I apologize for taking FOREVER to get this last part uploaded. I hope you enjoy this first chapter and I'm sorry that its short.

Sam looked out to the crowd of people. He couldn't believe the day had finally come where he would graduate. He saw his dad, which was a huge surprise, but he was looking for two people in particular. After a few minutes he found them. His brother and son, Dean and Dean Junior. He chuckled as he heard Dean scream the loudest when he finally was called and received his diploma.

"Hey babe, congratulations," Dean smiled as they headed over to Sam after the ceremony was over.

"Thanks. I can't believe I did it," Sam grinned wide kissing his brother before taking DJ.

"It took longer than you wanted, but you did it. And I for one am very proud of you."

"We all are," Bobby grinned clapping Sam on the back.

"So let's go celebrate," John smiled.

Sam frowned and walked over to his dad and whispered, "Christo."

John chuckled, "I'm not possessed Sam. I admit I'm trying to make up for lost time, but I'm not possessed."

Sam chuckled then yawned. Dean chuckled, "Actually I think Sammy could use a little nap. He's pretty exhausted.

"And whose fault is that?" He asked pointedly.

Dean just laughed and led Sam to the car where Sam buckled DJ in his seat before getting in the passenger seat. Dean gunned the engine and headed toward their house. Sam sighed looking out the window. Dean frowned as he glanced over at Sam.

"What's wrong?"

Sam shook his head, "Nothing. Just thinking," he sighed again.

"Sammy…"

"Nothing Dean. I'm just thinking. I mean things have happened that I never would've believed would happen. You and me, DJ, and I can't believe he's almost five months already; we actually have a house to call our own. And I finally graduated from college. It's almost surreal and I feel like something's gonna happen and take it all away."

Dean squeezed his brother's knee as he pulled in front of the house. He went around and took DJ out of his seat while Sam locked the doors and followed him inside the house. Once inside, Dean sat his son on the floor and headed into the kitchen to put on the coffee.

Dean sat on the couch next to Sam while he waited for the coffee, "I mean shouldn't you be happy? You're getting everything you ever wanted."

Sam shook his head, "Yeah I mean I am happy, but I'm not getting everything I ever wanted."

"What's missing?" Dean frowned.

Sam looked away and Dean sighed as he went to get the coffee. After a few moments he returned and sat the coffee on the table.

"Is it the fact that you want more kids?"

Sam shook his head, "No I'm fine with just DJ."

"Then what is it baby?" Dean frowned.

Sam sighed, "You."

Dean's frown deepened, "What do you mean? I'm right here."

Sam shook his head, "I miss you at nights. And you're almost always gone. If you're not hunting by yourself, you're hunting with Bobby or dad, or you're working late. The working late I can handle, it's just when you go hunting."

Dean sipped his coffee, "Baby, I asked you several times did you want me to quit and you said no."

Sam stood and started pacing, "It's not that I want you quit Dean, I mean hunting is a part of you. I just get scared because I don't know whether or not I'm gonna get a call saying that you died. I don't ever want to get that kind of call. I need you Dean and DJ needs his father.

DJ cooed as his name was called. Sam chuckled and knelt beside him, "Hey cutie, you hear us talking about you?"

Dean frowned, "So what do you want me to quit or not? I mean I'm getting confused here Sam."

Sam sighed, "Nothing Dean just forget it," he said picking DJ up to go change him.

Dean sighed as he sipped his coffee.

~SPN~

Later that evening the gang tried to give Sam a graduation party and invited the neighbors and some of his friends from school. Sam appreciated the thought, but his heart really wasn't in it. He tried to have fun and tried not to bring down the mood, but all he really wanted was for everyone to leave and he wanted to go to bed.

"What's wrong Sam?" Jeff asked. "You look like a sourpuss. Dean cheating on you or something?"

"NO! Back the fuck off Jeff! You don't know shit!"

Dean ran over to Sam and Jeff, "Excuse us Jeff. Sammy let's take a walk," he said leading Sam outside. "What's the problem?"

"Nothing."

"Sam, the next time you say nothing, I'm gonna punch you in your face. What the fuck is going on with you?"

Sam just crossed his arms and looked at Dean. Dean frowned.

"Seriously Sam, you're like a whole bucket of angst right now. What's going on?"

"I just wanna go to bed is that too much to ask?"

Dean narrowed his eyes, "Seriously? We're having a party for you and you wanna act like a little bitch?

"How would you know? You're always gone! You're never around when I need you!"

Dean nodded, "Now we're getting somewhere."

TBC...