shawn. I have to keep it. I mean, I won't have an abortion, and I know I couldn't carry this baby around for nine months and then give it up for adoption. I know having a baby is a huge decision, but it's the only option that works for me."
Shawn had already known that she would keep it. He knew she had never wanted kids, but he also knew that she would take responsibility and be a parent. "I think you will be a great mom. That's a lucky baby."
Juliet could feel her cheeks become hot, and she smiled at what he just said. The fact that he believed she could do it meant more to her than he could ever know. Fear still overwhelmed her though. "I don't know if I can do this on my own. I'm really scared, Shawn," she whispered as she buried her face into Shawn's shirt.
Shawn began to rub sothing circles on her back. "I know, Jules. I know you're scared, but you will never be alone in this. You have Lassie and Buzz and the chief and everyone else you work with. Then Gus will help you out. But most importantly, you have me. I will do anything for you, Jules. You can call me anytime you need anything and I will be right there. You won't have to do antything by yourself that you don't want to. I promise to help you out in whatever ways I can." Shawn meant everything. He didn't know why, but for some reason, even if this baby wasn't his, he felt a connection to it.
"Shawn, I can't let you do that. None of this is your fault, so you shouldn't feel obligated to do anything." Juliet hated to say that, but she didn't want Shawn to feel that he had to help her. She wanted his help, but only if he really wanted to help her.
"I want to help. You're my best friend next to Gus, so I wouldn't feel right leaving you on your own."
"Okay. You don't know how much this means to me. Thank you so much. I'm feeling a lot better now." Juliet could feel tears in her eyes, but for a different reason. A smile spread across her face.
"Happy I could help." When he saw the smile that spread across her face, it took all of his will power not to crush his lips on hers. Instead he looked away and stood up. "Come on. We'd better go before Lassie comes looking for us." He held his hand out to Juliet to help her up. She took his hand and he pulled her to her feet.
"Just so you know, you are the only person that I've told, so please don't say anything." Juliet didn't expect him to, but she had to make sure.
"I won't say anything to anyone, until you're ready." Shawn reached up and wiped a stray tear off of Juliet's cheek. He let his hand rest on her face longer than necessary. He finally opened the door, and they began to walk back into the chaotic police station.
"Oh, Jules. I almost forgot what I came to ask you," Shawn said as he came to an abrupt halt. "Do you think I could stay in your spare bedrom." Juliet's eyes widened. Shawn knew this had been a bad idea, so he started to stumble over his words. "I got evicted because apparently Gus didn't pay my rent this month, and Gus's apartment is too small for me to stay with him, and I really don't want to move back in with my dad, so you are my last resort. Please, Jules. It will only be until I can find another place to live."
The pleading look on Shawn's face melted Juliet's heart. She was powerless to him. "Yeah, Shawn. You can stay with me."
Shawn grinned and threw his arms around in a hug. "Thank you! Thank you! I will be by your house later with my stuff, so I have to go pack."
Shawn ran out of the station, and Juliet couldn't believe what she had just done. She really hoped she wouldn't regret this.
A/N- Thanks for reading! Please review. I have no idea what to do for the next chapter, so please pm me with any suggestions cuz I need help.
