A/N: Hello! This is my first BeyBlade fic. I'm really happy that I'm finally able to do one too. Now the story behind this is that I was listening to Fort Minor and that's why it started out the way it did. It's by far the stupidest thing I've ever written. It was gonna be an angst story but instead I turned it into Kai-kun being a wigger! Yes I have a very disturbed mind when drinking three glasses of Pepsi...anyways R&R please!
Disclaimer: I do not own any part of BeyBlade in any way, shape, or form. I write stories to keep myself from absolute boredom and cuz I wanna see what happens..
WARNING: This is a YAOI fic meaning boyxboy (or if your totally stupid then homosexual relationships) relations and there will most likely be a lemon in the next chapter.
Because of You
chapter 1Studio Session
He'd been held back, Pushed away, kept in the shadows for far too long.
He was the reason for his pain, the reason his life turned out all wrong.
Not once had he been told 'I love you' or cared for.
Like that even matters anymore.
Now that you're not here, all I ever do is think about you from dusk until dawn.
I guess it's true what I've been hearing all along.
Ya never really know what you've got til it's gone.
As much as I'd like to, I can't say that I caused his death.
Cuz' that's not true, I'll denie it until my very last breath.
It was all your fault, Tyson, the love of my life, wound up six feet deep.
All because you never let him make a peep.
Or drink, sleep, or eat.
Because of you I think about him even in my sleep.
Because of you I lost the only person who had ever loved me.
He saw that I was fucked up, but still, wih me is where he wanted to be.
Because of you he lost his life.
Because of you...
Because of you...
Because of you he made the choice to pick up that knife.
Because of you...
Because of you...
Right now, someone's leaving their apartment.
Looking down at the street wondering where their car is at.
While when you were still here and it was at the end of my day.
I would find myself by the phone, though when you called I'd find that I didn't have much to say.
And I want you to know it's really fucked up that you took him away.
I'm not doin' fine, but it's not gonna stay that way.
You took away my happiness and joy.
So now I'm not gonna rest til I find what you truly love, that...I'll destroy!
Because of you he lost his life
Because of you...
Because of you...
Because of you he made the choice to pick up that knife.
Because of you...
Because of you...
Because of that fucker I lost my meaning.
The next time I see him he's getting one hell of a beating.
Because of you it came down to this.
Because of you it's him that I'll forever miss...
"Damn Kai, that's deep. Are you sure you want to put that on the album?" Rei asks me after reading the words on the crumpled up piece of paper he held.
"Yeah I'm sure. I want everyone to know why I'm the way I am," I say bluntly, leaning back in the chair by the DJ station outside the recording booth. "The beat's on the tape."
"Ok man, whatever works."
"Cool Rei. As much as it hurts to say this..." my voice trails off.
"Hai?"
"Arigato..." I mumble.
"Heh, anytime buddy." Rei says slapping my back playfully.
I shrug him off and stand up. As I step into the booth the lights turn on and I set the paper on the stand in front of the mic. Once the headphones are on I give Rei a thumbs up. Seconds later the music I had give Rei plays in my ears. When the right part comes in I let the words leave the paper and become my voice. Everything that I've been feeling these past four months come out, making my words raw and harsh.
The beat keeps playing once all the words are said and I freestyle an extra verse before it fades out. I look up through the window and see Max standing next to Rei. When did the midget get here? I ask myself, stepping out of the booth.
"Sup Max?" I ask casually before taking my seat again.
"Just came by to see how your cd was coming. That was really beautiful Kai." Max replies with gleaming eyes.
Poor kid's liked me since before I can remember. I've told him plenty of times not to suck up to me. It doesn't matter what he does though cuz I can never be with him. Not my type anymore. Blondes annoy me now.
"Whatever, listen. Do I have to do that again, or was that good enough?" I ask annoyed now that I've been hit on.
