Seven long months of avoidance, seven long months of trying to stay away from Jorrvaskr...away from Farkas. Selyna stood with Wuuthrad's staff sitting on top of her shoulder with the massive blades behind her head, her eyes scanning the area around her from behind her mask. In the time she spent away from Jorrvaskr, she had tracked down two Dragon Priests and spent time reading old legends and tales about the Dragonborn and the fate that accompanied the Dragonborn. Alduin was the sworn enemy of the Dragonborn and she was the only person on Nirn who could truly kill him. In her mind, duty came before all, even a personal life which left her unsure about what to really do where Farkas was concerned. She hadn't completely understood why women had to wear amulets of Mara to show that they were ready to settle down and because of the amulet she was forced to avoid Farkas like he carried a disease until she could decide what answer she could give him.
"Are we to stare at the horizon all day?" Selyna looked back at Jenassa, a dunmer woman like herself who she had come to realize over the five months was far more than capable of handling herself.
Jenassa also had a sharp tongue when it was needed but the woman wasn't prideful which Selyna liked.
"No, I was deciding where we should go next." Crossing a arm under her breast, she turned and looked at the woman standing behind her.
Sighing, Selyna pulled the map of Skyrim out of her pack and scanned it quickly. The plot of land she had built near Riverrun had a stain of blood on it, she had finished the foundation and began with the support beams with the help of Jenassa and Faendal helping. Smiling, she thought of Faendal and his now pregnant wife Camilla. It made her wonder about her own future, she wasn't so young that she didn't understand what was to happen between a man and a woman but the defeat of Alduin came before those thoughts.
"I think I we shall go and help build more of the house then head back to Whiterun. I have items that need to be sold for coin and I should check on Lydia. Poor woman must be itching for a fight." Selyna had left Lydia in the house she had bought in Whiterun, it was a modest sum and Selyna needed a place that was safe and secure to keep items she would hide from prying eyes.
Turning to Jenassa, she studied the woman. Remembering statements and comments she had heard from the sharp tongued older Dunmer woman. Jenassa's orange facial tattoos were bright in the light, it drew attention to her red eyes and thin lips. It amazed Selyna that she was not married, she was pleasing to the eyes but she assumed her sharp tongue was what frightened men away.
"You should like of marrying and settling down, I'm sure one of the brothers in the Drunken Huntsmen would be more than happy to have you." Selyna told the other woman as she began to walk towards the Western Watchtower.
Selyna strapped Wuuthrad to her back, the weight no longer weighing her down as it would when she first took the weapon into her hands. The seven months had given her time to hone her body far more than she would have back at home.
"I'll start looking for a man when you do." Jenassa quipped with a smirk on her face but Selyna fired right back,
"I will hold you to your promise Jenassa."
The smells assaulted Selyna's nostrils first and she couldn't help but breath deep, missing the familiar smells of the market place making her smile. She had left Jenassa back at the Drunken Huntsmen for the time being while she shopped and went to check on the status of Jorrvakr. As she ascended the stairs to the next level of Whiterun she saw that the Gildergreen was blossoming, this made her smile because it was from her help that Danica Pure-Spring was able to restore the tree to it's healthy state. Continuing onward, she climbed the stairs of Jorrvaskr with a heavy heart. Selyna rubbed her right shoulder absentmindedly, it had been too long since she had seen the wooden building and a part of her wasn't so sure she should even be back at Jorrvaskr since she had practically ran off after Farkas asked her to marry him.
"Selyna?" The voice wasn't soft, it sent shivers down her spine because she knew whose voice it was.
Turning, she turned and saw the one person she had been dreading seeing. Farkas. He stood, his eyes focused on her and she could see the hurt within his eyes, the confusion. It hurt to see him in such as state and Selyna was sure that he saw her pain.
"Hello." Was all she could muster out before she turned and proceeded back up the stairs to Jorrvaskr but was stopped by the large wall of a man whom she had just spoken to.
"Selyna." His voice was demanding, he wanted an explanation for her running away and refusing to come back and she knew it.
"I have business to attend to. I have been away from Jorrvaskr for too long." Selyna tried to make her voice as emotionless as possible, she needed to be indifferent about this particular person business.
Farkas shook his head at her, "No. We will settle this now Selyna." He was unmoving despite that she was far from deciding about their unspoken relationship, sighing, she spoke,
"Farkas. I don't know what answer to give you now. I have a duty to defeat Alduin and save this country from itself." Selyna's voice was low and hushed as she spoke to him, her red eyes looking up into his.
All of the explanations she could give would not be enough for this man and Selyna didn't want to drive him away because in all truths, she loved Farkas and she couldn't give him up as much as she would like to.
"Farkas, I have a duty to uphold not only to Jorrvaskr or to Skyrim but to my kin. Dark elves and Nords do not-"
"Don't say it." Farkas growled and inched closer to her but Selyna would not back down, she was not some young girl any more.
"I will say it. Dark elves and Nords do not marry. I am mer you are man. This, we must both accept." Selyna hung her head a little after she spoke.
It hurt her to say such words to him but now was not the time to be worried about men. Farkas growled low as he grabbed her hard, pulling her into Jorrvaskr, ignoring everyone as he did so despite Selyna's protests. He only stopped once they were in the Harbinger's room, slamming the doors behind the both of them and then forcing her against the wall. His lips hard on hers as she gasped, Farkas' hands lifted her up and Selyna wrapped her legs around his hips as her hands dove into his hair. Their connection was like lightning running rampant through them both and she didn't want to deny him then despite their differences.
"Farkas...Farkas please." Selyna's voice was full of want as she spoke softly to him.
"How can you deny me?" He growled to her before his lips moved to her neck, leaving her gasping in pleasure.
"I can't Farkas. I can't but I need to. I'm the Dragonborn." Farkas knew well enough what she was but he did not care,
"If you tell me to wait, I will." His voice low and husky whispered into her ear as his hands roamed upwards, over her sides and onto her breasts.
Gasping low, she focused her eyes on him as his lips came up and claimed hers. Selyna wanted him to wait for her so badly because she wanted him more than she had she had ever wanted anything in her life.
"Will you wait for me? I need you to wait Farkas." Alduin came first on her list, the dragon had to be taken care of before she could ever really feel safe to settle down and start a family. Not that it would be easy to start a family, he was Nord and she was Dunmer.
Farkas pressed his face in the crook of her neck and inhaled, taking in the scent that was uniquely her. The power, the smell of another creature prowling under her skin made him shiver in delight. It was almost as if he could feel the dragon reaching out to his senses.
"I would." Selyna let out a breath she hadn't realized she had been holding and it was like a burden had been lifted from her shoulders.
"I want to be your wife Farkas. I do." Selyna rested her head on his shoulder and sighed as he slowly let her down so that she stood on her own two feet.
"But?" He added,
"But Alduin has to be destroyed first."