Rei is the only reason that makes me wanna live now. It pains e so much too, because I started feeling like this only two months after Tyson died. Half the time I feel bad cuz then this song is meaningless. The other half, I'm fine cuz I know that if I ever do run into Tyson's foster father I seriously will fucking kill him. If it wasn't for him I'd still have Tyson by my side for support.
He's the reason I decided to take rapping serious. Then a year later he dies. Two months after that I fall for our best friend. Now I'm finally done making my first cd. Fully dedicated to Tyson for his love and support. The cd is self titled 'Kai'. I wanted to keep it simple. Tyson died in the worst possible way. Every dy he was beaten, every night he was touched, and he was always starving. Finally, he got fed up with it all.
One day, after he had gotten beaten so bad he could barely walk, he had woken up to an empty house. Tyson took it as the time to get away. That day Tyson had slit his own throat. I honestly don't remember how long I cried when Rei told me. Rei's the best friend anyone can ask for. He promised he'd never tell anyone about me crying.
I had cried for weeks after that day. Every now and then I'd call Rei and he would come over and comfort me. Maybe that's why I'm attracted to him now.
"Koi, did you hear me?" Rei shouts, bringing me out of my thoughts.
"Hn?" Did he just call me koi?
"I said, Kai, did you hear me?" Rei repeats.
"Nope, zoned out."
"-Sigh- Typical. I said lets do it one more time and we're done. I think that's all it'll take."
I sigh and make my way through the door yet again.
"Later guys. I have to get bak home. Kenny'll get mad if I'm not back in time for dinner." Max says heading to the exit.
"Sounds like someone's whipped." I smirk, turning my head to look at a blushing blonde.
Oh, and did I mention he's still with Kenny too?
"No...it's just that if I miss this dinner-it's our three moth anniversary-then I won't get to have sex with him for a while."
Max...it's like I said. Whipped." I say again while he hurriedly walks away to get home.
Rei and I laugh. After I get through with the second take, Rei puts all the songs onto a disc and we walk out towards the head executive's office. Once we drop it off we make our way outside to his black, 1991 Mustang.
"So, you wanna go out and celebrate?" Rei asks once we're on the street.
It's about ten o' clock and dark out. I'm exhausted from being in that damned studio all day.
"No, just take me home so I can go relax." I reply with a stifled yawn.
"Kay, buddy."
We're about a block away from my house when Rei speaks again.
"Ya know that last song...it got me thinking." Rei says glancing over at me.
"About...?" I ask curiously as we pull into my driveway.
"About how I can't stop thinking about you. Period. Kai, I've liked you for quite some time now. And it hurts when all I dream about is a man who cant let the past go." Rei replies quietly before capturing my soft pink lips with his chastely.
After he pulls away I stare at him in total shock. Never in mine, Tyson's, Max's, Kenny's, or anyone's life has Rei made the first move. He must REALLY like me.
"But...Tyson-"
"Would want you to be happy. Not moping around for the rest of your life. Kai...you're about to become famous and you need someone to help you through all the bad shit. Someone more then a friend.
I take everything Rei just said into consideration. Then I quietly get out of the car. He sighs and puts his head on the steering wheel as I shut the door. I walk around to his side and wrap my knuckles on his window. Rei looks up and rolls it down to be greeted with a smile. A smile is something I haven't done for...so long. Too long.
"Wha-"
I cut him off with a kiss. My tongue slips into his mouth and is instantly attacked by his. Inwardly I chuckle. Why does he bother if he knows I'll win? We break part for air and he stares at me in awe.
"What? I can't give you a goodnight kiss back?" I say with a smirk playing on my face.
I turn to walk away, but Rei grabs my arm.
A/N: And there is the first chapter! It was supposed to be a fluffy one-shot, but I decided on making one more chapter with a lemon. I'll post that in a few days. Now is the time to show me what you think. Please hit that lil' review button and tell me how you like this so far! NO FLAMES PLEASE! I know the beginning sucked ass, but meh. I don' care, lol.
